Recent Haps

I had some comments about my last post and I apologize for not following up with everyone. The quick answer is a friend of mine is going through some medical stuff right now and it makes me sad and angry that there's nothing I can do about it.. I can't physically hit something or endure something to make her better either.

Sorry to people I haven't had a chance to keep in touch with as of late. Work's been stressing be the hell out and I just needed some time to let things reset. It's still hectic but I feel like shooting myself a little less right now. Did the sensory deprivation tank thing last weekend.. it was.. okay. I did learn that salt water in your eyes stings REALLY BAD. I'm not sure what I was expecting.. something a bit more meaningful and self exploratory I guess. Floating in a sound proof pitch black box in salt water.. I could do that at home if done right and not have to pay for it hehe. I'm pretty sure there are other things that would be more of a stress relieve for me than that. The whole experience did lead to a conversation I had with Haruka about self exploration and personal growth and makes me want to get into some meditation or something like that.

In more recent news, I just decided I'm going to go on vacation for a week in two weeks. Going to jet off to LA for E3. I'll be hanging with Koopa so it should be cool. Might be able to hook with Darth for lunch or something while I'm there to. Leaving outta here Tuesday night on the 9th, going to LA until the 12th, leaving there and flying to SF and meeting up with Haruka there then we'll both fly back on the 17th. From a money standpoint, probably not the smartest thing for me to do right now but ya know what.. there's no way to pay back debt if you're FREAKING INSANE. Sooo.. yeah.... West Coast? YES PLEASE.

Also during the hustle of today's breakdowns at work I was browsing through an old friend's website.. least I think she was a friend.. dunno.. but anyway, she did have something on there that I liked which was a section of unsent letters to people she's known in her lifetime and refferred to it as her doing some mental cleaning. Yeah.. maybe I'll have to write some letters of my own. Going through a mental mailing list right now.. and yeah I'd need ALOT of stamps if those letters were ever sent.

Within the last week or so.. another.. friend? ...hit me up on myspace which is amusing considering myspace isn't under my real name or anything associated with my past. But whatever, she hit me up and I was like.. hey, and we correspond here and there and I'm amazed by the places/countries she's lived in so far during her lifetime and I'm just like.. wow.. why haven't I done that and just packed up and left? It did bring back alot of memories talking to her so I'm not sure how I feel bout all of it yet. Whatever though. You figure that all of your past experiences you've had make you the person you are today so why regret anything?

This picture still makes me laugh.



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Fall to Pieces - Avril Lavigne

I looked away
Then I look back at you
You try to say
The things that you can't undo
If I had my way
I'd never get over you
Today's the day
I pray that we make it through

Make it through the fall
Make it through it all

[Chorus:]
And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it
Cuz I'm in Love With you

You're the only one,
I'd be with till the end
When I come undone
You bring me back again
Back under the stars
Back into your arms

[Chorus]

Wanna know who you are
Wanna know where to start
I wanna know what this means

Wanna know how you feel
Wanna know what is real
I wanna know everything, everything

[Chorus without last line]

[Chorus]

I'm in love with you
Cuz i'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you