Knowledge is Power

My job title is Knowledge Management Specialist. Above my desk, I have a cartoon printed up with an older guy wearing a suit kneeling down next to a kid that he is trying to give guidance to. When I randomly look at that throughout the day at work, it makes me laugh and hate my job a little less.

I have the song "Eyes On Me" (Soul of Bass Version) on repeat on my headphones right now. I posted the lyrics a bit ago. Something about this song makes me a little less dead inside. I think its because it makes me think of the Final Fantasy videogames which has been a part of my life since I was able to pick up a controller. And though people in my life that I hang out with or whatever have changed, in the end, those games were always there and the good guys in those games were always still good even if you were having a bad day. On some strange level.. that's comforting.

Hehehe bought a new LCD Monitor for home. It's purrrty. It's a bit expensive.. but hey.. it makes me happy, not to mention shooting people in first person shooters will be even easier! muhaha!

So next month I'm going to road trip with Donovan since he's going away for school. The drive should be about 28+ hours. Damn. That's going to be a long drive. I've told people I want to bring some sort of weapon along. Driving through some of the southern states in a red Honda Civic makes me a bit nervous. I swear if I hear, "We don't like your kind round here!" There will be conseequences and repercussions! Hehe. Thug.

I'm jealous I'm not going to the Full Moon Party. Have fun at that Nong Soi you deserve a vacation.. even if I don't get to go with :( <- That's me, being sad.

Let's see what else. I've resurrected my PDA at work because there's so much stuff being piled on me that I can't keep track of it otherwise. They're going to give me a Blackberry soon which I'm not sure is a good thing or not. Sure I already have the Nextel that they call me on at random during non-business hours bit now they'll be able to email me to? hmm.

On a lighter note, I'll be getting the kitties from Joan soon. Since she and Kenyon will be moving R & T need a place to crash. That's pretty cool, it's been awhile since R and I have been able to lounge around on the couch and play videogames or watch sci fi.. though he prefers to help me play first person shooters on the computer so he can 'point out' all the bad guys by selectively swatting at the monitor when I'm playing hehe.

Ah crap I started this post 4 hours ago and I haven't been able to finish it so I'll do it later.

~dhavid

Surf's Up

No time to post today work sucks. Long post of lyrics instead.
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Jack Johnson - Flake

I know she said it's alright
But you can make it up next time
I know she knows it's not right
There ain't no use in lying
Maybe she thinks I know something
Maybe maybe she thinks its fine
Maybe she knows something I don't
I'm so, I'm so tired, I'm so tired of trying

It seems to me that maybe
It pretty much always means no
So don't tell me you might just let it go
And often times we're lazy
It seems to stand in my way
Cause no one no not no one
Likes to be let down

I know she loves the sunrise
No longer sees it with her sleeping eyes
And I know that when she said she's gonna try
Well it might not work because of other ties and
I know she usually has some other ties
And I wouldn't want to break 'em, nah, I wouldn't want to break 'em
Maybe she'll help me to untie this but
Until then well, I'm gonna have to lie to you.

It seems to me that maybe
It pretty much always means no
So don't tell me you might just let it go
And often times we're lazy
It seems to stand in my way
Cause no one no not no one
Likes to be let down
It seems to me that maybe
It pretty much always means no
So don't tell me you might just let it go

The harder that you try baby, the further you'll fall
Even with all the money in the whole wide world
Please please please don't pass me
Please please please don't pass me
Please please please don't pass me by

Everything you know about me now baby you gonna have to change
You gonna have to call it by a brand new name
Please please please don't drag me
Please please please don't drag me
Please please please don't drag me down

Just like a tree down by the water baby I shall not move
Even after all the silly things you do
Please please please don't drag me
Please please please don't drag me
Please please please don't drag me down

Of all the things I miss

I miss my soul the most.

This whole corporate grind thing it's well.. what happens to peper after you grind it? And after it's already.. ground, what happens when you try to grind it more? Exactly my point.

So I'm trying to stay afloat of these things I need to fix, maintain, create and manage, then Princes of the Universe by Queen comes on and this of course has my mind wander off in another direction for a couple minutes and I was thinking.. what do I miss from days gone by. Here's a list of some things.

1. Random road trips (that don't suck)
2. Having a 'core' group of people I hung out with on a daily basis
3. TV shows like Highlander
4. Playing Q-Zar and being good at it (before it was about covering sensors)
5. Going to the arcade with Donovan and owning people at any fighting game out there. (Cept Tekken cuz that one sucks)
6. Saturday Morning Cartoons. (Though I watch anime whenever.. but still!)
7. Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles.... cereal
8. Having a reason to talk to people on the phone for hours and being okay with that. (Nowadays a typical conversation is like "What up?" "Nothing much" . . . "Aight later" "Later then"
9. Not having to be responsible and pay bills
10. Riding my bike (Tricked out BMX or 10speed)
11. Stealing my mom or my cousins car and driving w/out a license.
12. Hanging out with /being a gangbanger (More I miss some of the people but let's face it, gangs are stupid)
13. Playing Total Annihilation for days taking a break here and there so my friends and I didn't die from hunger or lack of sleep.
14. The Prelude
15. Getting my ass kicked in the mosh pits at NIN concerts
16. Ditching High School - Can't really get away with ditching much else after that
17. A pager. (I've had once since like.. for ever ago before cell phones were big, it was nice to make the choice of.. do I feel like calling this person back? Now they leave you messages on your cell blah blah blah.. shaddup)
18. Having a mohawk (not to the punky spike in the middle of your head style but still)
19. Wearing a black leather biker jacket haha
20. Not thinking of things that I miss

Awesome.

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D12 w/Eminem - How Come

So I changed huh? You got a phone, pick it up, call me

Chorus:
How come we dont even talk no more
And you dont even call no more
We dont barely keep in touch at all
And I dont even feel the same love when we hug no more
And I heard it through the grape vine we even beefin now
After all the years we been down
Aint no way no how, this bullshit can be true
We family and aint a damn thing changed, unless it's you

So young, so full of life in vibrant side by side wherever you
weres ridin i went
So close, almost on some bonnie and clyde shit
When ronnie died you wass right by my side with a sholder to cry on
Tissue to wipe my eyes, and a bucket to catch every tear i cried inside it
You even had the same type of childhood i did
Sometimes i just want to know why is it that you sucame to yours
And mine i survived it, you ran the streets, i 9 to 5'd it
We grew up, grew apart, as time went by us, then i blew up
To both yours and mine surprises
Now i feel the vibe i just cant describe it
As much as your pride tries to hide it
Your cold, you touch its like ice
In your eyes is the look of resenment
I can sense it, and i dont like it

[Chorus]

It was my dream at first to be on spittin a verse
On my own album with a deal but shit got burst
So i came out i woulda killed a nigga first
Before i let him disrespect me and check me over some worste
Some bitch that i wasnt with i would hit her then quit
But you would pull a talk with her and tell her she was the shit
I told you dont get involved in it, you was smokin the chron with her
Comin out of the bar with her stumblin half drunk
Like yall was husband and wife or somethin
But me catchin you f**kin other niggas musta hurt you pride or somethin
Cuz you wont f**k at the mouth with people like you wanted with me
When all i tried to do was show your bitch was shifty
And ever since the fans and all the shit that i produced
You actin like i aint you man and lyin like she can't be loose
But i am really you friend, i'm jus trying to tell you the truth
But dont hate the game or the player
Cuz the one that is changing is you

[Chorus]

You're only at the top cuz my homie had to stop
Now we actin like i gotta live only for the block
Homies in the hood only she be on the tube
Only gossip on the porch get to speakin on who
Fools i used to rap with all expect magic
Like my finger get to snappin and *poof* it jus happen
But PROOF is jus actin out the party was stoned
Shady made it so my babys aint starvin at home
See the devil in you grin since the ghetto we been friends
Whenever real intelligence thats forever till the end
I be the hatred in your eyes and the satan in your lives
And wastin my times with these snakes in disguise
(how come) when you talk its with bitter is fight
And (how come) it's my fault for what you did with your life
And everytime i go to hear you and play you look away
We barely embrace, you can't even look me in my face.

Head Like a Hole

Work work work. And I didn't win the damn lottery from last Friday. I don't follow the rules of winning;

1. Can't speak English
2. Already wealthy
3. Older than dirt

So lets see. Last Thur / Fri I wasn't able to post at all because work is whoring me like a blonde hooker in Asia... (thinks about people who read this...) Strike that last comment.

This past weekend I was in St. Louis with Haruka, my mum, my sis and her boyfriend. Let me just say if you go there.. you must be like the chick from UHF who picked 'the box' over the red snapper.

I'll say ok it was cool to see technology from the 60s.. but I'm more a new technology kind of guy. I'd rather have a lightsaber or a laser gun compared to a rocketship held up by strings.

While there we stopped at a casino. All I can say is.. damn I can burn through money quick on video poker. I wasn't feelin playing with all the pros at the tables. Damn people that gamble all the time and get pissy if you don't do something 'right'. Whatever with that, you're there to have fun, its not your damn job, least not mine.

Also on the ride home, we had a tire blow out.. luckily it was the back tire or else I wouldn't be sitting her failing to post anything interesting right now.

Ok. I gotta get back to work, I'll post when I have time to breathe and such.

~dhavid

Riddle me this

I'm so not motivated to work. So instead I'll read the blogs of people I like. Stumbling across Donovan's blog he posted some Q&A.. guess I'll answer this instead of working.. good job.
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1. ONE WISH? World Peace.
2. ARE YOU A LOVER OR A FIGHTER? Yes. It's good to be both.
3. WHAT’S YOUR WORST FEAR? Wasting my life by not doing something of worth and not being remembered when I'm gone.
4. AS A KID, WERE YOU A LEGO MANIAC? I was all about the spaceship sci-fi legos.
5. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF “REALITY” TV? It's ok. I'll take sci-fi over it any day.
6. DO YOU CHEW ON YOUR STRAWS? Sometimes yeah.
7. WERE YOU A CUTE BABY? Hell if I remember.
8. IS THE SINGLE LIFE FOR YOU? Only when I want to play videogames till the sun comes up hehehe
9. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR KEYBOARD? White.. black on the laptop.
10. DO YOU SING IN THE SHOWER? No.
11. HAVE YOU EVER BUNGEE JUMPED? No.
12. ANY SECRET TALENTS? If yes, they're still secret to me.
13. WHAT’S YOUR IDEAL VACATION SPOT? Japan. Thailand. Australia. London.
14. IS JAY LENO FUNNY? Looks aren't everything.
15. CAN YOU SWIM? Like Nemo.
16. HAVE YOU SEEN THE MOVIE “DONNIE DARKO”? Director's Cut baby.
17. DO YOU GIVE A DAMN ABOUT THE OZONE? Why would I care about the layer of atmosphere that allows for human life on the surface of the planet...(that means yes for you slower folks).
18. HOW MANY LICKS DOES IT TAKE TO GET TO THE CENTER OF A TOOSTIE POP? Don't know, I like instant gratification myself.
19. CAN YOU SING THE ALPHABET BACKWARDS? Sing? Hell I can barely SAY the alphabet backwards.

(Crap at this point I start to figure out how long this list of questions is and feel I REALLY should get back to work.. but the show must go on!)

20. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON AN AIRPLANE? Yup.
21. ARE YOU AN ONLY CHILD? Nope
22. DO YOU PREFER ELECTRIC OR MANUAL PENCIL SHARPENERS? Electric
23. WHAT’S YOUR STAND ON HUNTING? I think its bullshit to hunt for sport. If you're going to eat it, ok. But don't shoot living things for no reason.
24. IS MARRIAGE IN YOUR FUTURE? Someday.
25. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? Hahahahha. No. There's a reason I can type very fast.
26. WHAT ARE YOU ALLERGIC TO? Uh.. Horses (boo), Cats (till I get used to them).
27. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAID I LOVE YOU”? This morning
28. IS ELVIS STILL ALIVE? If he is, he's a dumbass.
29. DO YOU CRY AT WEDDINGS? No.
30. HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR EGGS? Cooked.
31. ARE BLONDES DUMB? Stupid knows no hair color.
32. WHERE DOES THE OTHER SOCK END UP? On the other foot if you can find it.
33. WHAT TIME IS IT? 9:52 a.m.
34. DO YOU HAVE A NICKNAME? None that I approve of.
35. IS MCDONALD’S DISGUSTING? From a nutritional standpoint fuck yeah, now pass me some nuggets and an order of fries.
36. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU WERE IN A CAR? Couple of hours ago.
37. DO YOU PREFER BATHS OR SHOWERS? Wait, Solo? Showers I spose.
38. IS SANTA CLAUS REAL? As real as weapons of mass destruction and the easter bunny.
39. KIRK OR PICARD? Dude.. who else can scream KAAAAAAAHHNNN!!!! Kirk is a legend. Picard is just a high level pimp.
40. ARE YOU AFRAID OF THE DARK? Normally no.
41. WHAT ARE YOU ADDICTED TO? Breathing. Seems like whenever I try to stop, I can't.
42. CRUNCHY OR CREAMY PEANUT BUTTER? Creamy? Don't really care.
43. CAN YOU CRACK YOUR NECK? Yes. (Look Mom! No Hands!)
44. HAVE YOU EVER RIDDEN IN AN AMBULANCE? Been in them more than once not sure if I actually took a ride on one though.
45. HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU BRUSHED YOUR TEETH TODAY? Once so far.
46. IS DRUG FREE THE WAY TO BE? Meh.. prochoice on that. Am I curious of some? Sure. Would I care if I never had any the rest of my life? Not really.
47. ARE YOU A HEAVY SLEEPER? Yeah, if you try waking me up and aren't careful you might get knocked the FUCK out.
48. WHAT COLOR ARE YOUR EYES? Brown.
50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR LIFE? It has it's moments. It might not be alot, but it's my lot.
51. LIQUOR OR BEER? Liquor. Gimme a shaker and some juice, I'll mix you something.
52. ARE YOU PSYCHIC? I KNEW you were going to ask that...

(Bloody hell how long is this thing?!)

53. HAVE YOU READ “CATCHER THE RYE”? No.
55. HAVE U EVER STOLEN MONEY? Yes.
56. CAN YOU SNOWBOARD? Not so much.
57. DO YOU LIKE CAMPING? Sure.
58. DO U SNORT WHEN U LAUGH? No.
59. DO YOU BELIEVE IN MAGIC? No, but I would like to.
60. ARE DOGS A MAN’S BEST FRIEND? Not always.
61. DO YOU BELIEVE IN DIVORCE? Better to be divorced than end up in a fiery car crash rolling down the side of a hill becaue your husband or wife wanted to end the relationship.
62. CAN YOU DO THE MOONWALK? Yes.
63.DO YOU MAKE A LOT OF MISTAKES? No. I mean yes. Damn it!
64. IS IT COLD OUTSIDE TODAY? Sadly no.
65. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE? Strawberries and cream.
66.DO YOU WEAR NAIL POLISH? Not normally.
67. SWEATSHIRT OR JACKET? Jacket (I miss you jacket!)
68. WHAT’S THE MOST ANNOYING COMMERCIAL? Those viagra like ones with the guy that smiles to much. It's creepy as shit.
69. DO YOU SHOP AT AMERICAN EAGLE? Nope.
70. DO YOU SNORE? If a tree falls in the forrest...
71. FAVORITE SONG AT THE MOMENT? Something techno / trance / euro like.

One foot in front of the other

Good Morning.

So I get to my cubicle this morning and I ask one of my coworkers.. is it REALLY bright in here or? He kind of tilted his head and looked at me like I was asking him for some spare change so I could afford my next purchase of crack... awesome.

First.. Happy Birthday to Joan! Hopefully she was able to celebrate with more than spackle and paint.

This was kind of a quiet weekend for the most part. Think Haruka and I managed to watch alot of TV and even did some laundry. But honestly after a full work week of running and jumping through hoops, I appreciate just sitting still and waiting for the blur of myself to catch up with me so I can be centered again. Tallulah should know what I mean by that.

Yesterday we went to the downtown area of one of the nieghborhoods north of me. I can say it was cool for multiple reasons but mainly because standing there looking around if you just let go, it seemed like you were in another city somewhere else in the World. I guess it's a romantic notion to just pick up and go or the adventurous feeling of having to adapt to an unknown place and situations. Meh.. it's hard to explain, but I like it.

Then we saw War of the Worlds. Let me say.. it sucked so much ass I was angry for hours after watching it. Just because Tom Cruise and Steven Spielberg are involved with a film, by no means guarantees it to be good. Now I watched the original when I was a kid and watched the spinoff television series of it as well. The special effects? Sure awesome. The story? I could have wiped my ass with the script and it would have been better than what they had. Slackers. Oh and it was also awesome how the projector stopped at a really tense part of the film and then 10 minutes later some theatre employee coming in and telling us it would be fixed in 10 or 15 minutes.. awesome.

Then I get home and watched The Day After Tomorrow, just because I never watched it when it came out. Apparently yesterday was apocalypse movie day for me. It does make me think.. if any huge end of the world like thing happened as bad as it would be, I'd kind of have fun trying to survive and move on. Don't ask, I can't explain. It probably goes with the notion of adapting and adventuring.

Anyway I'm going to go back to work.. lots of stuff to do.

Awesome.

- D -

Every day and every night

Exotic Voices - I'll Fly With You (euro version)

I still believe in your eyes
I just don't care what
You have done in your life
Baby I'll always be here by your side
Don't leave me waiting too long
Please come by
I, I, I, I still believe in your eyes;
There is no choice,
I belong to your life
Because I will live
To love you someday;
You'll be my baby
And we'll fly away
And I'll fly with you,
I'll fly with you,
I'll fly with you
You are, are, are, are, are, are
You are, are, are, are, are, are
You are, are, are, are, are, are

Every day and every night,
I always dream that
You are by my side
Oh, baby, every day
And every night,
Well I said everything's
Gonna be alright
And I'll fly with you,
I'll fly with you,
I'll fly with you

You are, are, are, are, are, are
You are, are, are, are, are, are

Dream of me
I still believe in your eyes
I just don't care what
You've done in your life
Baby I'll always
Be here by your side;
Don't leave me
Waiting too long,
Please come by
I, I, I, I still believe in your eyes;
There is no choice,
I belong to your life
Because I will live
To love you some day;
You'll be my baby
And we'll fly away
And I'll fly with you,
I'll fly with you,
I'll fly with you

Every day and every night,
I always dream that
You are by my side
Oh, baby, every day
And every night,
Well I said everything's
Gonna be alright
And I'll fly with you,
I'll fly with you,
I'll fly with you

You are, are, are, are, are, are
You are, are, are, are, are, are

Crimson and Clover

No time to post. Work keeping me busy. Still alive. Still moving forward.
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Jimmy Eat World - Praise Chorus

Are you gonna live your life wonderin' standing in the back lookin' around?
Are you gonna waste your time thinkin' how you've grown up or how you missed out?
Things are never gonna be the way you want.
Where's it gonna get you acting serious?
Things are never gonna be quite what you want.
Or even at 25, you gotta start sometime.
I'm on my feet, I'm on the floor, I'm good to go.
Now all I need is just to hear a song I know.
I wanna always feel like part of this was mine.
I wanna fall in love tonight.
Are you gonna live your life standing in the back looking around?
Are you gonna waste your time?
Gotta make a move or you'll miss out.
Someone's gonna ask you what it's all about.
Stick around nostalgia won't let you down.
Someone's gonna ask you what it's all about.
Whatcha gonna have to say for yourself?
I'm on my feet, I'm on the floor, I'm good to go.
Now all I need is just to hear a song I know.
I wanna always feel like part of this was mine.
I wanna fall in love tonight.
Crimson and clover, over and over.
Crimson and clover, over and over.
Our house in the middle of the street, why did we ever meet?
Started my rock 'n roll fantasy.
Don't don't, don't let's start, why did we ever part?
Kick start my rock 'n rollen heart.
I'm on my feet, I'm on the floor, I'm good to go.
So come on Davey, sing me somethin' that I know.
I wanna always feel like part of this was mine.
I wanna fall in love tonight.
Here tonight.
I wanna always feel like part of this was mine
I wanna fall in love tonight.

Crack your bones

To sum up my Chiropractor experience yesterday I offer this excerpt from the transcript of Eddie Izzard's Dressed to Kill show.

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So I had to go see a chiropractor, in New York. And um, they’re different to osteopaths, chiropractors, because of the spelling. And, uh… Of course, they’re both very powerful figures on the Scrabble board, though… “Chiropractor…chiropractor…chiropractor…93 letters, chiropractor.”

And – and they, uh, they crack your bones – that’s what they do – they crack your bones! And they take x-rays – what – at this point – this – because – this – whatever is wrong with you – “You’ve got a bad back, I’m gonna crack your bones. You’ve got diphtheria – I’m gonna crack your bones. Your head’s come off! I’m gonna crack your bones. It looks like your mother! I’m going to crack your – “ you know…

And then when they crack your bones it goes uuuughhhh and then ahhhhhhh but not sort of ahhhhhhhhh but sort – ahhhhhhhhh! All the way up your spine, “Crack your bones, crack your bones, crack your bones.” And they sort of arrange you into a – a nice, comfortable – ahhhhcharrghh!…ahhhhpoughhh! And sometimes it doesn’t crack! Sometimes it just goes, “____”. Then they pull a mallet from their belt and they – “Try to make the noise! Make the noise! I live for the noise…” And they do your head as well, around here, and they get it into a nice posit – and you’re thinking, “Wh – wh – where – wh – where – the – wh – the – uh, no I don’t think it’s supposed to go around that – !…”

In the end you just trust them, you trust them. They could have your fingers – their fingers in your nostrils, one foot on the back of your underpants, and they’re pushing your spine away with a broom. “Well, what’s this one about?” “I have no idea.”
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Overall it was kind of neat. I was hooked up to a machine that pretty much was shooting electricity into my back. Unfortunately it did not give me the ability to shoot lightning from my fingertips.. I'll have to ask him to turn it higher next time. I was also on this rolling machine that I feel is a modern day torture device. Sure it's supposed to "massage" your spine but if you're going to the Chiropractor obviously you're back / spine probably hurt.. mmm logic.

I'm getting old. *sigh*

- D -

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Nirvana - The Man Who Sold The World
We passed upon the stairs,
We spoke of was and when
Although I wasn?t there
He said I was his friend
Which came as a surprise
I spoke into his eyes -- I thought you died alone
A long long time ago

Oh no, not me,
We never lost control,
You're face to face,
With the man who sold the world

I laughed and shook his hand,
I made my way back home,
I searched for form and land,
Years and years I roamed,
I gazed a gazely stare,
We walked a million hills -- I must have died alone,
A long long time ago.

Who knows, not me,
I never lost control,
You?re face, to face,
With the man who sold the world.

No need for a title

Have a mid year review today at work. Hoping it will go well and I'll get a raise and or promotion. Either would be good, both would be better. If it doesn't work the way I want, I'll have to wait until March. Boo.

Over the weekend I managed to spend a couple thousand dollars again.. as I do. This time though it wasn't for drugs, sex, or new cars. Not that I usually buy that stuff.. but for reals, I bought a couch! A real grown up piece of furniture. I'm a bit beside myself I'm not sure how to handle that yet. I don't think I've ever been on a payment plan.. for furniture. I managed to get one 3-person couch, one chair, one cocktail table and two end tables. Neat, huh?

Woot!

Now to pay off all this stuff. Anyone hiring for part time drug dealer and or assassin? Maybe an internship? How bout a pimp from home? I hear you can work just about any job from home nowadays as long as you have an internet connection. Hell if anything I should launch my website that would bring me much $. www.rentapuppy.com , where I could offer hourly puppy rentals for guys who want to walk through the park or along the beach to pick up women. I'd be RICH I tell you!

Oh and after work today I get to go to the chiropractor who's going to break my bones, I mean.. fix me. Awesome.

Holla Back.

- D -

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Depeche Mode - Blasphemous Rumors (Excerpt)

I don't want to start any blasphemous rumors
But I think that God's got a sick sense of humor
And when I die, I expect to find him laughing

Winding Down.

I'm tired. Waking up early tomorrow to go take a look at some furniture. I need a freaking couch. The blue velvet beanbag has definitely lost its charm. Going to Tallulah's show tonight but that's not till around 11pm sooooo not to sure what to do before then.

Gah.. 45 minutes left to work. I should do something productive since I'm not in more training classes or in meetings that put me to sleep right now.

Later,

- D -

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Michelle Branch - All You Wanted (Excerpt)

If you want to
I can save you
I can take you away
From here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted
Was somebody who cares

I'm sinking slowly
So hurry hold me
Your hand is all I have
To keep me hanging on
Please can you tell me
So I can finally see
Where you go
When you're gone

Mamma Mia Let Me Go

So I'm sitting at work with my earphones on, with the music effectively turned on this time I might add, and Bohemian Rhapsody by Queen comes on. I can't quite explain it but hearing this song and listening to it just makes me laugh. It's just.. hilarious hehehhe.

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Queen - Bohemian Rhapsody

Is this the real life-
Is this just fantasy-
Caught in a landslide-
No escape from reality-
Open your eyes
Look up to the skies and see-
I'm just a poor boy I need no sympathy-
Because I'm easy come,easy go,
A little high,little low,
Anyway the wind blows,doesn't really matter to me,
To me

Mama,just killed a man,
Put a gun against his head,
Pulled my trigger,now he's dead,
Mama,life had just begun,
But now I've gone and thrown it all away-
Mama ooo,
Didn't mean to make you cry-
If I'm not back again this time tomorrow-
Carry on,carry on,as if nothing really matters-

Too late,my time has come,
Sends shivers down my spine-
Body's aching all the time,
Goodbye everybody-I've got to go-
Gotta leave you all behind and face the truth-
Mama ooo- (any way the wind blows)
I don't want to die,
I sometimes wish I'd never been born at all-

I see a little silhouetto of a man,
Scaramouche,scaramouche will you do the fandango-
Thunderbolt and lightning-very very frightening me-
Galileo,galileo,
Galileo galileo
Galileo figaro-magnifico-
But IÂ’m just a poor boy and nobody loves me-
HeÂ’s just a poor boy from a poor family-
Spare him his life from this monstrosity-
Easy come easy go-,will you let me go-
Bismillah! no-,we will not let you go-let him go-
Bismillah! we will not let you go-let him go
Bismillah! we will not let you go-let me go
Will not let you go-let me go
Will not let you go let me go
No,no,no,no,no,no,no-
Mama mia,mama mia,mama mia let me go-
Beelzebub has a devil put aside for me,for me,for me-

So you think you can stone me and spit in my eye-
So you think you can love me and leave me to die-
Oh baby-can't do this to me baby-
Just gotta get out-just gotta get right outta here-

Nothing really matters,
Anyone can see,
Nothing really matters-,nothing really matters to me,

Any way the wind blows....
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On a serious note. My thoughts are with the people and their families in London who were affected by the recent Terrorist attack. I can confidently say that terrorists suck ass and if ever put into a situation where someone gave me the choice to pull the trigger on a terrorist that has comitted such acts or is planning to, I would have no hesitation whatsoever(course having concrete proof would be required so the order couldn't come from someone like Bush who's intelligence is as reliable as a Solar Powered car during the six-month winter night in Antarctica). Sure being raised Catholic and all that I was told Thou Shalt Not Kill, at the same time I firmly believe Thou Shalt Not Let Punk Ass Bitch Terrorists walk around freely to harm innocent people and do nothing about it. (That would have taken a bigger tablecommandments commandements to fit I feel). But seriously, when it comes down to it some things just have to be done.

It's a sad truth but stupid people *have* to exist in this world if anything as a reminder to others on what not to become and what choices in life not to make.

- D -

Big Ball of Fire !

Wow. Long post.. INCOMING!

So let's see. I haven't been at work since last Friday since we had July 4th and all that and yesterday I had to take off to take care of some stuff with the new apartment.

First I have to start with things so far this morning.. As I was driving into work either it was due to not enough sleep or just being so used to cloudy days, but something caught the corner of my eye and it was a bright light. For a moment, I started to freak out and was like.. what the hell is that big ball of light to my left?!?!... Yeah. Ok. So it was the sun, and it was in fact, not, coming right at me. Doh.

Then I'm sitting here at my desk with my headphones in my ear. I'd say almost an hour later I notice.. hey... there's no music playing. Groan.

Ok. Back to reality. I'm trying to get caught up on email both work and personal. Internet and cable were hooked up yesterday at home. Yay ! ^_^

Recently a friend of mine overseas just had some surgery. Nong Soi, glad you're ok and uhh have all the parts that should be inside you, well.. inside! When you coming back to the States already?

Tallulah is in a new show that opens this Friday dun dun dunnnnnnn. Hit me up for details if you need em.

Also, another friend of mine is going through some Cancer stuff right now. Let me know if I can do anything to help Nauds.

Ok back on to the drama at the new apartment. So alot of stuff was broken when Haruka and I moved in. Screens needed to be replaced uhhh dishwasher didn't work etc. Anyway, this uber maintenance guy came yesterday and fixed alot of stuff. That's a good thing. I had to go to the management office to get the remote to my parking lot that opens the gate... Yes.. I had to get out of my parking lot to which I did not have a remote to open the gate to. Awesome. So I do have to say among the home improvements that were made, I give props to the person who invented the almighty circuit breaker. There were a couple of light switches that were upside down. Sure maybe I'm a little anal or something but that just urks me. Soooooo I decided to flip them. Now sure I know I *should* have turned off all the electricity FIRST, but I wanted to keep the A/C on. Yeah. My bad on that. As I was flipping the kitchen light switch.. SPARK! Loud POP! Me, jumping back and making sure all my body parts were still intact. Lights in the kitchen.. go off. Hehehhehe. Then the cable guy that was there installing my stuff was like.. hey can I get a signature while you're still alive? .. DOH! Needless to say, the circuits were shut off and I finished my work successfully without BBQing myself. I RAWK!

Ok I should get back to work before someone figures out I haven't done a single productive work-related thing in the hour I've been here so far.

Ciao

- D -

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FF VIII - Eyes on Me

Whenever sang my songs
On the stage, on my own
Whenever said my words
Wishing they would be heard
I saw you smiling at me
Was it real or just my fantasy?
You'd always be there in the corner
Of this tiny little bar

My last night here for you
Same old songs, just once more
My last night here with you?
Maybe yes, maybe no
I kind of liked it your way
How you shyly placed your eyes on me
Did you ever know
That I had mine on you?

Darling, so there you are
With that look on your face
As if you're never hurt
As if you're never down
Shall I be the one for you
Who pinches you softly but sure
If frown is shown then
I will know that you are no dreamer

So let me come to you
Close as I want to be
Close enough for me
To feel your heart beating fast
And stay there as I whisper
How I love your peaceful eyes on me
Did you ever know
That I had mine on you?

Darling, so share with me
Your love if you have enough
Your tears if you're holding back
Or pain if that's what it is
How can I let you know
I'm more than the dress and the voice
Just reach me out then
You will know that you're not dreaming

Darling, so there you are
With that look on your face
As if you're never hurt
As if you're never down
Shall I be the one for you
Who pinches you softly but sure
If frown is shown then I will know
that you are no dreamer

Lost in the Fog

Ok today we are going to talk about sleep deprivation

All information taken from http://www.postgradmed.com

What is sleep deprivation?
Many Americans don't get enough sleep to remain healthy and feel alert during the day. Recent studies have shown that Americans sleep an average of 7 hours each night rather than the 8 hours recommended by sleep experts.

People who work long hours, those who have a hectic family schedule or a new baby, teens who stay up late and have to get up early for school, and even people whose pets sleep with them may get less sleep than their body needs to be at its best. Over time, this lack of sleep, also called sleep deprivation, can have serious effects on health and relationships. It may even be deadly

What are the effects of sleep deprivation?
It isn't clear why we need sleep, but we do know that sleep is as important as food and water. Some experts think sleep helps the brain recharge its energy and store memories for the long term. Sleep also seems to help the body fight off infection.

People who don't get enough sleep may lack energy, be depressed or irritable, have trouble remembering everyday things, and get sick more often than people who get enough sleep. They seem to age faster and they may have problems concentrating at work or school. Some scientists believe a lack of sleep may have a role in diabetes, high blood pressure, heart problems, and even obesity.

Poor sleep also leads to accidents. More than 200,000 auto accidents happen each year because drivers fall asleep at the wheel. The 1989 Exxon Valdez oil spill was at least partially caused by the actions of a tired tanker operator.

On the other hand, too much sleep can be as harmful as too little. Recent studies have shown that adults who get 7 to 8 hours of sleep a night live longer and are less likely to get heart disease than those who sleep less or more.

Sleep habits for a good night's rest
Stay away from caffeine, nicotine, and alcohol, particularly later in the day.

Have a light snack (but avoid eating a large meal) shortly before bedtime.

Go to bed and get up at the same times each day, even on weekends.

Get regular exercise early in the day.

Keep your bedroom cool, dark, and quiet. A fan or soft music can help disguise
distracting bedtime noise.

Use your bed for only sleep and sex.

Before bedtime, do muscle-relaxing exercises or take a warm bath.

Don't take sleeping pills unless your doctor prescribes them.

Avoid daytime naps unless they last less than 1 hour and are taken before 3 PM.

Try counting sheep or counting backward, which can lull some people to sleep.

If you lie in bed awake for more than 30 minutes, get up, go to a different room
and read or watch television, and return to bed when you feel sleepy.