Not much

Not much has changed really. Still in drift mode trying to figure out what I want to do come September when I get laid off. Still not sure if I even want to stay in state. Guh.. weak... A friend of mine also recently passed away. It was tough not to think about her on Mother's Day as well as she had a young daughter. So sad.. wow I don't even want to talk about that.

I heart this song. I've recently been on a Delerium kick lately as I find the music inspires me to actually be creative and do something in that regard. This video's a bit weak since it uses KH2 for it.. but some of the scenes capture what I'd like to do with a high end video camera and various people. Yes.

System Shock

I'm on holiday right now in Florida. Be back next Monday.



Maybe I'll get some writing done while I'm down here.. or at least some reading.

Roxas

So.. my sister has this song on her ring tone, and after calling so many times it has burned itself into my head...

Nelly Furtado - Say It Right

(Look it's not a Final Fantasy video hehe)

Job update

Daaaaaaamn you got knocked the 'F' out...

Yeah.. so last day at this job will be September 28th..

Not to sure what I'm going to do yet.. still want to go
overseas for a little bit... do some volunteer work etc.
Feel like I need to clean out my soul a bit and do something
good for the world. Heh.



Yes its an FF video.. what can you do. I find it amusing
this is now the theme song to my life until my last day
at this company.

- D -

Can't forget bout X and X-2

Sniff.. so sad...

Gimme the cassshhh

So.. I'm hoping I do get laid off and given a sev package.

The plan so far if this happens.

1. Habitat for Humanity in Thailand. (1 mth)

2. Travel around random destinations (Romania, Bali, Japan, Taiwan, London, Greece, France) Ok maybe I wouldn't hit those all in one month but you get the idea.. I want to travel a bit. (1 mth)

3. Come back decide if I want to stay in state or not. If not, decide where to go and deal with all the details involved.

4. Find new job that pays the same I'm getting now if not more. (wishful thinking?)

5. Get new job. Adapt. Laugh like the guy from the 7-up commercial back in the day.

- D -

I am however resigned to the idea that because I WANT to be laid off and given the package, I probably instead will be offered a position I don't want and not get the package. Cynical? Pessimistic? Na.. just as always hoping for the best, expecting the worst.

When I was a young boy...

My Chemical Romance - Welcome to the Black Parade.. Final Fantasy style.. nice.

Life's a journey not a destination

Cmon.. ninjas.. anime girls.. video games.. Aerosmith.

Cloud! Tifa!

Why am I just posting videos? I dunno.. it's amusing I guess and so I can just come here to watch it later instead of looking it up again.

Youtube is getting sued. Boo. Stupid people.

Anyway.. this song fits well with the way this video is edited hahaha.

Each and Every Word

Ah.. good times.

Look in the mirror

Mirrormask

The song from the movie was in my head cuz it sounds semi creepy yet cool.. yes.

- D -

Like walking on train tracks

Have Gun Will Travel reads the card of a man.
A knight without armor in a savage land.

His fast gun for hire heeds the calling wind.
A soldier of fortune is the man called Paladin.

Paladin, Paladin Where do you roam?
Paladin, Paladin, Far, far from home.

He travels on to wherever he must
A chess knight of silver is his badge of trust

There are campfire legends that the trailmen spin
Of the man with the gun
Of the man called Paladin

Paladin Paladin Where do you roam?
Paladin Paladin Far, far from home
Far from home. Far from home.

If I leave here tomorrow

I'll never understand why it seems that in our most confused sleep deprived states, we can have our deepest moments of clarity and soul searching. I think it may have to do with the fact that it's more of our subconscious thinking than our conscious mind allowing us to not be hindered by our inhibitions or fears. How's that for some deep thoughts?

I dunno why but I've been digging on Freebird lately. Maybe it's the words or maybe it was a past life as a hippy. I'm not sure though. If I had a choice back in the day between being a hippy or a slacker 'greaser' / biker type it'd be tough. I think those thoughts were generated by watching a Back to the Future marathon last weekend.

Sat and Sun (Yesterday and the day before) I spent random hours sleeping and my sleep schedule is pretty screwed right now. Had a disturbing nightmare though on Sunday morning / afternoon where I was being attacked by a cross of the wraith prison guard things from Harry Potter and the riders from Lord of the Rings. It was pretty disturbing. Black shadowy figures with bright white faces.. well not really faces but circles in the hood with bright light. Basically I would stand in a room then suddenly it would get really dark and I'd squint and not be able to see anything. Then the creature would appear and would get really bright and I'd feel this pressure on my chest. Haruka was in the dream to and I remember asking her if it was dark but she didn't see anything out of the ordinary. It was pretty stressful and I so didn't wake up rested. Meh.. for all I know the pressure on my chest was a cat sleeping on my chest... what.. its a big cat..

At least after work today I'll finally get the tire on my car fixed. Got alot of stuff I need to do. Clean the apartment. Get caught up on my credit cards.. well at least get the process of getting that 'set up' and cleaned up. That's gonna suck.

Freebird - Lynyrd Skynyrd

Sometimes the original is best

So much better than the US remake..



My Sassy Girl (Korean)

Shuffle Mode for the lose...

Azumi's defending my playlist...

(From my myspace)

So thanks to Ben for putting up a bulletin that I thought I'd repost because I was also bored.

After going through this however I find that I am greatly embarrassed by some of my music but whatever.. that's why they invented the 'next' button on an mp3 player right?

1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie and try to pretend your cool...just type it in man!

If your life were a movie this would be your soundtrack..

Opening Credits: Here With Me - Dido

Waking Up: Scars of Love - TKA

First Day At School: Yellow – Coldplay

Falling In Love: Deliver Me – Sarah Brightman

Losing Virginity: Comfortable – John Mayer

Fight Song: Opening Mandlebrot – Blue Man Group

Breaking Up: Help – Bananarma (remake) (Wow.. I don’t know what to say about that.)

Prom: Butterfly – Tori Amos

Life: Bumblebee - Aqua (Wtf on the category and the song)

Mental Breakdown: Forgotten – Linkin Park

Driving: Don’t Leave Home - Dido

Flashback: If You Really Wanna Party With Me – Busta Rhymes

Getting Back Together: The Fragile – NIN (HAHAHAHAHA)

Wedding: Cosmos – Tatu (Maybe if life were an anime?)

Birth of Child: Ride With Me – Nelly

Final Battle: Penny Lane – The Beatles

Death Scene: Come Into My Dreams - Foggy

Funeral Song: Sweet – Inner Circle (Wow.. everyone would have to be high at my funeral running around saying YAH MON!)

End Credits: Everything - Lifehouse

A Journey

Heheh.. classic..

Return of the Jedi.. kinda

So I'm back on my feet after the pneumonia owned me for two weeks.

Thanks to Haruka for putting together the Birthday festivities last weekend at Dick's Last Resort... yeah I'm lazy look it up if you want to know bout it.

Been thrown back into work while it lasts. May be on permanent vacation from this company soon which could be both good and bad. I know one thing's for sure, if and when I get laid off I need to take some time to walk the Earth.. "What you mean walk the Earth? You know.. like Kane from Kung-Fu". Yes.

Sad news.. singingfish.com is no more. Seems like the bastards at AOL decided they didn't want people downloading free videos and mp3s anymore. The nerve of some people... so now I'm checking out http://www.seekasong.com/. Not sure if it's good or not yet.

Write more later.. gotta work. But yeah.. I'm alive and all that.

Oh also.. I feel out of need, next year for my birthday I'm going native and hiding in the jungles of Thailand with the mountain people... hot.

- D -

Well damn

Went to the ER over the weekend and they gave me antibiotics because apparently my dumbass has penumonia again... awesome. Doesn't seem to be working though so I think tomorrow (when I wake up today on wed) my sis is gonna take me back to the hospital for a wtf type of visit.

Well.. for what it's worth..

And no Joan, I did not break the dog. =)

wha?

Yeah no posts past couple of days. I've had the sickness and have felt like death. Still recovering but feel I should actually go to work more than one day this week. Meh.. it's gonna suck tomorrow (friday).

Also looks like I now work for The Blackstone Group.. at least until they lay people off. Lets hope it doesn't effect the corporate office in Chicago because hell if I'll be able to find another company dumb enough to pay me what I'm getting now eh? Then again.. I guess it's not that dumb considering they work me like an imported railroad worker...

Roll with the changes (a chat log)

Haha...

[11:27] gilae: ogilvie for christs sake
[11:27] lakota: oh
[11:27] lakota: well you said northwest
[11:27] lakota: that confooosed me
[11:27] gilae: that's what it used to be called
[11:27] gilae: and a lot of people still call it that
[11:27] lakota: pfft
[11:27] gilae: omg are you from chicago or wtf
[11:27] lakota: lol
[11:27] lakota: i change with the times
[11:27] lakota: i dont hold on to old names!
[11:28] lakota: if they started calling it the ass tower instead of the sears tower
[11:28] lakota: you damn right ill be sayin lets go to the ass tower
[11:28] gilae: lol