Yeah Well

Yeah.. I admit it, I like this song.. so what?! hehe.

- D -

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t.A.T.u - All About Us (Partial)

It's all about us (it's all about us)
It's all about us (it's all about us)
And no-one can trust (it's all about us)
It's all about us

They don’t know.
They can’t see.
Who we are.
Fear is the enemy.
Hold on tight,
hold on to me.
‘cause tonight…

It's all about us
It’s all about, all about us
There's a theme that they can't touch
'cause you know - us

Spilled diet coke pt2

Hmm haven't heard this song in awhile.

Evanescence - My Immortal

i'm so tired of being here
suppressed by all of my childish fears
and if you have to leave
i wish that you would just leave
because your presence still lingers here
and it won't leave me alone

these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase

when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
and i've held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me

you used to captivate me
by your resonating light
but now i'm bound by the life you left behind
your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase

when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
and i've held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me

i've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
and though you're still with me
i've been alone all along

No use crying over spilled diet coke

Bother, I just spilled diet coke all over my shoe mid sentence with a coworker.. there was a slight pause and.. meh.. ok moving on then.

BOOM BOOM BOOM crunk BOOM BOOM diva BOOM BOOM jpop... yeah so that's how it sounds in my car right now hehe. Upgraded the car stereo due to one of my bday gifts this year. Rockin the Kenwood deck and the Alpine speakers amps and subs.. WOOT.

This is still one of the best sci-fi series ever Space Above and Beyond. PT got the series for me and we make it a point to marathon a bunch of episodes each weekend.

Meh.. sleepy.. gonna do some work post later.

- D -

PS. Curious George is in fact a cute movie. Even if it didn't have laser guns or weapons of mass destruction.. doh hope that doesnt set off any government alerts hehe. Last thing I need is the FBI storming through my door yelling PUT THE MONKEY.. DOWN!

Enneagram what? Does it sing?

Damn Donovan and his tests...

Link: The Quick and Painless ENNEAGRAM Test

The Helper
Test finished!
you chose CX - your Enneagram type is TWO.

"I must help others"

Helpers are warm, concerned, nurturing, and sensitive to other people's needs.

How to Get Along with Me

Tell me that you appreciate me. Be specific.
Share fun times with me.
Take an interest in my problems, though I will probably try to focus on yours.
Let me know that I am important and special to you.
Be gentle if you decide to criticize me.

In Intimate Relationships

Reassure me that I am intersting to you.
Reassure me often that you love me.
Tell me I'm attractive and that you're glad to be seen with me.

What I Like About Being a Two

being able to relate easily to people and to make friends
knowing what people need and being able to make their lives better
being generous, caring, and warm
being sensitive to and perceptive about others' feelings
being enthusiastic and fun-loving, and having a good sense of humor

What's Hard About Being a Two

not being able to say no
having low self-esteem
feeling drained from overdoing for others
not doing things I really like to do for myself for fear of being selfish
criticizing myself for not feeling as loving as I think I should
being upset that others don't tune in to me as much as I tume in to them
working so hard to be tactful and considerate that I suppress my real feelings

Twos as Children Often

are very sensitive to disapproval and criticism
try hard to please their parents by being helpful and understanding
are outwardly compliant
are popular or try to be popular with other children
act coy, precocious, or dramatic in order to get attention
are clowns and jokers (the more extroverted Twos), or quiet and shy (the more introverted Twos)

Twos as Parents

are good listeners, love their children unconditionally, and are warm and encouraging (or suffer guilt if they aren't)
are often playful with their children
wonder: "Am I doing it right?" "Am I giving enough?" "Have I caused irreparable damage?"
can become fiercely protective
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Well Damn.

- D -

Ultra Combooooooo

Spoke to Tallulah this morning and I guess I didn't sound to thrilled about being at work when I answered the phone. She says.. wow you sound like you're done with the day already. To which I responded with.. yeah I guess that's bad when it's only 9am. It was highly amusing to me :P

Last weekend sucked. Not just a little. But alot. On two days my battery was dead, thus prompting me to have it changed. So fine. Two jumpstarts later.. go to Pep Boys to buy a battery.. would have to leave the car overnight to have them install it.. F That! So.. Panda Thug and I decide.. ok let's do it ourselves. Yeah.. Hours later in the arctic weather we still can't get this ONE FREAKING BOLT off of the old battery.. so we hook the old one back up and drive to PT's house where his Dad, having mad skills, proceeds to take the old battery out with the use of a screwdriver and a tire iron... Yeah ok, so I learned a couple things that night about fixing cars. Everything's back up and running now so that's cool however now my radio's jacked because I didn't know the security code. Awesome.

I should get to work to much stuff to do and I have to make sure I keep my job since ya know, bills and all. Just wanted to let peeps know I'm still alive.

Things were much easier back in the day when my priorities were making sure I was on time for Q-Zar matches and owning people at Killer Instinct, Mortal Kombat and Street Fighter.



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Neo - So Sick of Love Songs (Partial)

And im so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said im so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why cant i turn off the radio?

Gotta fix that calender i have
Thats marked July 15th
Because since theres no more you
Theres no more anniversary
Im so fed up with my thoughts of you
And your memory
And how every song reminds me
Of what used to be

Thats the reason im so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said im so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why cant i turn off the radio?

(Leave me alone)
Leave me alone
(Stupid love songs)
Dont make me think about her smile
Or having my first child
Let it go
Turning off the radio

Groan. Fear This

From Donovan's blog.

Fill this out about me.. email me or post it and depending on your answers I *may* publish it hehe. And post it yourself if you have a blog so I can fill it out for you as well. Damn.. I'm not sure if I want to see some answers to some of these that people I know would come up with. Sure am glad like.. less than 5 people read this...

My name:

Who is the love of my life:

Where did we meet:

Take a stab at my middle name:

How long have you known me:

When is the last time that we saw each other:

Do I smoke:

Do I drink:

When is my birthday:

What was your first impression upon meeting me:

Do I have any siblings:

What’s one of my favorite things to do:

Am I funny:

What’s my favorite type of music:

What is the best feature about me:

Am I shy or outgoing:

Am I a rebel or do I follow the rules:

Do I have any special talents:

Would you consider me a friend/good friend:

Would you call me preppy, average, sporty, punk, hippie, glam, nerdy, snobby, or something else (what):

What is a memory we have once had:

Have you ever hugged me:

Do you miss me…do you think i miss you:

What is my favorite food:

Have you ever had a crush on me:

If there was one good nickname for me, what would it be:

What’s your favorite memory of me:

Who do I like right now:

What is my worst habit:

If you and I were stranded on a desert island, whats one thing you would bring:

Are we friends:

Will you repost this so I can do it for you?

A grrish kind of day

Aquarius

Daily extended (by Astrology.com)

A very close friend or a member of your current peer group -- who means a great deal to you -- has recently found it necessary to go out of their way to tick you off. At least, that's the way it seems. It's worked, too -- better than it should have. You're not just angry, you're furious. Before you let go and let them have it, be sure you're right. Feeling righteous is far better than feeling guilty.
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Was wondering why I've been wanting to kick someone's ass since I woke up this morning...it needs to be Friday.. now.

- D -

The Sith Cake

Were you surprised? I was surprised.
I really need to stop smoking...Victory is mine!

An Inside Connection?

Huh.. I think Haruka has an inside contact at astrology.com or wherever yahoo gets their horoscopes from.

Aquarius

Daily extended (by Astrology.com)
The heavens have arranged for us all to be feeling quite sentimental today, right on cue -- and yes, that goes for you, too, even though you usually don't allow yourself to gush. No matter how much you pride yourself on being objective and detached, however, you'll absolutely give in; so put all that aside and spoil your partner until they can't stand it any more -- which may, of course, never happen.

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How much I pride myself on being objective and detached huh... Interesting.

So take me back to Constantinople
No, you can't go back to Constantinople
Been a long time gone, Constantinople
Why did Constantinople get the works
That's nobody's business but the Turks

- D -

Once Again Into the Breach

I feel I'm awake way to early on my birthday. If I didn't have all these damn meetings scheduled at work today pfft I'd soooo spend the day in bed... probably most of the night to just so I can sleep through it, however one of the drawbacks on having your bday on Valentine's Day is that hiding away for the whole day isn't so much an option. Sall good though. Other than the damn I'm getting another year old factor, things are pretty good.

This is dope. If you're using Winamp, there's this skin you can download that turns your Winamp into a virtual Ipod nano. It's great just because it works exactly like a real nano control wise and menu wise, makes me laugh. Check it here if you want.

Haruka and I are having a fancy like dinner at this place Foco de Chao. I guess it's a Brazilian BBQ place where they pretty much serve you meat from carts they roll around... yeah ok sounds good hehe.

Got my review at work today so cross your fingers for me.. a good review = more money = less debt = happy me.

I'll see if I can post later but no promises.. it's gonna be a hell of a day I'm thinkin.

Happy Valentine's Day.. and if you couldnt give a crap about Valentine's Day, might I suggest the Anti Valentine's Day marathon on Sci Fi Channel? Ok good.

- D -

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REO Speedwagon - Can't Fight This Feeling Anymore


I can't fight this feeling any longer.
And yet I'm still afraid to let it flow.
What started out as friendship,
Has grown stronger.
I only wish I had the strength to let it show.
I tell myself that I can't hold out forever.
I said there is no reason for my fear.
Cause I feel so secure when we're together.
You give my life direction,
You make everything so clear.
And even as I wander,
I'm keeping you in sight.
You're a candle in the window,
On a cold, dark winter's night.
And I'm getting closer than I ever thought I might.
And I can't fight this feeling anymore.
I've forgotten what I started fighting for.
It's time to bring this ship into the shore,
And throw away the oars, forever.
Cause I can't fight this feeling anymore.
I've forgotten what I started fighting for.
And if I have to crawl upon the floor,
Come crashing through your door,
Baby, I can't fight this feeling anymore.
My life has been such a whirlwind since I saw you.
I've been running around in circles in my mind.
And it always seems that I'm following you, girl,
Cause you take me to the places,
That alone I'd never find.
And even as I wander,
I'm keeping you in sight.
You're a candle in the window,
On a cold, dark winter's night.
And I'm getting closer than I ever thought I might.
And I can't fight this feeling anymore.
I've forgotten what I started fighting for.
It's time to bring this ship into the shore,
And throw away the oars, forever.
Cause I can't fight this feeling anymore.
I've forgotten what I started fighting for.
And if I have to crawl upon the floor,
Come crashing through your door,
Baby, I can't fight this feeling anymore.

More Ninja Love

hahah Rocket Boom

Huh.. vlogs are interesting..

- D -

Time time time, see what's become of me

Hoy!

So I have to say, its a bit difficult for me to post right now. This is due to the fact that after going to the eye doctor Sunday, I've learned that my eyes are oval... to which my response was "No crap, I'm Asian". The doc was semi amused. But yeah.. turns out I need glasses so that I can ya know.. see, and not get these knife stabbing migraines I've been getting the past couple of weeks.

Ok so recap.

Saturday was a good day which is something you don't often hear me say this close to my birthday. But props to Haruka as she masterminded a surprise birthday party for me with friends of mine from all different 'groups'. We met up at a Thai restaurant where I had thought we were just meeting Digiblonde and her husband Bones for dinner and as we walked up to this huge table with all these people sitting there.. it took me a little time to figure out who they all were. Needless to say I was pleasantly surprised. Dinner was good but it was like being at a wedding where you have to bounce around from table to table to talk to all of your guests so you could not be rude. Sadly this caused me to only be able to have one slice of the cake of POWER that Haruka got for me. It was a big uhh three layer cake.. choco, vanilla, and cheesecake with strawberry in it. The outside had blue frosting which hahahah stained peoples' teeth and tongues making it look like an orgy of Smurfyness, and to top it off it was a Star Wars cake hahahaha with a Darth Vader voice changer on the top of it. I was sitting there after dinner and was wondering why some of my friends started humming 'The Imperial March'. Afterwards some of us took a looooong drive to a pool hall where I proceeded to KICK Haruka's ass.. yes.. but that's ok, she owns me in bowling nyah.

Thanks to everyone who came and contributed and was there in spirit (as they couldn't get their asses there).

- D -

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The Bangles - Hazy Shade of Winter (partial)

Look around
Leaves are brown
And the sky
Is a hazy shade of winter

Hang on to your hopes my friend
That's an easy thing to say
But if your hopes should pass away
Simply pretend
That you can build them again

Look around
Grass is high
Fields are ripe
It's the springtime of my life

Seasons change with the scenery
Weaving time in a tapestry
Won't you stop and remember me

Look around
Leaves are brown
And the sky
It's a hazy shade of winter

Look around
Leaves are brown
There's a patch of snow on the ground

I can see clearly now the snow is gone

Actually that's a lie.. actually its two lies. The snow is not in fact, gone, and my sight.. that's going. Got an eye exam on Sunday, I'm not to thrilled about. I guess I really am getting old huh?

Lately either I haven't had enough sleep or my eyes are getting hella strained from being in front of a computer all day at work and reading alot more than I was a couple months ago. As of right now, my new best friend is this. Apparently it may have alot to do with it. Something called Computer Vision Syndrome. Awesome. I'll see what the doc thinks on Sunday.

Work has been killing me as well. If it weren't for ya know.. bills and having to be responsible... man I'd so move right now. I'm not even sure where. I'd move to just about anywhere.. Cali.. Japan.. Australia.. Thailand..no scratch that I wouldn't go to Thailand cept for vacation maybe. To many Thai people there that would give me shit for not being born there.

Busy weekend or not. I have to plan my weekends 1 to 2 weeks ahead of time right now. It gets on my nerves a bit. I like the option of.. doing nothing, followed by with some sitting still.. maybe followed by some tv and more nothing. Nothing of course, consists of sleeping and sitting still without having to exert much energy to do anything. A friend of mine wonders if I have SAD. I find all that depression stuff is a load of crap. I'm more of the school of thought that your mind can overcome anything and that you should just have to make yourself stronger and more immune to things that try to bring you down and hold you back. Course.. if that were the case alot of doctors / shrinks would be out of business I guess.

Meh.. whatever I need to go work for a few more hours before I can go home..

Lates.

- D -

PS. Check out Imogen Heap, she's pretty dope. Thanks to Darth MC for introducing me.

Also, thanks to Emy Lee for the letter, it's great you got a chance to play with markers hehe.

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Imogen Heap - Hide and Seek (partial)

where are we? what the hell is going on?
the dust has only just began to fall
crop circles in the carpet, sinking, feeling
spin me around again and rub my eyes
this can't be happening
when busy streets a mess with people would stop to hold their heads heavy

hide and seek
trains and sewing machines?
all those years they were here first

oily marks appear on walls
where pleasue moments hung before
the takeover, the sweeping insensitivity of this
still alive

So you want to be a ninja?

Ohmigod.. this site is freaking hilarious!

http://askaninja.blogspot.com

Check out the Q&A videos buhahahhaha

- D -

I Blame Smallville

Recently, the TV show Smallville used this song in a very fitting scene... I think the only thing that would strike be as truly beautiful is the idea of having no credit card debt. DOH!

James Blunt - You're Beautiful

My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw you face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
Fucking high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw you face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.

Word

This is my horoscope for today.

The consequences of speaking your mind with blunt honesty haven't ever deterred you from telling the truth. So when someone from the past arrives and expects you to be nice, they'll be in for quite the surprise -- especially if the relationship ended because of something disreputable they deliberately did to you. Needless to say, keeping quiet, no matter what the consequences, may be even more difficult for you now. Don't even try. Let 'em have it!

Shiiiiiiiiit..... who's it gonna be? COME GET SOME!

After having slept like crap last night due to some wanna be Quentin Tarantino like nightmare, I'm good to let out some anger. Yes.

- D -

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Young Jeezy - Soul Survivor

[Chorus]
If you lookin' for me I'll be on the block
With my thang cocked possibly sittin' on a drop now
Cause I'm a rida (Yeah)
I'm just a Soul Survivor (Yeah)

Cause er'body know the game don't stop
Tryin' to make it to the top for your ass get popped now
If you a rida (Yeah)
Or just a Soul Survivor (Yeah)

Freakin blogspot

I'm highly annoyed that the right side of my blog has suddenly gone stupid. I've checked the code in various html editors and it should work and the profile / archive / links etc should be displayed directly to the right of the top post but well like a gamer trying to dance without a DDR pad.. not so much.

Awesome.

12+ more days of being annoyed with life. Well... extra annoyed I mean. Though I did have a 3 year old sing to me yesterday, that was pretty cute. Yeah I said cute. Get over it.

- D -

Cuz mayyyyybeeee

Oasis - Wonderwall

Today is gonna be the day
That they're gonna throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you gotta do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do about you now

Backbeat the word was on the street
That the fire in your heart is out
I'm sure you've heard it all before
But you never really had a doubt
I don't believe that anybody feels
The way I do about you now

And all the roads we have to walk along are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I would
Like to say to you
I don't know how

Because maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me?
And after all
You're my wonderwall

Today was gonna be the day
But they'll never throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you're not to do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do
About you now

And all the roads that lead to you were winding
And all the lights that light the way are blinding
There are many things that I would like to say to you
I don't know how

I said maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me?
And after all
You're my wonderwall

I said maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me?
And after an
You're my wonderwall

Said maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
You're gonna be the one that saves me
You're gonna be the one that saves me