Am I my brutha's keeper

I miss my older cousin from when I was younger.. he was like an older brother to me. Don't get me wrong, I'm lucky to have my older sister eventhough we've had our disagreements here and there, I think just growing up in a house where it was primarily just my mom and my sister, I lacked or missed the older male influence or something. So on the weekends or whatever I would spend at my father's place, I'd hang with my cousin who taught me how to race and introduced me to things that I would only come to appreciate more the closer I got to his age (He was in his early twenties when I was in my early teens). That probably heavily influences why the majority of my male friends were all older than me when I was in highschool and why I try to take on an older brother type of role with some of my closer younger friends. I know how it was to be at a certain age and just not have someone that I could rely on for certain things so I don't want them to go through that themselves.. but hey they're all older now to so it's all good I guess.

I've grown up around drama. I'm starting to understand why the asian channels on cable are comprised of four categories. 1. Martial Aarts. 2. Anime. 3. Cars. 4. Drama. Seriously..

I think I approach life wrong sometimes and have my priorities and responsibilities in the wrong order, but they're in a constant stat of flux so I can't be sure of that. I think its because my father came from money and my mom didn't. So I had a mixed upbringing consisting that can be summed up like... frozen fish sticks vs filet mignon. It leaves me with an understanding of the need to save money but having expensive tastes... it's kind of a wash then.

Best IM Chat today
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[10:28] B16: finally i can wear my t-shirt that says "tengo un coche grande" and be proud.
[10:30] Lakota214: damn at first i translated that to tengo un coochie grande
[10:30] B16: lol, no
[10:30] B16: i have a big car
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Long lyrics today. On a sidenote I think it's great how the game Dead or Alive 4 users two Aerosmith songs in it. I mean cmon.. Aermosmith + hot ninja girls and explosions? = WINNER!

To Nong Mee, hope everything went well with your mum's surgery.

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Aerosmith - Dream On

Every time I look in the mirror
All these lines on my face getting clearer
The past is gone
It went by, like dusk to dawn
Isn't that the way
Everybody's got their dues in life to pay

Yeah, I know nobody knows
where it comes and where it goes
I know it's everybody's sin
You got to lose to know how to win

Half my life
is in books' written pages
Lived and learned from fools and
from sages
You know it's true
All the things come back to you

Sing with me, sing for the year
Sing for the laughter, sing for the tears
Sing with me, if it's just for today
Maybe tomorrow, the good lord will take you away

Yeah, sing with me, sing for the year
sing for the laughter, sing for the tear
sing with me, if it's just for today
Maybe tomorrow, the good Lord will take you away

Dream On Dream On Dream On
Dream until a dream come true
Dream On Dream On Dream On
Dream until your dream comes through
Dream On Dream On Dream On
Dream On Dream On
Dream On Dream On

Sing with me, sing for the year
sing for the laughter, sing for the tear
sing with me, if it's just for today
Maybe tomorrow, the good Lord will take you away
Sing with me, sing for the year
sing for the laughter, sing for the tear
Sing with me, if it's just for today
Maybe tomorrow, the good Lord will take you away.....