What Kind of Killer Are you?

First off... Happy Christmas.. Happy New Year.. and all that.

Yeah I know.. I've been busy.

I dunno. Taking care of cats and working?

Whatever. I know, I know.

Makes me want to move to the mountains and be a hobbit.

A hobbit? wtf? shhhh it's ok.

Results?

Amusingly on a good day I'm


You are a Samurai.
You are full of honour and value respect. You
are not really the stereotypical hero, but you
do fight for good. Just in your own way. For
you, it is most certainly okay to kill an evil
person, if it is for justice and peace. You
also don't belive in mourning all the time and
think that once you've hit a bad stage in life
you just have to get up again. It's pointless
to concentrate on emotional pain and better to
just get on with everything. You also are a
down to earth type of person and think before
you act. Impulsive people may annoy you
somewhat.

Main weapon: Sword
Quote: "Always do the right thing.
This will gratify some people and astonish the
rest" -Mark Twain
Facial expression: Small smile

But on a bad day...


You are an assassin.
That means you are a proffessional and do your
job without mixing any emotions in it. In your
life you have probably been hurt many times and
have gotten some mental scars. This results in
you being distant from people. Though many
think that you are evil, you are not. What you
really are is a person, trying to forget your
pain and past. You are the person who never
seems to care and that is why being an assassin
fits you good. Atleast, that's what people
think. Even if you don't care that much for
your victims, you still have the ability to
care and to generally feel. It is not lost,
just a little forgotten. In crowds you tend to
not get to noticed, and dress in black or other
discrete colours. You don't being in the
spotlight and wish people would just leave you
alone. But once you do get close to someone you
have a hard time letting go and get real down
if you loose him/her.

Main weapon: Sniper
Quote: "The walls we build around
us to keep out the sadness also keep out the
joy" -Jim Rohn
Facial expression: Narrowed eyes


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Ved ikke hvordan

Ah yes.. Monday.. back to work, back to the grind, back to posting on my blog instead of actually doing work. I can't help it though I'm just not motivated to work right now. If people come hit me up on stuff.. sure, I'll respond. But damn that. I want to slack. I want to do nothing. I want to be a hermit, (or a hobbit depending on who you talk to), for a little bit. Meh.

The weekend was pretty good. I amost died.. hrmm and got injured a few times. So nothing new there. Some advice for people who don't know. If operating a jacuzzi and wanting to put 'bubbles' in it, be sure to have the jets on while you're adding the bubbles otherwise it'll be bubbles! bubbles everywhere!!! Awesome.

Gotta finish X-Mas tree stuff this week. This season of depression (Thanksgiving to a week after Valentines Day) hasn't been so bad I guess, but I still have some moments. Most of it being internal or in my head. All the crap you get from growing up in a broken home or a messed up family and all that, it's a lame excuse to use when asked why you don't like the holidays or why the make you sad and such. And it's a hard thing to place blame, but even harder to move on. If you think about it.. if you feel you're a good person or you're happy with the way you are then all the negative things that have happened to you only made you a better person. So what can you do other than accept lessons learned no matter how harsh they may have been and move on?

Aw hell.. they're replacing windows at work. I have a window seat. 18th floor. You'd think the assholes could have done this I dunno.. IN THE SPRING? ... I'm going to go do some work for now. Will post later I spose.

Holla

- D -

Pretty sure I posted these lyrics before.. but whatever it's my song on repeat of the day.

Sash! - Together Again

[Chorus]
I don't know where
I don't know how,
But I only know,
That one day,
We'll be together again

And I don't know where,
I don't know how,
But I only know,
That one day,
We'll be together again

It's been a long long time,
Since I left you all alone,
You need to know I had to go,
Far away from you.

I'll walk in this wasted land,
No one to take my hand,
Tell me why you came that way,
I don't know why.

[Chorus]

[Verse 2 (In Danish)]
Siden jeg gik fra dig,
Foles livet lang og hard,
Men jeg tror jeg kommer mig,
for tidlig jeg sa.

[Verse 2 (English Translation)]
Since I left you,
Life has felt long and hard,
But I think I will get better,
Because I saw early.

Jeg ved ikke hvor,
Ved ikke hvordan,
Men jeg haber kun at du en dag,
Vil v?re hos mig igen.

I don't know where,
Don't know how,
But I only hope that one day,
You will be with me again.
Nej, Jeg ved ikke hvor,
Ved ikke hvordan,
Men jeg haber kun at du en dag,
Vil v?re hos mig igen.

No, I don't know where,
Don't know how,
But I only hope that one day,
You will be with me again.

[Chorus]

Don't know where, don't know how,
But I only know,
That we'll be together again.

And I don't know where, (don't know where)
I don't know how, (don't know how)
But I only know,
We'll be together again.

Frozeded

First let me get something out of the way before the senseless rambling begins.

FUCK YOU WINTER!

Right now that we're clear.

I'm sad to report that Ninja Diva will not be joining us for Tallulah's show tonight. She will be with us in spirit though, and years from now when she's President or something, we will know that it was well worth it.

Hopefully this weekend will be good. Some R&R planned.

So last night driving home, people were lucky I didn't have a 10-pack of 'D' batteries. Windshields would have been broken. Now.. if someone is driving down the street and its snowing heavily..and you see obviously they are having trouble getting traction do you

A) Follow behind patiently
b) Turn onto another street
c) Feel bad and bake them a pie when you get home
d) Be a total jackass and honk your horn at them

If you picked d , email me your address so I can mail you a flaming pile of crap. Ok? Thanks. If however you picked c, I'll send you my address instead.

Meh. I'm tired not even going to get into everything else that's going on right now.

- D -

365 days later

"Zwan - Honestly"

I believe
I believe
I believe
I believe the love you talk about with me
is it true, do I care
honestly, you can try to wipe the memories aside
but it's you that you erase

'cause there's no place that I could be without you
it's too far to discard the life I once knew
honestly, all the weather storms are bringing
are just a picture of my dreams
'cause when I think of you as mine
and allow myself with time
to lead into the life we want
I feel loved, honestly
I feel loved, this honestly

I believe you mean the best that life can bring
I believe in it all
honestly, you can try
your heart is just as long as mine
is it ours to let go

'cause there's no place that I could be without you
it's too dark to discard the life I once knew
honestly, a single wrong is not enough
to cover up the pain in us
'cause when I think of you as mine
and allow myself with time
to lead into the life we want
I feel loved, honestly
I'll make a joke so you must laugh
I'll break your heart so you must ask
is this the way to get us back
I don't know, honestly
I don't know, this honestly

there's no place that I could be without you
honestly

there's no place that I could be without you
there's no place that I could gleam without you
there's no place that I could dream without you
there's no place that I could be without you
honestly

shin-shoryuken

Not much to say. Hooked up my Xbox to Xbox Live again over the weekend. Panda Thug and I then proceeded to own / get owned in some Street Fighter. It was much fun. Yes. Also bought Mortal Kombat Shaolin Monks which has an unlockable Mortal Kombat II on the same disc. Its odd playing some of these games that were a huge part of my teenage years. Crap. You know you're getting old when you say something like.. back in my teenage years. I'm going to go smack my head against the wall a bit now.

Almost 28 and still haven't saved the world. I'm such a fucking slacker. Who am I kidding though.. I can't even pay off my damn credit card debt right now. DOH.....

I understand why some people get addicted to playing online games. I probably was moreso than I am now "back in my teenage years". But it's healthy to be able to self analyze and check yourself when it gets out of control.

The guest cats staying at my place will be going back to Haruka's friend Digiblonde, and they made me miss my cats more. Pets are important if you don't have kids because it's a nice feeling to know that someone is depending on you to feed them and give them attention... oh wait.. i have friends like that to. Ok nevermind all that.

4..3..2..1... earth beloow us.. drifting falling floating weightless calling calling... sorry that was playing on winamp.

Oh I just remembered I never reported on how Cali went. My boys Koopa Troopa and Yoga Fire took me out to play some Street Fighter hehe. Koopa also took me to this industrial club.. goth chicks everywhere. It was.. interesting. It reminded me of the tidbit Tallulah once said about Goth people "I'm so Goth I'm DEAD!". Amusing.

Lame. I should get back to work.

Holla.

- D -


Gwen Stefani - Cool

It's hard to remember how it felt before
Now I found the love of my life
Passes things, get more comfortable
Everything is going right

And after all the obstacles
It's good to see you now with someone else
And it's such a miracle that you and me are still good friends
After all that we've been through
I know we're cool
I know we're cool

We used to think it was impossible
Now you call me by my new last name
Memories seem like so long ago
Time always kills the pain

Remember Harbor Boulevard
The dreaming days where the mess was made
Look how all the kids have grown, oh
We have changed but we're still the same
After all that we've been through
I know we're cool
I know we're cool

Yeah, I know we're cool

And I'll be happy for you
If you can be happy for me
Circles and triangles
And now we're hanging out with your new girlfriend
So far from where we've been
I know we're cool
I know we're cool

C-cool, I know we're cool
I know we're cool

When November Ends...

Busy. Nothing clever or witty to write at the moment. I'm still here. If you need to get in touch with me I'm sure you'll be able to if you make the effort to do so. I got a computer up and running but need to get a new video card for it this weekend because as a gamer.. it's not up to par.

Though September has passed already, this song is fitting when dealing with the loss of a loved one. Give someone a hug. Awesome.

Green Day - Wake Me Up When September Ends

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when september ends

Like my fathers come to pass
Seven years has gone so fast
Wake me up when september ends

Here comes the rain again
Falling from the stars
Drenched in my pain again
Becoming who we are

As my memory rests
But never forgets what I lost
Wake me up when september ends

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when september ends

Ring out the bells again
Like we did when spring began
Wake me up when september ends

Here comes the rain again
Falling from the stars
Drenched in my pain again
Becoming who we are

As my memory rests
But never forgets what I lost
Wake me up when september ends
Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when september ends

Like my fathers come to pass
Twenty years has gone so fast
Wake me up when september ends

Right back where we started from...

So today I'm flying out to Cali to be exact I'll be going to Orange County and Santa Monica for work and will not be back until Sunday. The fact that the opening piano chords are in my head from THE OC are slowly driving me insane.

Not much to write about hmm.. got a raise, that's dope considering how much I've been working and the fact that they never adjusted my salary after I took my current position. Should also get a raise in March to. WOOT! Wanna be baller in the house!

How are all of you? I haven't heard from many people as of late.

My compy at home died... sigh. Something sad about being in IT and not being able to fix your main computer. Hell, I even have cuts on my hand from replacing every piece of hardware in the damn thing still nothing... it just lost the will to live :(

Anyway.. hope everyone is well. I'll give a holla when I can.

- D -

Holy shit, this song really does have lyrics

California - Phantom Planet

We've been on the run
Driving in the sun
Looking out for Number 1
California here we come
Right back where we started from
Hustlers grab your guns
Your shadow weighs a ton
Driving down the 101
California here we come
Right back where we started from
California!
Here we come!
On the stereo
Listen as we go
Nothing's gonna stop me now
California here we come
Right back where we started from
Pedal to the floor
Thinkin' of the roar
Gotta get us to the show
California here we come
Right back where we started from
California!
Here we come!

Guacamole

Ok so this is kind of gross at the same time semi-amusing. I'll apologize in advance.
The following is an Email I sent to Haruka today while I was sitting here at work hehe.
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Ohmigod.. did you ever blow your nose so hard that so much or such a huge.. chunk come out that you were almost proud like giving birth?

I was so shocked and surprised I almost cried...

But.. now I can breathe through the left side of my nose I just need to have twins so I can breathe out the right side.

Ok.. just thought I'd share. Wow.

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My nose kinda hurts now.. awesome but hey I can breathe wheeeeeee... only 2 hours left.. I need to invent some sort of illegal designer narcotic just so I can call it something clever like how the movie Minority Report had the drug 'Clarity'. Current modern day drugs are all like.. I need some rock.. some weed,, some heroin. Not very smart on the people who created or thought of thoe names because it's not like you can use that in everyday sentences unlike.. damn I could sure use some clarity right now. Ok this post is going downhill. Good job.

- D -

I Guess I'll Die Another Day

So... I'm not dead still a bit sick though. Lame. Someone told me the other day I work to much / to hard which is why I'm sick. I kind of laughed and nearly cried at the thought of that because what it boils down to is.. the days of not having to be responsible are so long gone, I can't even remember them. Lame.

So Javi's wedding reception was pretty good. Got there late cuz I had to work till 5 this and that but whatever. Sat down at the table they were like.. here's your dinner. After having driven over an hour to get there I was like... SWEET!. Poor Donovan.. soon as I get there and talk to everyone and the table, we look up at him sitting at the head table and all start laughing which of course causes him to be like.. wtf? I was half expecting him to stand up in his tux and full out yell "Goddamit I hear you talking about me"... ah good times. Haruka and I didn't stay to long though. We ate, we danced, we speed back to the city. Sickness was still burning pretty hot that night.

The next night we had dinner with Dono again out in the burbs.. boo. But sall good, not like we get to see Dono everday anymore.

Haruka got me some stuff for Sweetest Day aka The Hallmark Valentine's Day for men. I got a ring that she put alot of thought into, most impressive, and a bracelet that's heavy and shiney.. kinda makes me wrap it around my knuckles and hit people with it. I'm sure however that is not her original idea when she got it for me. She's getting earrings I feel but I still have to go find some that are nice. Yes.

I need to get over being sick because there's an issue I have to deal with where someone needs to stop slacking and needs a kick in the ass or a smack to the head. Awesome.

I'll write more eventually when the sickness and or work get up off me.

Oh also had a quick check-in with Tallula and Ninja Diva today. I'm glad they're both doing well. Gotta check in with people now and then just to know they're okay, ya know?

- D -

The Things We Do In Person

So I'm slowly returning to the land of the living. I've been sick as hell for the past week now. Missed three or so days of work even. Yeah.. boss wasn't to pleased about that but ya know what.. I came in and everyone saw how sick I was and he told me to go home soooo whatever.

Haven't posted for awhile so not sure where to start. The Nine Inch Nails concert last week was pretty good. It did make me feel a bit out of place though. Almost like.. did I outgrow all of this? The people walking around with their face painted, or all punked / gothed out. I was much angrier when I was younger and I accept that. But I think the older I get.. the more I just don't let things phase me and the more nonchalant I become about everything. There were definitely a couple of things that amused me;

The lone white guy dancing.. wildy.. looking like a fool. (A couple of other people and I were just looking at him like.. wtf?)

The older larger black lady that was jamming out to NIN. (I have no response to that other than.. whoa)

The couple who though they were at an Anime convention. (If only I could speak fluent japanese I would have so fucked with them)

All the 'Crow' wannabes. (Dude.. do you know what year it is?)

The guy who thinks because he's in a mosh pit he has to take off his shirt and subject everyone else around him to his sweat. (Fucking ew)

There was however this little ass girl in the front of the pit who was holding her own let alone pushing other people around. (Impressive)

Uhh that's probably not all of it, but its all that I can remember. One other comment about the concert.. when the fuck did concert shirts becom $40 to $50??? F that.. you know what I could do with $50? Hell.. I could use it for credit card payments.. or for things like.. gas.. and food. Maybe I really am getting old.. sigh.

Aside from the concert this and that has been going on. Friend of mine moved in with Haruka and I. He needed a place to crash for a bit so why not I'm not going to leave a bro out on the street. I'm not sure what to call him on here.. hmm.

Ah crap.. I'll expand on all this later I started this 3 hours ago and I need to leave so I can make it time to go home.. change into a suit... then drive out to the burbs for Javi's wedding reception. Just damn.

- D -

Oohhh I'm gonna see Donovan tonight.. ahahah he'll prolly get drunkass to.. good times haha.

Pretty Hate Machine in a Downward Spiral

I feel like I'm getting a bit to old to go to these but..

NIN Concert tonight.. bitches!

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Nine Inch Nails - We're In This Together Now

(Partial)

the farther I fall I'm beside you
as lost as I get I will find you
the deeper the wound I'm inside you
forever and ever I am a part of

you and me
we're in this together now
none of them can stop us now
we will make it through somehow

you and me
if the world should break in two
until the very end of me
until the very end of you

And mannnny moooore

Yesterday was Haruka's birthday so I was a bit busy running around and "plotting" and all that. So I didn't have a chance to post

Tanjoubi omedetou !

Until now.

Amusing story from last night... I burned the CRAP outta my finger lighting the candles on Haruka's birthday cake. She says afterwards.. why didn't you just get me the numbers that are candles instead? My response? Because these were pink and that's your favorite color. Pfft. I win =)
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Also today is Donovan's Birthday.

Slacker isn't on any of the chat programs. He's probably busy studying... studying women's asses in a bar that is. Good Job.

He's in AX so he can get his gift when he comes back to visit in a couple of weeks IF he brings my sunglasses.. get that Dono.. Sunglasses for the win. Awesome.

No lyrics or anything else big today no time cuz work still sucks. Yes. Still.

- D -

Women of ASU

So Donovan has this posted on his blog.

www.palmwalk.com

It's apparently the ASU version of the 'Hot or Not' website.
Looking through it, it's a scale of 1 to 10 on if you think
a girl is hot. Apparenly over 700 people have voted on some
of these pics and sadly the top score is only 6. something.

What the hell kind of standards do these 700+ people have
in deciding if they think a girl is hot or not? Jeebus.

- D -

Exploding Butter !

Just a friendly word of caution: Those little plastic things of butter they give you at restaurants for your bread.. the ones that look like coffee creamers but actually have butter in them? Yeah... contents may explode under pressure.

Example.

Dhavid and Haruka at lunch. Dhavid picking one up and squeezing.. all the sudden.. PLLOOPP.. oh.. look I have butter on my hands now and it shot across the table.

Awesome.

- D -

I've decided

That I'm going to start working out and training upstairs at work again. I feel this is mainly because they have a punching bag and I need to get some aggression and anger out.

Anger is an interesting thing I feel. It takes alot of energy to maintain a certain level of Anger / Angst and afterwards depending how angry you were, it can leave you drained mentally and physically. However, at the same time it can be what drives you and you can draw strength from it when you feel you need a little extra push.

Grr. Grr I say.

I'm trying to help one of the 'bros' and he'll be staying at my place for a bit till he and Panda Thug get a place of their own. What can we do in life besides try right?

When you stop trying, that's when you may as well lay down and die or get back up and try a different plan of attack. Otherwise. Good job, game over.

I'm annoyed that none of my local friends like Depeche Mode enough to go to a concert.. hmm.. crap come to think of it there might have been one or two people I could have hit up to go.. now I need to get tickets and they're sold out... GRR
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Depeche Mode - Precious

Precious and fragile things
Need special handling
My God what have we done to you
We always tried to share
The tenderest of care
Now look what we have put you through

Things get damaged
Things get broken
I thought we'd manage
But words left unspoken
Left us so brittle
There was so little left to give

Angels with silver wings
Shouldn't know suffering
I wish I could take the pain for you
If God has a master plan
That only He understands
I hope it's your eyes He's seeing through

Things get damaged
Things get broken
I thought we'd manage
But words left unspoken
Left us so brittle
There was so little left to give

I pray you learn to trust
Have faith in both of us
And keep room in your hearts for two

Things get damaged
Things get broken
I thought we'd manage
But words left unspoken
Left us so brittle
There was so little left to give

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- D -

Seriously. Just Damn.

7:41am.. Email to the blackberry from my manager. Message reads. Anyone awake yet? 8:01am , call to my personal cell from manager.. blah blah blah do this do that.. my reply.. ok I'll handle it first thing when I get in.. I'm on the road right now and on my way.

Normal start time 8:30am.

I am clearly stating for the record that I hate working on projects that deal with people who are lazy or don't do their job correctly causing everyone else involved with the project to have to put in even more time and effort thereby raising their stress levels even higher... I feel like a cross between Tweak and the goth kid from South Park right now.
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Plumb- Damaged

Dreaming comes so easily
'Cause it's all that
I've ever know
True love is a fairy tale
I'm damaged, so
How would I know
I'm scared and I'm alone
I'm ashamed
And I need for you to know

I didn't say all the things
That I wanted to say
And you can't take back
What you've taken away
'Cause I feel you,
I feel you near me

Healing comes so painfully
And it chills to the bone
Will anyone get close to me?
I'm damaged, as
I'm sure you know

There's mending for my soul
An ending to this fear
Forgiveness for a man
Who was stronger
I was just a little girl, but
I can't go back
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I like that song at the same time.. it kind of makes me think of other bad things.. hrm.. damn good job playlist on random. GAH.

Life Work Balance.. ha!

Work's been busy and I've had to hit the ground running after getting back from San Francisco last week. Don't want to go to much into detail about the trip. It had it's moments that's about all I'm going to say there.

Anyway. I'll update when I get a chance. I can say I've been borderline angry / depressed these past couple of days and I'm still trying to figure out the cause... probably work. I dunno.

Peace.

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New Order - Subculture

I like walking in the park
When it gets late at night
I move `round in the dark
And leave when it gets light
I sit around by day
Tied up in chains so tight
These crazy words of mine
So wrong they could be
What do I get out of this?
I always try, I always miss
One of these days you'll go back to your home
You won't even notice that you are alone
One of these days when you sit by yourself
You'll realise you can't shaft without someone else
In the end you will submit
It's got to hurt a little bit

I like talking in my sleep
When people work so hard
They need what they can't keep
A choice that leaves them scarred
A room without a view
Unveils the truth so soon
And when the sun goes down
You've lost what you had
What do I get out of this?
I always try, I always miss
One of these days you'll go back to your home
You won't even notice that you are alone
One of these days when you sit by yourself
You'll realise you can't shaft without someone else
In the end you will submit
It's got to hurt a little bit


PS. I miss R & T *sigh*

I Will Always

Man.. this has got to be one of the coolest covers I've ever heard. This group Snake River Conspiracy does a version of The Cure song, Lovesong. It's really good if you like SRC's style of music. The lead singer sounds like an older cooler version of Stella Soleil formerly of the band Sister Soleil (which was soooooo much better than her solo career in my opinion).

Anyway, check out SRC if you like industrial/hard like music with a chick singing because they rock.

- D -
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Lovesong - Snake River Conspiracy version

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am whole again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am whole again
Aah aah aah aah
aah aah aah
aah aah aah aah
aah aah aah
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am young again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am fun again
However far away, I will always love you
However long I stay, I will always love you
Whatever words I say, I will always love you
I will always love you
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am free again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am clean again
However far away, I will always love you
However long I stay, I will always love you
Whatever words I say, I will always love you
I will always love you
I will always love you
I will always love you
I will love you
I will make you
I will take you
I will fuck you
Aah aah aah aah
aah aah aah
aah aah aah aah
aah aah aah
Always love you, always you
Always love you, always you

Somewhere over...

To quote Ferris Bueler's Day Off,
"What are we going to do today?"
"The question you should be asking is, what AREN'T we going to do today?"
That about sums up the blur of the weekend hehe.

I was talking to ALG, and she told be the background story of the Hawaiian singer Israel Kamakawiwo'ole
Check out this mp3 here. It's an 8MB file so it's a bit large. I first heard this song watching an episode of ER. It was the episode where Dr. Green dies so whenever I hear it, I associate it with a really sad event. Reading Israel's background to it's even more sad, at the same time there can be some happiness found there. It's a bit complicated to explain I guess. Either way, I dig it, and it's sad that he died but his ashes were spread into the ocean of his homeland which sounds like a good way to finally be at peace.

A special mention to a friend of mine who is currently going through cancer treatments starting today. There's respect and admiration for anyone that has to go through and endure the things you have to and remember if you need someone to talk to, that's why the phone was invented. Sorry I can't do much else right now, but all we can do in life is try our best and do what we can right? Keep your chin up, you're stubborn enough to make it through and your palm reading sounded much better than mine afterall.

I'm going to go home after work.. maybe take a nap.. or just play more World of Warcraft hehehe... awesome.

This Wed I'm going to join Haruka in SF. I'll have to promise that I'll keep the hitting on of her younger sister and her friends to a minimum hehe.

There's probably more I have on my mind right now.. but lack of sleep and the impending workload being forced on me beckons.

Lates,

- D -

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Israel K - Somewhere Over The Rainbow

Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high
And the dreams that you dreamed of
Once in a lullaby ii ii iii
Somewhere over the rainbow
Blue birds fly
And the dreams that you dreamed of
Dreams really do come true ooh ooooh
Someday I'll wish upon a star
Wake up where the clouds are far behind me ee ee eeh
Where trouble melts like lemon drops
High above the chimney tops thats where you'll find me oh
Somewhere over the rainbow bluebirds fly
And the dream that you dare to,why, oh why can't I? i iiii

Well I see trees of green and
Red roses too,
I'll watch them bloom for me and you
And I think to myself
What a wonderful world

Well I see skies of blue and I see clouds of white
And the brightness of day
I like the dark and I think to myself
What a wonderful world

The colors of the rainbow so pretty in the sky
Are also on the faces of people passing by
I see friends shaking hands
Saying, "How do you do?"
They're really saying, I...I love you
I hear babies cry and I watch them grow,
They'll learn much more
Than we'll know
And I think to myself
What a wonderful world (w)oohoorld

Someday I'll wish upon a star,
Wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where trouble melts like lemon drops
High above the chimney top that's where you'll find me
Oh, Somewhere over the rainbow way up high
And the dream that you dare to, why, oh why can't I? I hiii ?

Ms. Cleo could be right...

This amuses me to no end this morning...

Aquarius

Daily extended (by Astrology.com)
You've got an intensely devoted, loyal heart -- and a questing, independent spirit that just won't be tied down. This is a tough combo for some people to get, but rest assured, there are those out there who cherish this quixotic and delightful mixture. Someone who wants to blend their life with yours will understand why it is you who possess both these qualities in abundance -- and won't ask you to get rid of one or the other to satisfy them. Hang in there.

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My co-workers no longer think it weird or odd to see me give my laptop the finger at random times during the day.

Track on repeat - Eyes on Me.

Damn it. I should do some work. Tired of this crap though. Freaking being on call with people calling me at 2am for stupid computer issues. You swear I'm a freaking doctor.. sigh.

I need to win the lotto. Oh please oh please let me win the lotto and damn would people get hooked up.. cuz it's no fun to be rich by yourself.

meh.

- d -

Ah literature

Marmion: Canto vi Stanza 17
XVII.

'In brief my lord, we both descried— For then I stood by Henry's side— The Palmer mount and outwards ride Upon the earl's own favorite steed. All sheathed he was in armor bright, And much resembled that same knight Subdued by you in Cotswold fight; Lord Angus wished him speed.'— The instant that Fitz-Eustace spoke, A sudden light on Marmion broke:— 'Ah! dastard fool, to reason lost!' He muttered; ''T was nor fay nor ghost I met upon the moonlight wold, But living man of earthly mould.— O dotage blind and gross! Had I but fought as wont, one thrust Had laid De Wilton in the dust, My path no more to cross.— How stand we now?— he told his tale To Douglas, and with some avail; 'T was therefore gloomed his rugged brow.— Will Surrey dare to entertain 'Gainst Marmion charge disproved and vain? Small risk of that, I trow. Yet Clare's sharp questions must I shun, Must separate Constance from the nun— Oh! what a tangled web we weave When first we practise to deceive! A Palmer too!— no wonder why I felt rebuked beneath his eye; I might have known there was but one Whose look could quell Lord Marmion.'

But I want to escape to

Yeah I'm pretty surprised myself that I like this song.
Meh, what can you do.

~ dhavid
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Enrique Inglesias - Escape

Here's how it goes
You and me, up and down, but maybe this time
We'll get it right
Worth the fight
Cause love is something you can't shake
When it breaks all it takes is some trying

CHORUS
IF you feel like leavin'
Im not gonna make you stay
But soon you'll be findin
You can run, you can hide but ou can't escape my love
You can run, you can hide but ou can't escape my love

So, if you go
You should know
It's hard just to forget the past, so fast
It was good
It was bad
but it was real
And thats all you have in the end, all that matters

IF you feel like leavin'
Im not gonna make you stay
But soon you'll be findin
You can run, you can hide but ou can't escape my love
You can run, you can hide but ou can't escape my love

You can run, you can hide but ou can't escape my love
You can run, you can hide but ou can't escape my love
Here's how it goes, all it takes is some trying
If you feel like leaving
I'm not gonna make you stay
But soon you'll be finding
You can run, you can hide but you can't escape my lvoe
If you feel like leavin
I'm not gonna make you stay
But soon you'll be fidin'
You can run you can hide but you can't escape my love
You can run (x10)

You can run, you can hide but ou can't escape my love
You can run, you can hide but ou can't escape my

Damn that's HOT!

No I'm not just talking about the women in Tempe AZ, I'm talkin about the burn your ass if you sit on the sidewalk temperatures. Misters spraying cold water are probably the best things anyone's ever invented in that area.

The drive to AZ was a bit long and for the most part uneventful. New Mexico was definitely pretty and I'll need to go back there sometime with the Nikon. And next time I'm in AZ I need to stop in Monument Valley and the Grand Canyon.. oh yeah Roswell, New Mexico!

Two words for Donovan. Las. Vegas. Just damn.

Some people join match.com for possible hookups, this guy goes back to college haha. On the reals though, good luck with all that, I've always been proud of you.. now send me my damn sunglasses before my eyes melt.

Work is handing my ass to me. Awesome. I'll write more when I don't have a shotgun over my shoulder waiting to be fired.

- d -

Hope and another lifetime

Today's song on repeat is 'Together Again' by Sash!. It's so loud I think my ears are going to bleed but that's okay because I love this song. It's a song that's like a soundtrack to a movie with a hero or heroine making a promise to the one they love. Making a promise that one day no matter what they will return and the two will be united again.

Am I overthinking the song? Probably. At the same time I also like it because songs that convey emotions that can just suck you in are great. This song gives you hope and makes you want to cheer. While say 'Immortal' or 'Hello' from Evanescence makes you want to slit your wrists. It's the point that the music has the ability to move you and to make you feel something even if you don't want to. Is it a good or bad thing? Yes.

Back to work and listening to this song.

~dhavid

Help, I need a gypsy

A conversation Haruka and I had the other night she mentioned it looked like I had a short life line on my palm. Awesome. So that's been banging around in my head. How much do I believe in pre-destined things and fate? It's such a hard question. Because here's the thing.. we're supposed to have free will, and I can say all I want that I make my own destiny and follow my own choices.. at the same time, that doesn't meant that every decision I make wasn't already pre-destined... DOH!..

So check this site out I just read my palm using it, well to the best of my ability in the current low lighting conditions in the office right now.
http://www.ofesite.com/spirit/palm/palm.htm

They have a section where you can fill out the questions and get a generic reading. Generic or not.. I'm not really sure how to react to mine...
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Dear Dhavid,

Here is your personal palm reading! This will be a general reading of your palm, and what it says about you and your personality. Enjoy.

First let's take a look at your Life Line. Your Life Line is short and strong, which shows vitality and drive, as well as a strong ability to overcome health problems. The wavey quality of your Life Line does seem to indicate that you may experience variable health, and that you may not always be very energetic. When the Life Line crosses the palm, as it does in you case, it indicates a life affected by travel. Your life may also be heavily influenced by imagination. A chained Life Line indicates various health problems, both physical and emotional. Many people with allergies have such a line as well.

Now let's see what your Head Line had to say. The light and wavy quality of your Head Line seems to mimic the way you think. While you don't necessarily lack intellectuality, you don't always think about things in much depth, and sometimes you may have problems concentrating on more than one thing at a time. A chained Head Line shows agitation and tension at different points in your life. The joining of your Head Line and Life Line at the beginning indicates that your strong sense of mind generally rules over your body. You also look at childhood with a cautious and fearful outlook.

The last line we'll look at is your Heart Line. A selfish and materialistic look at love is characteristic to those like you whose Heart Line start below the middle finger. A long Heart Line like yours, running almost all the way across the palm, represents an idealist in love. In love you tend to look for those whose status rises above your own, and you have a great respect for them. Those little lines you see running downward from your Heart Line indicate disappointments in love.

You have a spade-shaped hand. This is the hand of an inventor. You are probably very good with all things mechanical. Often those who've forged new paths in science and engineering have a spade-shaped hand. Women who have this type of hand enjoy do-it-yourself projects (decorating and sewing). It also gives these women a manual dexterity greater than most men have.

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Just damn. That's almost as spot on as the fortune teller I saw in New Orleans a couple of years ago. If there's any truths in fortune telling, I feel the creepy lady in the back room of the voodoo shop I was in would be the real deal (if that exists).

On a sidenote I saw Skeleton Key over the weekend. The repeating mantra of If you don't believe it can't hurt you.. I don't agree with that. It's the arguement of say, the devil. The classic line of "I don't believe in the devil", responded with ,"That doesn't mean he doesn't believe in you". Sure you should keep an open mind about things, but sometimes it's a little much and you're just like.. screw this. If this or that is real, and if things are destined to happen.. then what the hell.

Personally I'm hoping that if something is "written in the stars" for me, that it doesn't suck complete ass because who wants to grow up to be a cosmic joke?

~dhavid

PS And no, I was not smoking 'the pot' while writing this.

Venture forth little tadpole

Ok, so Donovan isn't the same 15 year old little brother that had "Serious Fun With a Laser Gun", anymore but still. I just wanted to clearly say that I'm proud of both him and his younger brother way formlery known as Kid Thunder. I've always tried to play the role of older brother to these two and two others. Not so much because I thought they needed it but probably more because I felt that I would have liked an older brother at some points in my life as well. I'm rambling, it's hard to put down those thoughts on paper but the point is I'm proud of all of them and if ever they needed me, I'd be there for them. Though Dono, try not to get into trouble because if I have to fly to AZ to much I might melt or be forced to live off of the water found inside a cactus!

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Dido - Here With Me

I didn't hear you leave
I wonder how am I still here
And I don't want to move a thing
It might change my memory

[Chorus:]
Oh I am what I am
I'll do what I want
But I can't hide
I won't go
I won't sleep
I can't breathe
Until you're resting here with me
I won't leave
I can't hide
I cannot be
Until you're resting here with me

I don't want to call my friends
They might wake me from this dream
And I can't leave this bed
Risk forgetting all that's been

[Chorus ]

PS. Call me a chick for having this picked out but, this is the song that one day I'm going to dance to at my wedding.

Oh hey look at that

So I was checking my Yahoo email this morning before starting on all this crapass work I have to do and this story pops up.

http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20050812/ap_on_re_us/secret_waterfall

This is a quote from the story.

"It wasn't on a map, no one on the trail crew knew about it. People who been here 27 years had never seen it," said Milestone, who is leading an effort to clear a trail to the newly named Whiskeytown Falls. It's expected to be finished by next summer."

Wtf.. assholes. How do you "discover" a waterfall? It's not like it just came outta nowhere and it's not in some remote rain forest deep in the jungle by the giant Anacondas. Anyway, that story made me laugh and it helps illustrate that regardless of what field you work in or wherever you are, there will always be slacker ass slackers that are as useful as a umbrella with holes in it. (It's raining out right now in Chicago)

I'm going to start slapping management with a trout if they don't give me a "market value adjustment" in the very near future that's independent of any future promotions and performance reviews. Grr. Grr I say.

~dhavid

Some Things Just.. Are.

So I was chatting with a friend of mine and she sends me this link. And my reply to this was that "my primary thought when looking at this page is ohh look at the pretty color." And I can accept that some people are definitely more intelligent than I am.. but that's ok because ya know, it gives me something to work harder for. Damn if I want to ever get stuck at a cocktail party and not be able to discuss the inner workings of the cellular structure of a genome and all of its genetic content whether it be contained in a haploid set of chromosomes in eukaryotes, in a single chromosome in bacteria, or in the DNA or RNA of viruses...

Over the weekend some I visited some friends who recently moved into the city about 5 minutes from me. These guys are younger and they're going to college downtown. Walking into their place was hilarious. It was like.. Bachelor pad meets Internet Cafe meets Real World College Dorm room. Needless to say.. we played video games till 4 or so in the morning when I figured it'd be best to go home before the sun was up completely.

I was doing a Yahoo search on names since I was bored.. I found a couple of entries for myself which was bad since it was links to things like really bad teenage poetry. Needless to say.. those pages were found and removed hehe or at least made unsearchable.

This coming weekend is Donovan's going away party. Damn. People are gonna be drunk as hell... ah well what can you do. Hmm I got 5 minutes to get ready for this meeting... doh

~dhavid

Someone give this guy a hug

And mebbe some loose change so he can get a sammich.

Akon - Mr Lonely

Chrous
I'm so lonely (so lonely),
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (i have nobody)
For my owwnn(to call my owwnn)

I'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (i have nobody)
for my owwnn (to call my own owwnn)

I woke up in the middle of the night and I noticed my girl wasn't by my side, coulda' sworn I was dreamin', for her I was feenin, so I hadda take a little ride, back tracking ova' these few years, tryna' figure out wat I do to make it go bad, cause, ever since my girl left me, my whole life came crashin

Chrous

Cant believe I hadda girl like you and I just let you walk right outta my life, after all I put you thru you still stuck
around and stayed by my side, what really hurt me is I broke your heart, baby you were a good girl and I had no right, I
really wanna make things right, cause without you in my life girl,

Chrous

Been all over the world ain't neva met a girl that can take the things that you been through
Never thought the day would come where you would get up and run and I would be out chasing you cause ain't nowhere in the globe I'd rather be, ain't no one in the globe I'd rather see, then the girl of my dreams that made me be so happy but now so lonely.

Chrous

Never thought that I'd be alone, I didnt know you'd be gone this long, I just want you to call my phone, so stop playing girl and come on home (come on home), baby girl I didn't mean to shout, I want me and you to work it out, I never wished I'd ever hurt my baby, and its drivin' me crazy cause...

Chrous

Stealhy

Oh right, also I saw Stealth over the weekend. I have to say I really liked it. If you like jets and such, it's a very pretty movie. The CG / Model work was pretty seamless. The only issue I had which I guess I'm ok with is the fact that it's VERY similar to some anime I've watched. Mainly Macross Plus and Yukikaze. I'm just waiting for a Hollywood to come out with a live-action Robotech, hell they're already working on a live-action Transformers movie.

Also my LCD flat panel came in today.. WOOT! Now I just have to carry it home and attempt to hook it up while moving my old monitor amidst being attacked by cats with very sharp claws... maybe I should cut their nails first.

Also while downstairs earlier some random lady started talking to me. She kind of lost me when she started talking about signs and being a fellow Aquarius and all that, but whatever she did offer some good advice for the AZ trip for Donovan and I. I'm thinking we're going to plot through Colorado instead of Kansas. This should be an adventure haha hope his car doesn't break down.

- D -

Blood Makes Noise

I live in cathouse!

Well ok not what you would think is a cathouse, but I have two kitties on the prowl now hehe. Let's see if Joan can sell her place before the cats decide my TV or my computer look tasty.

Along with the cats came a bag of stuff from my old car. Most of it was junk and got tossed but I did manage to save two cassette tapes. For those of you that are to young to know what a cassette tape is.. see this site. Awesome. Where's my ipod hmm.

So recently in Chicago, they passed the law that while driving you must use a headset for your cellphone. If not, you get pulled over and ticketed. Each offense raises the amount you are charged. That's fine and well, I went to Best Buy and picked one up for $20 and it's normal looking. Last night however.. Haruka and I were driving back from Chili'sbecause I had a taste for ribs.. and we see this guy driving next to us. I'll give this guy props for adhering to the law but DAMN. With his headset, dude looked like he was landing planes or working in a Burger King drive thru. Tokyo? Come in Tokyo.. can you hear me now? It was ginormous!

All for now. Work and all.

~dhavid

Knowledge is Power

My job title is Knowledge Management Specialist. Above my desk, I have a cartoon printed up with an older guy wearing a suit kneeling down next to a kid that he is trying to give guidance to. When I randomly look at that throughout the day at work, it makes me laugh and hate my job a little less.

I have the song "Eyes On Me" (Soul of Bass Version) on repeat on my headphones right now. I posted the lyrics a bit ago. Something about this song makes me a little less dead inside. I think its because it makes me think of the Final Fantasy videogames which has been a part of my life since I was able to pick up a controller. And though people in my life that I hang out with or whatever have changed, in the end, those games were always there and the good guys in those games were always still good even if you were having a bad day. On some strange level.. that's comforting.

Hehehe bought a new LCD Monitor for home. It's purrrty. It's a bit expensive.. but hey.. it makes me happy, not to mention shooting people in first person shooters will be even easier! muhaha!

So next month I'm going to road trip with Donovan since he's going away for school. The drive should be about 28+ hours. Damn. That's going to be a long drive. I've told people I want to bring some sort of weapon along. Driving through some of the southern states in a red Honda Civic makes me a bit nervous. I swear if I hear, "We don't like your kind round here!" There will be conseequences and repercussions! Hehe. Thug.

I'm jealous I'm not going to the Full Moon Party. Have fun at that Nong Soi you deserve a vacation.. even if I don't get to go with :( <- That's me, being sad.

Let's see what else. I've resurrected my PDA at work because there's so much stuff being piled on me that I can't keep track of it otherwise. They're going to give me a Blackberry soon which I'm not sure is a good thing or not. Sure I already have the Nextel that they call me on at random during non-business hours bit now they'll be able to email me to? hmm.

On a lighter note, I'll be getting the kitties from Joan soon. Since she and Kenyon will be moving R & T need a place to crash. That's pretty cool, it's been awhile since R and I have been able to lounge around on the couch and play videogames or watch sci fi.. though he prefers to help me play first person shooters on the computer so he can 'point out' all the bad guys by selectively swatting at the monitor when I'm playing hehe.

Ah crap I started this post 4 hours ago and I haven't been able to finish it so I'll do it later.

~dhavid

Surf's Up

No time to post today work sucks. Long post of lyrics instead.
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Jack Johnson - Flake

I know she said it's alright
But you can make it up next time
I know she knows it's not right
There ain't no use in lying
Maybe she thinks I know something
Maybe maybe she thinks its fine
Maybe she knows something I don't
I'm so, I'm so tired, I'm so tired of trying

It seems to me that maybe
It pretty much always means no
So don't tell me you might just let it go
And often times we're lazy
It seems to stand in my way
Cause no one no not no one
Likes to be let down

I know she loves the sunrise
No longer sees it with her sleeping eyes
And I know that when she said she's gonna try
Well it might not work because of other ties and
I know she usually has some other ties
And I wouldn't want to break 'em, nah, I wouldn't want to break 'em
Maybe she'll help me to untie this but
Until then well, I'm gonna have to lie to you.

It seems to me that maybe
It pretty much always means no
So don't tell me you might just let it go
And often times we're lazy
It seems to stand in my way
Cause no one no not no one
Likes to be let down
It seems to me that maybe
It pretty much always means no
So don't tell me you might just let it go

The harder that you try baby, the further you'll fall
Even with all the money in the whole wide world
Please please please don't pass me
Please please please don't pass me
Please please please don't pass me by

Everything you know about me now baby you gonna have to change
You gonna have to call it by a brand new name
Please please please don't drag me
Please please please don't drag me
Please please please don't drag me down

Just like a tree down by the water baby I shall not move
Even after all the silly things you do
Please please please don't drag me
Please please please don't drag me
Please please please don't drag me down

Of all the things I miss

I miss my soul the most.

This whole corporate grind thing it's well.. what happens to peper after you grind it? And after it's already.. ground, what happens when you try to grind it more? Exactly my point.

So I'm trying to stay afloat of these things I need to fix, maintain, create and manage, then Princes of the Universe by Queen comes on and this of course has my mind wander off in another direction for a couple minutes and I was thinking.. what do I miss from days gone by. Here's a list of some things.

1. Random road trips (that don't suck)
2. Having a 'core' group of people I hung out with on a daily basis
3. TV shows like Highlander
4. Playing Q-Zar and being good at it (before it was about covering sensors)
5. Going to the arcade with Donovan and owning people at any fighting game out there. (Cept Tekken cuz that one sucks)
6. Saturday Morning Cartoons. (Though I watch anime whenever.. but still!)
7. Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles.... cereal
8. Having a reason to talk to people on the phone for hours and being okay with that. (Nowadays a typical conversation is like "What up?" "Nothing much" . . . "Aight later" "Later then"
9. Not having to be responsible and pay bills
10. Riding my bike (Tricked out BMX or 10speed)
11. Stealing my mom or my cousins car and driving w/out a license.
12. Hanging out with /being a gangbanger (More I miss some of the people but let's face it, gangs are stupid)
13. Playing Total Annihilation for days taking a break here and there so my friends and I didn't die from hunger or lack of sleep.
14. The Prelude
15. Getting my ass kicked in the mosh pits at NIN concerts
16. Ditching High School - Can't really get away with ditching much else after that
17. A pager. (I've had once since like.. for ever ago before cell phones were big, it was nice to make the choice of.. do I feel like calling this person back? Now they leave you messages on your cell blah blah blah.. shaddup)
18. Having a mohawk (not to the punky spike in the middle of your head style but still)
19. Wearing a black leather biker jacket haha
20. Not thinking of things that I miss

Awesome.

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D12 w/Eminem - How Come

So I changed huh? You got a phone, pick it up, call me

Chorus:
How come we dont even talk no more
And you dont even call no more
We dont barely keep in touch at all
And I dont even feel the same love when we hug no more
And I heard it through the grape vine we even beefin now
After all the years we been down
Aint no way no how, this bullshit can be true
We family and aint a damn thing changed, unless it's you

So young, so full of life in vibrant side by side wherever you
weres ridin i went
So close, almost on some bonnie and clyde shit
When ronnie died you wass right by my side with a sholder to cry on
Tissue to wipe my eyes, and a bucket to catch every tear i cried inside it
You even had the same type of childhood i did
Sometimes i just want to know why is it that you sucame to yours
And mine i survived it, you ran the streets, i 9 to 5'd it
We grew up, grew apart, as time went by us, then i blew up
To both yours and mine surprises
Now i feel the vibe i just cant describe it
As much as your pride tries to hide it
Your cold, you touch its like ice
In your eyes is the look of resenment
I can sense it, and i dont like it

[Chorus]

It was my dream at first to be on spittin a verse
On my own album with a deal but shit got burst
So i came out i woulda killed a nigga first
Before i let him disrespect me and check me over some worste
Some bitch that i wasnt with i would hit her then quit
But you would pull a talk with her and tell her she was the shit
I told you dont get involved in it, you was smokin the chron with her
Comin out of the bar with her stumblin half drunk
Like yall was husband and wife or somethin
But me catchin you f**kin other niggas musta hurt you pride or somethin
Cuz you wont f**k at the mouth with people like you wanted with me
When all i tried to do was show your bitch was shifty
And ever since the fans and all the shit that i produced
You actin like i aint you man and lyin like she can't be loose
But i am really you friend, i'm jus trying to tell you the truth
But dont hate the game or the player
Cuz the one that is changing is you

[Chorus]

You're only at the top cuz my homie had to stop
Now we actin like i gotta live only for the block
Homies in the hood only she be on the tube
Only gossip on the porch get to speakin on who
Fools i used to rap with all expect magic
Like my finger get to snappin and *poof* it jus happen
But PROOF is jus actin out the party was stoned
Shady made it so my babys aint starvin at home
See the devil in you grin since the ghetto we been friends
Whenever real intelligence thats forever till the end
I be the hatred in your eyes and the satan in your lives
And wastin my times with these snakes in disguise
(how come) when you talk its with bitter is fight
And (how come) it's my fault for what you did with your life
And everytime i go to hear you and play you look away
We barely embrace, you can't even look me in my face.

Head Like a Hole

Work work work. And I didn't win the damn lottery from last Friday. I don't follow the rules of winning;

1. Can't speak English
2. Already wealthy
3. Older than dirt

So lets see. Last Thur / Fri I wasn't able to post at all because work is whoring me like a blonde hooker in Asia... (thinks about people who read this...) Strike that last comment.

This past weekend I was in St. Louis with Haruka, my mum, my sis and her boyfriend. Let me just say if you go there.. you must be like the chick from UHF who picked 'the box' over the red snapper.

I'll say ok it was cool to see technology from the 60s.. but I'm more a new technology kind of guy. I'd rather have a lightsaber or a laser gun compared to a rocketship held up by strings.

While there we stopped at a casino. All I can say is.. damn I can burn through money quick on video poker. I wasn't feelin playing with all the pros at the tables. Damn people that gamble all the time and get pissy if you don't do something 'right'. Whatever with that, you're there to have fun, its not your damn job, least not mine.

Also on the ride home, we had a tire blow out.. luckily it was the back tire or else I wouldn't be sitting her failing to post anything interesting right now.

Ok. I gotta get back to work, I'll post when I have time to breathe and such.

~dhavid

Riddle me this

I'm so not motivated to work. So instead I'll read the blogs of people I like. Stumbling across Donovan's blog he posted some Q&A.. guess I'll answer this instead of working.. good job.
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1. ONE WISH? World Peace.
2. ARE YOU A LOVER OR A FIGHTER? Yes. It's good to be both.
3. WHAT’S YOUR WORST FEAR? Wasting my life by not doing something of worth and not being remembered when I'm gone.
4. AS A KID, WERE YOU A LEGO MANIAC? I was all about the spaceship sci-fi legos.
5. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF “REALITY” TV? It's ok. I'll take sci-fi over it any day.
6. DO YOU CHEW ON YOUR STRAWS? Sometimes yeah.
7. WERE YOU A CUTE BABY? Hell if I remember.
8. IS THE SINGLE LIFE FOR YOU? Only when I want to play videogames till the sun comes up hehehe
9. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR KEYBOARD? White.. black on the laptop.
10. DO YOU SING IN THE SHOWER? No.
11. HAVE YOU EVER BUNGEE JUMPED? No.
12. ANY SECRET TALENTS? If yes, they're still secret to me.
13. WHAT’S YOUR IDEAL VACATION SPOT? Japan. Thailand. Australia. London.
14. IS JAY LENO FUNNY? Looks aren't everything.
15. CAN YOU SWIM? Like Nemo.
16. HAVE YOU SEEN THE MOVIE “DONNIE DARKO”? Director's Cut baby.
17. DO YOU GIVE A DAMN ABOUT THE OZONE? Why would I care about the layer of atmosphere that allows for human life on the surface of the planet...(that means yes for you slower folks).
18. HOW MANY LICKS DOES IT TAKE TO GET TO THE CENTER OF A TOOSTIE POP? Don't know, I like instant gratification myself.
19. CAN YOU SING THE ALPHABET BACKWARDS? Sing? Hell I can barely SAY the alphabet backwards.

(Crap at this point I start to figure out how long this list of questions is and feel I REALLY should get back to work.. but the show must go on!)

20. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON AN AIRPLANE? Yup.
21. ARE YOU AN ONLY CHILD? Nope
22. DO YOU PREFER ELECTRIC OR MANUAL PENCIL SHARPENERS? Electric
23. WHAT’S YOUR STAND ON HUNTING? I think its bullshit to hunt for sport. If you're going to eat it, ok. But don't shoot living things for no reason.
24. IS MARRIAGE IN YOUR FUTURE? Someday.
25. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? Hahahahha. No. There's a reason I can type very fast.
26. WHAT ARE YOU ALLERGIC TO? Uh.. Horses (boo), Cats (till I get used to them).
27. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAID I LOVE YOU”? This morning
28. IS ELVIS STILL ALIVE? If he is, he's a dumbass.
29. DO YOU CRY AT WEDDINGS? No.
30. HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR EGGS? Cooked.
31. ARE BLONDES DUMB? Stupid knows no hair color.
32. WHERE DOES THE OTHER SOCK END UP? On the other foot if you can find it.
33. WHAT TIME IS IT? 9:52 a.m.
34. DO YOU HAVE A NICKNAME? None that I approve of.
35. IS MCDONALD’S DISGUSTING? From a nutritional standpoint fuck yeah, now pass me some nuggets and an order of fries.
36. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU WERE IN A CAR? Couple of hours ago.
37. DO YOU PREFER BATHS OR SHOWERS? Wait, Solo? Showers I spose.
38. IS SANTA CLAUS REAL? As real as weapons of mass destruction and the easter bunny.
39. KIRK OR PICARD? Dude.. who else can scream KAAAAAAAHHNNN!!!! Kirk is a legend. Picard is just a high level pimp.
40. ARE YOU AFRAID OF THE DARK? Normally no.
41. WHAT ARE YOU ADDICTED TO? Breathing. Seems like whenever I try to stop, I can't.
42. CRUNCHY OR CREAMY PEANUT BUTTER? Creamy? Don't really care.
43. CAN YOU CRACK YOUR NECK? Yes. (Look Mom! No Hands!)
44. HAVE YOU EVER RIDDEN IN AN AMBULANCE? Been in them more than once not sure if I actually took a ride on one though.
45. HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU BRUSHED YOUR TEETH TODAY? Once so far.
46. IS DRUG FREE THE WAY TO BE? Meh.. prochoice on that. Am I curious of some? Sure. Would I care if I never had any the rest of my life? Not really.
47. ARE YOU A HEAVY SLEEPER? Yeah, if you try waking me up and aren't careful you might get knocked the FUCK out.
48. WHAT COLOR ARE YOUR EYES? Brown.
50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR LIFE? It has it's moments. It might not be alot, but it's my lot.
51. LIQUOR OR BEER? Liquor. Gimme a shaker and some juice, I'll mix you something.
52. ARE YOU PSYCHIC? I KNEW you were going to ask that...

(Bloody hell how long is this thing?!)

53. HAVE YOU READ “CATCHER THE RYE”? No.
55. HAVE U EVER STOLEN MONEY? Yes.
56. CAN YOU SNOWBOARD? Not so much.
57. DO YOU LIKE CAMPING? Sure.
58. DO U SNORT WHEN U LAUGH? No.
59. DO YOU BELIEVE IN MAGIC? No, but I would like to.
60. ARE DOGS A MAN’S BEST FRIEND? Not always.
61. DO YOU BELIEVE IN DIVORCE? Better to be divorced than end up in a fiery car crash rolling down the side of a hill becaue your husband or wife wanted to end the relationship.
62. CAN YOU DO THE MOONWALK? Yes.
63.DO YOU MAKE A LOT OF MISTAKES? No. I mean yes. Damn it!
64. IS IT COLD OUTSIDE TODAY? Sadly no.
65. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE? Strawberries and cream.
66.DO YOU WEAR NAIL POLISH? Not normally.
67. SWEATSHIRT OR JACKET? Jacket (I miss you jacket!)
68. WHAT’S THE MOST ANNOYING COMMERCIAL? Those viagra like ones with the guy that smiles to much. It's creepy as shit.
69. DO YOU SHOP AT AMERICAN EAGLE? Nope.
70. DO YOU SNORE? If a tree falls in the forrest...
71. FAVORITE SONG AT THE MOMENT? Something techno / trance / euro like.

One foot in front of the other

Good Morning.

So I get to my cubicle this morning and I ask one of my coworkers.. is it REALLY bright in here or? He kind of tilted his head and looked at me like I was asking him for some spare change so I could afford my next purchase of crack... awesome.

First.. Happy Birthday to Joan! Hopefully she was able to celebrate with more than spackle and paint.

This was kind of a quiet weekend for the most part. Think Haruka and I managed to watch alot of TV and even did some laundry. But honestly after a full work week of running and jumping through hoops, I appreciate just sitting still and waiting for the blur of myself to catch up with me so I can be centered again. Tallulah should know what I mean by that.

Yesterday we went to the downtown area of one of the nieghborhoods north of me. I can say it was cool for multiple reasons but mainly because standing there looking around if you just let go, it seemed like you were in another city somewhere else in the World. I guess it's a romantic notion to just pick up and go or the adventurous feeling of having to adapt to an unknown place and situations. Meh.. it's hard to explain, but I like it.

Then we saw War of the Worlds. Let me say.. it sucked so much ass I was angry for hours after watching it. Just because Tom Cruise and Steven Spielberg are involved with a film, by no means guarantees it to be good. Now I watched the original when I was a kid and watched the spinoff television series of it as well. The special effects? Sure awesome. The story? I could have wiped my ass with the script and it would have been better than what they had. Slackers. Oh and it was also awesome how the projector stopped at a really tense part of the film and then 10 minutes later some theatre employee coming in and telling us it would be fixed in 10 or 15 minutes.. awesome.

Then I get home and watched The Day After Tomorrow, just because I never watched it when it came out. Apparently yesterday was apocalypse movie day for me. It does make me think.. if any huge end of the world like thing happened as bad as it would be, I'd kind of have fun trying to survive and move on. Don't ask, I can't explain. It probably goes with the notion of adapting and adventuring.

Anyway I'm going to go back to work.. lots of stuff to do.

Awesome.

- D -

Every day and every night

Exotic Voices - I'll Fly With You (euro version)

I still believe in your eyes
I just don't care what
You have done in your life
Baby I'll always be here by your side
Don't leave me waiting too long
Please come by
I, I, I, I still believe in your eyes;
There is no choice,
I belong to your life
Because I will live
To love you someday;
You'll be my baby
And we'll fly away
And I'll fly with you,
I'll fly with you,
I'll fly with you
You are, are, are, are, are, are
You are, are, are, are, are, are
You are, are, are, are, are, are

Every day and every night,
I always dream that
You are by my side
Oh, baby, every day
And every night,
Well I said everything's
Gonna be alright
And I'll fly with you,
I'll fly with you,
I'll fly with you

You are, are, are, are, are, are
You are, are, are, are, are, are

Dream of me
I still believe in your eyes
I just don't care what
You've done in your life
Baby I'll always
Be here by your side;
Don't leave me
Waiting too long,
Please come by
I, I, I, I still believe in your eyes;
There is no choice,
I belong to your life
Because I will live
To love you some day;
You'll be my baby
And we'll fly away
And I'll fly with you,
I'll fly with you,
I'll fly with you

Every day and every night,
I always dream that
You are by my side
Oh, baby, every day
And every night,
Well I said everything's
Gonna be alright
And I'll fly with you,
I'll fly with you,
I'll fly with you

You are, are, are, are, are, are
You are, are, are, are, are, are

Crimson and Clover

No time to post. Work keeping me busy. Still alive. Still moving forward.
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Jimmy Eat World - Praise Chorus

Are you gonna live your life wonderin' standing in the back lookin' around?
Are you gonna waste your time thinkin' how you've grown up or how you missed out?
Things are never gonna be the way you want.
Where's it gonna get you acting serious?
Things are never gonna be quite what you want.
Or even at 25, you gotta start sometime.
I'm on my feet, I'm on the floor, I'm good to go.
Now all I need is just to hear a song I know.
I wanna always feel like part of this was mine.
I wanna fall in love tonight.
Are you gonna live your life standing in the back looking around?
Are you gonna waste your time?
Gotta make a move or you'll miss out.
Someone's gonna ask you what it's all about.
Stick around nostalgia won't let you down.
Someone's gonna ask you what it's all about.
Whatcha gonna have to say for yourself?
I'm on my feet, I'm on the floor, I'm good to go.
Now all I need is just to hear a song I know.
I wanna always feel like part of this was mine.
I wanna fall in love tonight.
Crimson and clover, over and over.
Crimson and clover, over and over.
Our house in the middle of the street, why did we ever meet?
Started my rock 'n roll fantasy.
Don't don't, don't let's start, why did we ever part?
Kick start my rock 'n rollen heart.
I'm on my feet, I'm on the floor, I'm good to go.
So come on Davey, sing me somethin' that I know.
I wanna always feel like part of this was mine.
I wanna fall in love tonight.
Here tonight.
I wanna always feel like part of this was mine
I wanna fall in love tonight.

Crack your bones

To sum up my Chiropractor experience yesterday I offer this excerpt from the transcript of Eddie Izzard's Dressed to Kill show.

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So I had to go see a chiropractor, in New York. And um, they’re different to osteopaths, chiropractors, because of the spelling. And, uh… Of course, they’re both very powerful figures on the Scrabble board, though… “Chiropractor…chiropractor…chiropractor…93 letters, chiropractor.”

And – and they, uh, they crack your bones – that’s what they do – they crack your bones! And they take x-rays – what – at this point – this – because – this – whatever is wrong with you – “You’ve got a bad back, I’m gonna crack your bones. You’ve got diphtheria – I’m gonna crack your bones. Your head’s come off! I’m gonna crack your bones. It looks like your mother! I’m going to crack your – “ you know…

And then when they crack your bones it goes uuuughhhh and then ahhhhhhh but not sort of ahhhhhhhhh but sort – ahhhhhhhhh! All the way up your spine, “Crack your bones, crack your bones, crack your bones.” And they sort of arrange you into a – a nice, comfortable – ahhhhcharrghh!…ahhhhpoughhh! And sometimes it doesn’t crack! Sometimes it just goes, “____”. Then they pull a mallet from their belt and they – “Try to make the noise! Make the noise! I live for the noise…” And they do your head as well, around here, and they get it into a nice posit – and you’re thinking, “Wh – wh – where – wh – where – the – wh – the – uh, no I don’t think it’s supposed to go around that – !…”

In the end you just trust them, you trust them. They could have your fingers – their fingers in your nostrils, one foot on the back of your underpants, and they’re pushing your spine away with a broom. “Well, what’s this one about?” “I have no idea.”
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Overall it was kind of neat. I was hooked up to a machine that pretty much was shooting electricity into my back. Unfortunately it did not give me the ability to shoot lightning from my fingertips.. I'll have to ask him to turn it higher next time. I was also on this rolling machine that I feel is a modern day torture device. Sure it's supposed to "massage" your spine but if you're going to the Chiropractor obviously you're back / spine probably hurt.. mmm logic.

I'm getting old. *sigh*

- D -

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Nirvana - The Man Who Sold The World
We passed upon the stairs,
We spoke of was and when
Although I wasn?t there
He said I was his friend
Which came as a surprise
I spoke into his eyes -- I thought you died alone
A long long time ago

Oh no, not me,
We never lost control,
You're face to face,
With the man who sold the world

I laughed and shook his hand,
I made my way back home,
I searched for form and land,
Years and years I roamed,
I gazed a gazely stare,
We walked a million hills -- I must have died alone,
A long long time ago.

Who knows, not me,
I never lost control,
You?re face, to face,
With the man who sold the world.

No need for a title

Have a mid year review today at work. Hoping it will go well and I'll get a raise and or promotion. Either would be good, both would be better. If it doesn't work the way I want, I'll have to wait until March. Boo.

Over the weekend I managed to spend a couple thousand dollars again.. as I do. This time though it wasn't for drugs, sex, or new cars. Not that I usually buy that stuff.. but for reals, I bought a couch! A real grown up piece of furniture. I'm a bit beside myself I'm not sure how to handle that yet. I don't think I've ever been on a payment plan.. for furniture. I managed to get one 3-person couch, one chair, one cocktail table and two end tables. Neat, huh?

Woot!

Now to pay off all this stuff. Anyone hiring for part time drug dealer and or assassin? Maybe an internship? How bout a pimp from home? I hear you can work just about any job from home nowadays as long as you have an internet connection. Hell if anything I should launch my website that would bring me much $. www.rentapuppy.com , where I could offer hourly puppy rentals for guys who want to walk through the park or along the beach to pick up women. I'd be RICH I tell you!

Oh and after work today I get to go to the chiropractor who's going to break my bones, I mean.. fix me. Awesome.

Holla Back.

- D -

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Depeche Mode - Blasphemous Rumors (Excerpt)

I don't want to start any blasphemous rumors
But I think that God's got a sick sense of humor
And when I die, I expect to find him laughing

Winding Down.

I'm tired. Waking up early tomorrow to go take a look at some furniture. I need a freaking couch. The blue velvet beanbag has definitely lost its charm. Going to Tallulah's show tonight but that's not till around 11pm sooooo not to sure what to do before then.

Gah.. 45 minutes left to work. I should do something productive since I'm not in more training classes or in meetings that put me to sleep right now.

Later,

- D -

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Michelle Branch - All You Wanted (Excerpt)

If you want to
I can save you
I can take you away
From here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted
Was somebody who cares

I'm sinking slowly
So hurry hold me
Your hand is all I have
To keep me hanging on
Please can you tell me
So I can finally see
Where you go
When you're gone

Mamma Mia Let Me Go

So I'm sitting at work with my earphones on, with the music effectively turned on this time I might add, and Bohemian Rhapsody by Queen comes on. I can't quite explain it but hearing this song and listening to it just makes me laugh. It's just.. hilarious hehehhe.

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Queen - Bohemian Rhapsody

Is this the real life-
Is this just fantasy-
Caught in a landslide-
No escape from reality-
Open your eyes
Look up to the skies and see-
I'm just a poor boy I need no sympathy-
Because I'm easy come,easy go,
A little high,little low,
Anyway the wind blows,doesn't really matter to me,
To me

Mama,just killed a man,
Put a gun against his head,
Pulled my trigger,now he's dead,
Mama,life had just begun,
But now I've gone and thrown it all away-
Mama ooo,
Didn't mean to make you cry-
If I'm not back again this time tomorrow-
Carry on,carry on,as if nothing really matters-

Too late,my time has come,
Sends shivers down my spine-
Body's aching all the time,
Goodbye everybody-I've got to go-
Gotta leave you all behind and face the truth-
Mama ooo- (any way the wind blows)
I don't want to die,
I sometimes wish I'd never been born at all-

I see a little silhouetto of a man,
Scaramouche,scaramouche will you do the fandango-
Thunderbolt and lightning-very very frightening me-
Galileo,galileo,
Galileo galileo
Galileo figaro-magnifico-
But IÂ’m just a poor boy and nobody loves me-
HeÂ’s just a poor boy from a poor family-
Spare him his life from this monstrosity-
Easy come easy go-,will you let me go-
Bismillah! no-,we will not let you go-let him go-
Bismillah! we will not let you go-let him go
Bismillah! we will not let you go-let me go
Will not let you go-let me go
Will not let you go let me go
No,no,no,no,no,no,no-
Mama mia,mama mia,mama mia let me go-
Beelzebub has a devil put aside for me,for me,for me-

So you think you can stone me and spit in my eye-
So you think you can love me and leave me to die-
Oh baby-can't do this to me baby-
Just gotta get out-just gotta get right outta here-

Nothing really matters,
Anyone can see,
Nothing really matters-,nothing really matters to me,

Any way the wind blows....
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On a serious note. My thoughts are with the people and their families in London who were affected by the recent Terrorist attack. I can confidently say that terrorists suck ass and if ever put into a situation where someone gave me the choice to pull the trigger on a terrorist that has comitted such acts or is planning to, I would have no hesitation whatsoever(course having concrete proof would be required so the order couldn't come from someone like Bush who's intelligence is as reliable as a Solar Powered car during the six-month winter night in Antarctica). Sure being raised Catholic and all that I was told Thou Shalt Not Kill, at the same time I firmly believe Thou Shalt Not Let Punk Ass Bitch Terrorists walk around freely to harm innocent people and do nothing about it. (That would have taken a bigger tablecommandments commandements to fit I feel). But seriously, when it comes down to it some things just have to be done.

It's a sad truth but stupid people *have* to exist in this world if anything as a reminder to others on what not to become and what choices in life not to make.

- D -

Big Ball of Fire !

Wow. Long post.. INCOMING!

So let's see. I haven't been at work since last Friday since we had July 4th and all that and yesterday I had to take off to take care of some stuff with the new apartment.

First I have to start with things so far this morning.. As I was driving into work either it was due to not enough sleep or just being so used to cloudy days, but something caught the corner of my eye and it was a bright light. For a moment, I started to freak out and was like.. what the hell is that big ball of light to my left?!?!... Yeah. Ok. So it was the sun, and it was in fact, not, coming right at me. Doh.

Then I'm sitting here at my desk with my headphones in my ear. I'd say almost an hour later I notice.. hey... there's no music playing. Groan.

Ok. Back to reality. I'm trying to get caught up on email both work and personal. Internet and cable were hooked up yesterday at home. Yay ! ^_^

Recently a friend of mine overseas just had some surgery. Nong Soi, glad you're ok and uhh have all the parts that should be inside you, well.. inside! When you coming back to the States already?

Tallulah is in a new show that opens this Friday dun dun dunnnnnnn. Hit me up for details if you need em.

Also, another friend of mine is going through some Cancer stuff right now. Let me know if I can do anything to help Nauds.

Ok back on to the drama at the new apartment. So alot of stuff was broken when Haruka and I moved in. Screens needed to be replaced uhhh dishwasher didn't work etc. Anyway, this uber maintenance guy came yesterday and fixed alot of stuff. That's a good thing. I had to go to the management office to get the remote to my parking lot that opens the gate... Yes.. I had to get out of my parking lot to which I did not have a remote to open the gate to. Awesome. So I do have to say among the home improvements that were made, I give props to the person who invented the almighty circuit breaker. There were a couple of light switches that were upside down. Sure maybe I'm a little anal or something but that just urks me. Soooooo I decided to flip them. Now sure I know I *should* have turned off all the electricity FIRST, but I wanted to keep the A/C on. Yeah. My bad on that. As I was flipping the kitchen light switch.. SPARK! Loud POP! Me, jumping back and making sure all my body parts were still intact. Lights in the kitchen.. go off. Hehehhehe. Then the cable guy that was there installing my stuff was like.. hey can I get a signature while you're still alive? .. DOH! Needless to say, the circuits were shut off and I finished my work successfully without BBQing myself. I RAWK!

Ok I should get back to work before someone figures out I haven't done a single productive work-related thing in the hour I've been here so far.

Ciao

- D -

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FF VIII - Eyes on Me

Whenever sang my songs
On the stage, on my own
Whenever said my words
Wishing they would be heard
I saw you smiling at me
Was it real or just my fantasy?
You'd always be there in the corner
Of this tiny little bar

My last night here for you
Same old songs, just once more
My last night here with you?
Maybe yes, maybe no
I kind of liked it your way
How you shyly placed your eyes on me
Did you ever know
That I had mine on you?

Darling, so there you are
With that look on your face
As if you're never hurt
As if you're never down
Shall I be the one for you
Who pinches you softly but sure
If frown is shown then
I will know that you are no dreamer

So let me come to you
Close as I want to be
Close enough for me
To feel your heart beating fast
And stay there as I whisper
How I love your peaceful eyes on me
Did you ever know
That I had mine on you?

Darling, so share with me
Your love if you have enough
Your tears if you're holding back
Or pain if that's what it is
How can I let you know
I'm more than the dress and the voice
Just reach me out then
You will know that you're not dreaming

Darling, so there you are
With that look on your face
As if you're never hurt
As if you're never down
Shall I be the one for you
Who pinches you softly but sure
If frown is shown then I will know
that you are no dreamer

Lost in the Fog

Ok today we are going to talk about sleep deprivation

All information taken from http://www.postgradmed.com

What is sleep deprivation?
Many Americans don't get enough sleep to remain healthy and feel alert during the day. Recent studies have shown that Americans sleep an average of 7 hours each night rather than the 8 hours recommended by sleep experts.

People who work long hours, those who have a hectic family schedule or a new baby, teens who stay up late and have to get up early for school, and even people whose pets sleep with them may get less sleep than their body needs to be at its best. Over time, this lack of sleep, also called sleep deprivation, can have serious effects on health and relationships. It may even be deadly

What are the effects of sleep deprivation?
It isn't clear why we need sleep, but we do know that sleep is as important as food and water. Some experts think sleep helps the brain recharge its energy and store memories for the long term. Sleep also seems to help the body fight off infection.

People who don't get enough sleep may lack energy, be depressed or irritable, have trouble remembering everyday things, and get sick more often than people who get enough sleep. They seem to age faster and they may have problems concentrating at work or school. Some scientists believe a lack of sleep may have a role in diabetes, high blood pressure, heart problems, and even obesity.

Poor sleep also leads to accidents. More than 200,000 auto accidents happen each year because drivers fall asleep at the wheel. The 1989 Exxon Valdez oil spill was at least partially caused by the actions of a tired tanker operator.

On the other hand, too much sleep can be as harmful as too little. Recent studies have shown that adults who get 7 to 8 hours of sleep a night live longer and are less likely to get heart disease than those who sleep less or more.

Sleep habits for a good night's rest
Stay away from caffeine, nicotine, and alcohol, particularly later in the day.

Have a light snack (but avoid eating a large meal) shortly before bedtime.

Go to bed and get up at the same times each day, even on weekends.

Get regular exercise early in the day.

Keep your bedroom cool, dark, and quiet. A fan or soft music can help disguise
distracting bedtime noise.

Use your bed for only sleep and sex.

Before bedtime, do muscle-relaxing exercises or take a warm bath.

Don't take sleeping pills unless your doctor prescribes them.

Avoid daytime naps unless they last less than 1 hour and are taken before 3 PM.

Try counting sheep or counting backward, which can lull some people to sleep.

If you lie in bed awake for more than 30 minutes, get up, go to a different room
and read or watch television, and return to bed when you feel sleepy.

Misery loves company.. and electricity

So the annual let's move apartments because it's fun is over. A nice start at about 9am. Finish time? 12:30am. Went to sleep time 2:45am. Wake up time 4:45am. Yes.. I'm freaking cracked out right now. So lets break it down.

The movers themselves were good guys and got stuff done however it went from.. move time of mid afternoon, late evening, morning, late afternoon, back to around noon. I was just like.. awesome guys make up your minds. I hope the lady that screwed those guys up schedule wise gets charged with a "You're Stupid" fee.

So whatev, all the stuff was moved to the new place and during the course of all this I find out.. no electricity there sucker!
...
So I call Com Ed (We don't use no PG&E here!) and they tell me.. it'll be on between 1 and 3 days. That's such a CRAP answer. That's like threatening someone and saying.. dude, I will kick your ass! ... sometime in the near future.

Besides that.. the management company of the apartment building hasn't fixed certain things.. like the BIG ASS HOLES in the window screens. And what do I find the moment I walk in? Oh look.. the windows are all open... this leads to.. oh look.. there's freaking bugs on the walls / flying around. I was more than a bit annoyed by this point. They insist they have 10 days to fix everything that's wrong with the apartment. I insist if within 10 days not everything is fixed I'm going to firebomb their office, rape their horses and ride off on the women! (The fiery singing bush told me to do so)

So we're crashing at Panda Thug's house who lives not close to the city. Again. awesome.

Why is it never easy? I mean seriously. I must have had to been a GIANT ASSHOLE that just constantly shat on people in a former lifetime or something. Well ew. Now I have a gross visual. Oh AND.. I got a ticket yesterday because my dumbass hasn't gotten a new sticker for my license plate. Awesome.

I'm surprised a freaking asteroid didn't hit the planet yesterday. Course it would only hit the spot I'm in probably.

And F this heatwave we're having here. I'd rather be on a beach enjoying a cool sea breeze and listening to the waves crashing with the lighthouse running in the background. (Yes, I'd take that scene over a sunny hot beach with half nekkid women running around) (No, I am in fact not gay even if I do live near 'Boys Town')

Of course being off work a day, I come back today and just get bombarded leaving me with the feeling of just getting bitchslapped by a midget in high heels. Awesome. Good Job. Well Played. Then a coworker asks me when I'm going back to school. Just damn.

I'm going to see if I survive the rest of the day.

Holla.

- D -
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Puddle of Mudd - Blurry

Everything's so blurry
and everyone's so fake
and everybody's empty
and everything is so messed up
pre-occupied without you
I cannot live at all
My whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl

You could be my someone
you could be my scene
you know that i'll protect you
from all of the obscene
I wonder what your doing
imagine where you are
there's oceans in between us
but that's not very far

Can you take it all away
can you take it all away
well ya shoved it in my face
this pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away
can you take it all away
well ya shoved it my face

Everyone is changing
there's noone left that's real
to make up your own ending
and let me know just how you feel
cause I am lost without you
I cannot live at all
my whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl

You could be my someone
you could be my scene
you know that i will save you
from all of the unclean
I wonder what your doing
I wonder where you are
There's oceans in between us
but that's not very far

Yawn

Yesterday was Panda Thug's Bday. Around 12:30am or so two of his friends from LA, two cousins, another friend and I hit Chinatown. Actually they hit there while I was at home watching a movie but I met up with them. I can say had it not been his birthday I'd of stayed my ass at home and slept.

Finally made a compilation of the music I picked up when I was in LA last. New CD now available hehe. I dub thee 'Trance Trance Revolution!'

If these people dont mail me back about my move-in date for the apartment today I'm going to have to chew bubble gum and kick ass at their office tonight. Most the corporate office at work today is at the summer outing. Of course some of us have to stay behind to ya know.. provide support and all that. Damn. Feel like a cheap push up bra. Not even the sweet silky lacy kind with the strap.. er... nevermind.

I'll write more if I wake up I'm damned tired hehe.

- D -

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From the 'Trance Trance Revolution!'

The Second You Sleep (Version by Tess)

You close your eyes
And leave me naked by your side
You close the door so I can't see, the love you keep inside
The love you keep for me
It fills me up
It feels like living in a dream
It fills me up so I can't see
The love you keep inside
The love you keep for me
I stay to watch you fade away
I dream of you tonight
Tomorrow you'll be gone
It gives me time to stay, to watch you fade away
I dream of you tonight
Tomorrow you'll be gone
I wish by God you'd stay

I stay awake
I stay awake and watch you breathe
I stay awake and watch you fly, away into the night
Escaping through a dream

I stay to watch you fade away
I dream of you tonight
Tomorrow you'll be gone
It gives me time to stay
To watch you fade away
I dream of you tonight
Tomorrow you'll be gone
I wish by God you'd stay