Recent Haps

I had some comments about my last post and I apologize for not following up with everyone. The quick answer is a friend of mine is going through some medical stuff right now and it makes me sad and angry that there's nothing I can do about it.. I can't physically hit something or endure something to make her better either.

Sorry to people I haven't had a chance to keep in touch with as of late. Work's been stressing be the hell out and I just needed some time to let things reset. It's still hectic but I feel like shooting myself a little less right now. Did the sensory deprivation tank thing last weekend.. it was.. okay. I did learn that salt water in your eyes stings REALLY BAD. I'm not sure what I was expecting.. something a bit more meaningful and self exploratory I guess. Floating in a sound proof pitch black box in salt water.. I could do that at home if done right and not have to pay for it hehe. I'm pretty sure there are other things that would be more of a stress relieve for me than that. The whole experience did lead to a conversation I had with Haruka about self exploration and personal growth and makes me want to get into some meditation or something like that.

In more recent news, I just decided I'm going to go on vacation for a week in two weeks. Going to jet off to LA for E3. I'll be hanging with Koopa so it should be cool. Might be able to hook with Darth for lunch or something while I'm there to. Leaving outta here Tuesday night on the 9th, going to LA until the 12th, leaving there and flying to SF and meeting up with Haruka there then we'll both fly back on the 17th. From a money standpoint, probably not the smartest thing for me to do right now but ya know what.. there's no way to pay back debt if you're FREAKING INSANE. Sooo.. yeah.... West Coast? YES PLEASE.

Also during the hustle of today's breakdowns at work I was browsing through an old friend's website.. least I think she was a friend.. dunno.. but anyway, she did have something on there that I liked which was a section of unsent letters to people she's known in her lifetime and refferred to it as her doing some mental cleaning. Yeah.. maybe I'll have to write some letters of my own. Going through a mental mailing list right now.. and yeah I'd need ALOT of stamps if those letters were ever sent.

Within the last week or so.. another.. friend? ...hit me up on myspace which is amusing considering myspace isn't under my real name or anything associated with my past. But whatever, she hit me up and I was like.. hey, and we correspond here and there and I'm amazed by the places/countries she's lived in so far during her lifetime and I'm just like.. wow.. why haven't I done that and just packed up and left? It did bring back alot of memories talking to her so I'm not sure how I feel bout all of it yet. Whatever though. You figure that all of your past experiences you've had make you the person you are today so why regret anything?

This picture still makes me laugh.



- D -

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Fall to Pieces - Avril Lavigne

I looked away
Then I look back at you
You try to say
The things that you can't undo
If I had my way
I'd never get over you
Today's the day
I pray that we make it through

Make it through the fall
Make it through it all

[Chorus:]
And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it
Cuz I'm in Love With you

You're the only one,
I'd be with till the end
When I come undone
You bring me back again
Back under the stars
Back into your arms

[Chorus]

Wanna know who you are
Wanna know where to start
I wanna know what this means

Wanna know how you feel
Wanna know what is real
I wanna know everything, everything

[Chorus without last line]

[Chorus]

I'm in love with you
Cuz i'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you

The things I cannot change

Bad things happen to good people everyday. It's not something you can be angry about, it's just reality. Course, you can be angry about good things happening to bad people. Eitherway, not much you can do about it.

Try your best.

- D -

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Sound of Silence - Emiliana Torrini version

Hello darkness, my old friend,
I've come to talk with you again,
Because a vision softly creeping,
Left its seeds while I was sleeping,
And the vision that was planted in my brain
Still remains
Within the sound of silence.

In restless dreams I walked alone
Narrow streets of cobblestone,
'Neath the halo of a street lamp,
I turned my collar to the cold and damp
When my eyes were stabbed by the flash of a neon light
That split the night
And touched the sound of silence.

And in the naked light I saw
Ten thousand people, maybe more.
People talking without speaking,
People hearing without listening,
People writing songs that voices never share
And no one dare
Disturb the sound of silence.

"Fools" said I, "You do not know
Silence like a cancer grows.
Hear my words that I might teach you,
Take my arms that I might reach you."
But my words like silent raindrops fell,
And echoed
In the wells of silence

And the people bowed and prayed
To the neon god they made.
And the sign flashed out its warning,
In the words that it was forming.
And the sign said, "The words of the prophets
are written on the subway walls
And tenement halls."
And whisper'd in the sounds of silence.

Rope burns from hanging on

Nothing, nothing at all to write about. Been to busy / burned out. I'm sure I've done something fun or other lately but damned if I can think of any of it right now. Lots of drama everywhere. Work... yeah.. if I didn't have bills (which I still have to pay), I'd so quit and get out of the corporate world. I kind of like my soul or the thought of still having it, but everday I come to work, I lose another piece of it.

I need to be on a tropical island all Lord of the Flies style for a little bit.. maybe with a couple of items.. but still. Solitude and sensory deprivation. Yes.

I remember a conversation I had with PT about this song.. he's like.. of course I know Sukiyaki, I'm Asian.. well who can argue with that logic?

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Sukiyaki - Utada Hikaru version

It's all because of you
I'm feeling sad and blue
You went away
Now my life is just a rainy day
I love you so
How much you'll never know
You've gone away and left me lonely

Untouchable memories
Seem to keep haunting me
Of love so true
That once turned all my gray skies blue
But you disappeared
Now my eyes are filled with tears
I wish that you were here with me

Soaked with love all my thoughts of you
Now that you're gone I don't know what to do

If only you were here
You'd wash away my tears
The sun would shine
Once again you'll be mine all mine
But in reality
You and I will never be
Cuz you took your love away from me

If only you were here
You'd wash away my tears
The sun would shine
Once again you'll be mine all mine
But in reality
You and I will never be
Cuz you took your love away from me
Oh baby
You took your love away from me

Days gone by

This morning between meetings and conversations that I had almost 0 interest in being in, I found myself listening to or thinking about old school stuff I used to listen to or watch.

I wonder how many people out there have ever seen the movie.. Rad. Hehe.. yes.. I wasn't a skater growing up, but give me a bike and it was all about the jumping ramps.. and doing tricks that would only lead to pain and bruising. (I was injured less doing that stuff than freaking rollerblading....shut up Donovan).

It's to bad my bro Elvis never reads this blog, he'd appreciate one of the songs I had playing earlier.

- D -

Awesome.. just got back from a meeting and afterwards was talking to a friend of mine and was like.. ever have a conversation or a meeting where you just kinda stare at someone and see their lips moving and not understand a single word coming out of their mouth? Yes... and yes it was in English.

They spinnin they spinnin they spinnin

My sis sent me this link.. I dunno why but I find it very amusing.. probably because it lights up and I'm a product of advertising..

http://www.fugly.com/videos/5015/Pimp_Star.html

haha 12k for a cheap set of those..

- D -

Today's Horrible Scope

"If there's a festering disagreement nobody wants to get into, and it's plaguing one of your relationships, don't let it fester any longer than it has already. A wound has to be cleaned, no matter how painful the process may be, before it can heal. In this case, the cleansing process can only start after you've broached the subject. Bring it out into the light. Give it a little fresh air. You'll be glad you did."

Ha. Ha I say.

I'm going to listen to rock ballads now and pretend that I don't mind working right now.