Blood Makes Noise

I live in cathouse!

Well ok not what you would think is a cathouse, but I have two kitties on the prowl now hehe. Let's see if Joan can sell her place before the cats decide my TV or my computer look tasty.

Along with the cats came a bag of stuff from my old car. Most of it was junk and got tossed but I did manage to save two cassette tapes. For those of you that are to young to know what a cassette tape is.. see this site. Awesome. Where's my ipod hmm.

So recently in Chicago, they passed the law that while driving you must use a headset for your cellphone. If not, you get pulled over and ticketed. Each offense raises the amount you are charged. That's fine and well, I went to Best Buy and picked one up for $20 and it's normal looking. Last night however.. Haruka and I were driving back from Chili'sbecause I had a taste for ribs.. and we see this guy driving next to us. I'll give this guy props for adhering to the law but DAMN. With his headset, dude looked like he was landing planes or working in a Burger King drive thru. Tokyo? Come in Tokyo.. can you hear me now? It was ginormous!

All for now. Work and all.

~dhavid

Knowledge is Power

My job title is Knowledge Management Specialist. Above my desk, I have a cartoon printed up with an older guy wearing a suit kneeling down next to a kid that he is trying to give guidance to. When I randomly look at that throughout the day at work, it makes me laugh and hate my job a little less.

I have the song "Eyes On Me" (Soul of Bass Version) on repeat on my headphones right now. I posted the lyrics a bit ago. Something about this song makes me a little less dead inside. I think its because it makes me think of the Final Fantasy videogames which has been a part of my life since I was able to pick up a controller. And though people in my life that I hang out with or whatever have changed, in the end, those games were always there and the good guys in those games were always still good even if you were having a bad day. On some strange level.. that's comforting.

Hehehe bought a new LCD Monitor for home. It's purrrty. It's a bit expensive.. but hey.. it makes me happy, not to mention shooting people in first person shooters will be even easier! muhaha!

So next month I'm going to road trip with Donovan since he's going away for school. The drive should be about 28+ hours. Damn. That's going to be a long drive. I've told people I want to bring some sort of weapon along. Driving through some of the southern states in a red Honda Civic makes me a bit nervous. I swear if I hear, "We don't like your kind round here!" There will be conseequences and repercussions! Hehe. Thug.

I'm jealous I'm not going to the Full Moon Party. Have fun at that Nong Soi you deserve a vacation.. even if I don't get to go with :( <- That's me, being sad.

Let's see what else. I've resurrected my PDA at work because there's so much stuff being piled on me that I can't keep track of it otherwise. They're going to give me a Blackberry soon which I'm not sure is a good thing or not. Sure I already have the Nextel that they call me on at random during non-business hours bit now they'll be able to email me to? hmm.

On a lighter note, I'll be getting the kitties from Joan soon. Since she and Kenyon will be moving R & T need a place to crash. That's pretty cool, it's been awhile since R and I have been able to lounge around on the couch and play videogames or watch sci fi.. though he prefers to help me play first person shooters on the computer so he can 'point out' all the bad guys by selectively swatting at the monitor when I'm playing hehe.

Ah crap I started this post 4 hours ago and I haven't been able to finish it so I'll do it later.

~dhavid

Surf's Up

No time to post today work sucks. Long post of lyrics instead.
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Jack Johnson - Flake

I know she said it's alright
But you can make it up next time
I know she knows it's not right
There ain't no use in lying
Maybe she thinks I know something
Maybe maybe she thinks its fine
Maybe she knows something I don't
I'm so, I'm so tired, I'm so tired of trying

It seems to me that maybe
It pretty much always means no
So don't tell me you might just let it go
And often times we're lazy
It seems to stand in my way
Cause no one no not no one
Likes to be let down

I know she loves the sunrise
No longer sees it with her sleeping eyes
And I know that when she said she's gonna try
Well it might not work because of other ties and
I know she usually has some other ties
And I wouldn't want to break 'em, nah, I wouldn't want to break 'em
Maybe she'll help me to untie this but
Until then well, I'm gonna have to lie to you.

It seems to me that maybe
It pretty much always means no
So don't tell me you might just let it go
And often times we're lazy
It seems to stand in my way
Cause no one no not no one
Likes to be let down
It seems to me that maybe
It pretty much always means no
So don't tell me you might just let it go

The harder that you try baby, the further you'll fall
Even with all the money in the whole wide world
Please please please don't pass me
Please please please don't pass me
Please please please don't pass me by

Everything you know about me now baby you gonna have to change
You gonna have to call it by a brand new name
Please please please don't drag me
Please please please don't drag me
Please please please don't drag me down

Just like a tree down by the water baby I shall not move
Even after all the silly things you do
Please please please don't drag me
Please please please don't drag me
Please please please don't drag me down

Of all the things I miss

I miss my soul the most.

This whole corporate grind thing it's well.. what happens to peper after you grind it? And after it's already.. ground, what happens when you try to grind it more? Exactly my point.

So I'm trying to stay afloat of these things I need to fix, maintain, create and manage, then Princes of the Universe by Queen comes on and this of course has my mind wander off in another direction for a couple minutes and I was thinking.. what do I miss from days gone by. Here's a list of some things.

1. Random road trips (that don't suck)
2. Having a 'core' group of people I hung out with on a daily basis
3. TV shows like Highlander
4. Playing Q-Zar and being good at it (before it was about covering sensors)
5. Going to the arcade with Donovan and owning people at any fighting game out there. (Cept Tekken cuz that one sucks)
6. Saturday Morning Cartoons. (Though I watch anime whenever.. but still!)
7. Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles.... cereal
8. Having a reason to talk to people on the phone for hours and being okay with that. (Nowadays a typical conversation is like "What up?" "Nothing much" . . . "Aight later" "Later then"
9. Not having to be responsible and pay bills
10. Riding my bike (Tricked out BMX or 10speed)
11. Stealing my mom or my cousins car and driving w/out a license.
12. Hanging out with /being a gangbanger (More I miss some of the people but let's face it, gangs are stupid)
13. Playing Total Annihilation for days taking a break here and there so my friends and I didn't die from hunger or lack of sleep.
14. The Prelude
15. Getting my ass kicked in the mosh pits at NIN concerts
16. Ditching High School - Can't really get away with ditching much else after that
17. A pager. (I've had once since like.. for ever ago before cell phones were big, it was nice to make the choice of.. do I feel like calling this person back? Now they leave you messages on your cell blah blah blah.. shaddup)
18. Having a mohawk (not to the punky spike in the middle of your head style but still)
19. Wearing a black leather biker jacket haha
20. Not thinking of things that I miss

Awesome.

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D12 w/Eminem - How Come

So I changed huh? You got a phone, pick it up, call me

Chorus:
How come we dont even talk no more
And you dont even call no more
We dont barely keep in touch at all
And I dont even feel the same love when we hug no more
And I heard it through the grape vine we even beefin now
After all the years we been down
Aint no way no how, this bullshit can be true
We family and aint a damn thing changed, unless it's you

So young, so full of life in vibrant side by side wherever you
weres ridin i went
So close, almost on some bonnie and clyde shit
When ronnie died you wass right by my side with a sholder to cry on
Tissue to wipe my eyes, and a bucket to catch every tear i cried inside it
You even had the same type of childhood i did
Sometimes i just want to know why is it that you sucame to yours
And mine i survived it, you ran the streets, i 9 to 5'd it
We grew up, grew apart, as time went by us, then i blew up
To both yours and mine surprises
Now i feel the vibe i just cant describe it
As much as your pride tries to hide it
Your cold, you touch its like ice
In your eyes is the look of resenment
I can sense it, and i dont like it

[Chorus]

It was my dream at first to be on spittin a verse
On my own album with a deal but shit got burst
So i came out i woulda killed a nigga first
Before i let him disrespect me and check me over some worste
Some bitch that i wasnt with i would hit her then quit
But you would pull a talk with her and tell her she was the shit
I told you dont get involved in it, you was smokin the chron with her
Comin out of the bar with her stumblin half drunk
Like yall was husband and wife or somethin
But me catchin you f**kin other niggas musta hurt you pride or somethin
Cuz you wont f**k at the mouth with people like you wanted with me
When all i tried to do was show your bitch was shifty
And ever since the fans and all the shit that i produced
You actin like i aint you man and lyin like she can't be loose
But i am really you friend, i'm jus trying to tell you the truth
But dont hate the game or the player
Cuz the one that is changing is you

[Chorus]

You're only at the top cuz my homie had to stop
Now we actin like i gotta live only for the block
Homies in the hood only she be on the tube
Only gossip on the porch get to speakin on who
Fools i used to rap with all expect magic
Like my finger get to snappin and *poof* it jus happen
But PROOF is jus actin out the party was stoned
Shady made it so my babys aint starvin at home
See the devil in you grin since the ghetto we been friends
Whenever real intelligence thats forever till the end
I be the hatred in your eyes and the satan in your lives
And wastin my times with these snakes in disguise
(how come) when you talk its with bitter is fight
And (how come) it's my fault for what you did with your life
And everytime i go to hear you and play you look away
We barely embrace, you can't even look me in my face.

Head Like a Hole

Work work work. And I didn't win the damn lottery from last Friday. I don't follow the rules of winning;

1. Can't speak English
2. Already wealthy
3. Older than dirt

So lets see. Last Thur / Fri I wasn't able to post at all because work is whoring me like a blonde hooker in Asia... (thinks about people who read this...) Strike that last comment.

This past weekend I was in St. Louis with Haruka, my mum, my sis and her boyfriend. Let me just say if you go there.. you must be like the chick from UHF who picked 'the box' over the red snapper.

I'll say ok it was cool to see technology from the 60s.. but I'm more a new technology kind of guy. I'd rather have a lightsaber or a laser gun compared to a rocketship held up by strings.

While there we stopped at a casino. All I can say is.. damn I can burn through money quick on video poker. I wasn't feelin playing with all the pros at the tables. Damn people that gamble all the time and get pissy if you don't do something 'right'. Whatever with that, you're there to have fun, its not your damn job, least not mine.

Also on the ride home, we had a tire blow out.. luckily it was the back tire or else I wouldn't be sitting her failing to post anything interesting right now.

Ok. I gotta get back to work, I'll post when I have time to breathe and such.

~dhavid

Riddle me this

I'm so not motivated to work. So instead I'll read the blogs of people I like. Stumbling across Donovan's blog he posted some Q&A.. guess I'll answer this instead of working.. good job.
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1. ONE WISH? World Peace.
2. ARE YOU A LOVER OR A FIGHTER? Yes. It's good to be both.
3. WHAT’S YOUR WORST FEAR? Wasting my life by not doing something of worth and not being remembered when I'm gone.
4. AS A KID, WERE YOU A LEGO MANIAC? I was all about the spaceship sci-fi legos.
5. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF “REALITY” TV? It's ok. I'll take sci-fi over it any day.
6. DO YOU CHEW ON YOUR STRAWS? Sometimes yeah.
7. WERE YOU A CUTE BABY? Hell if I remember.
8. IS THE SINGLE LIFE FOR YOU? Only when I want to play videogames till the sun comes up hehehe
9. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR KEYBOARD? White.. black on the laptop.
10. DO YOU SING IN THE SHOWER? No.
11. HAVE YOU EVER BUNGEE JUMPED? No.
12. ANY SECRET TALENTS? If yes, they're still secret to me.
13. WHAT’S YOUR IDEAL VACATION SPOT? Japan. Thailand. Australia. London.
14. IS JAY LENO FUNNY? Looks aren't everything.
15. CAN YOU SWIM? Like Nemo.
16. HAVE YOU SEEN THE MOVIE “DONNIE DARKO”? Director's Cut baby.
17. DO YOU GIVE A DAMN ABOUT THE OZONE? Why would I care about the layer of atmosphere that allows for human life on the surface of the planet...(that means yes for you slower folks).
18. HOW MANY LICKS DOES IT TAKE TO GET TO THE CENTER OF A TOOSTIE POP? Don't know, I like instant gratification myself.
19. CAN YOU SING THE ALPHABET BACKWARDS? Sing? Hell I can barely SAY the alphabet backwards.

(Crap at this point I start to figure out how long this list of questions is and feel I REALLY should get back to work.. but the show must go on!)

20. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON AN AIRPLANE? Yup.
21. ARE YOU AN ONLY CHILD? Nope
22. DO YOU PREFER ELECTRIC OR MANUAL PENCIL SHARPENERS? Electric
23. WHAT’S YOUR STAND ON HUNTING? I think its bullshit to hunt for sport. If you're going to eat it, ok. But don't shoot living things for no reason.
24. IS MARRIAGE IN YOUR FUTURE? Someday.
25. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? Hahahahha. No. There's a reason I can type very fast.
26. WHAT ARE YOU ALLERGIC TO? Uh.. Horses (boo), Cats (till I get used to them).
27. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAID I LOVE YOU”? This morning
28. IS ELVIS STILL ALIVE? If he is, he's a dumbass.
29. DO YOU CRY AT WEDDINGS? No.
30. HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR EGGS? Cooked.
31. ARE BLONDES DUMB? Stupid knows no hair color.
32. WHERE DOES THE OTHER SOCK END UP? On the other foot if you can find it.
33. WHAT TIME IS IT? 9:52 a.m.
34. DO YOU HAVE A NICKNAME? None that I approve of.
35. IS MCDONALD’S DISGUSTING? From a nutritional standpoint fuck yeah, now pass me some nuggets and an order of fries.
36. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU WERE IN A CAR? Couple of hours ago.
37. DO YOU PREFER BATHS OR SHOWERS? Wait, Solo? Showers I spose.
38. IS SANTA CLAUS REAL? As real as weapons of mass destruction and the easter bunny.
39. KIRK OR PICARD? Dude.. who else can scream KAAAAAAAHHNNN!!!! Kirk is a legend. Picard is just a high level pimp.
40. ARE YOU AFRAID OF THE DARK? Normally no.
41. WHAT ARE YOU ADDICTED TO? Breathing. Seems like whenever I try to stop, I can't.
42. CRUNCHY OR CREAMY PEANUT BUTTER? Creamy? Don't really care.
43. CAN YOU CRACK YOUR NECK? Yes. (Look Mom! No Hands!)
44. HAVE YOU EVER RIDDEN IN AN AMBULANCE? Been in them more than once not sure if I actually took a ride on one though.
45. HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU BRUSHED YOUR TEETH TODAY? Once so far.
46. IS DRUG FREE THE WAY TO BE? Meh.. prochoice on that. Am I curious of some? Sure. Would I care if I never had any the rest of my life? Not really.
47. ARE YOU A HEAVY SLEEPER? Yeah, if you try waking me up and aren't careful you might get knocked the FUCK out.
48. WHAT COLOR ARE YOUR EYES? Brown.
50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR LIFE? It has it's moments. It might not be alot, but it's my lot.
51. LIQUOR OR BEER? Liquor. Gimme a shaker and some juice, I'll mix you something.
52. ARE YOU PSYCHIC? I KNEW you were going to ask that...

(Bloody hell how long is this thing?!)

53. HAVE YOU READ “CATCHER THE RYE”? No.
55. HAVE U EVER STOLEN MONEY? Yes.
56. CAN YOU SNOWBOARD? Not so much.
57. DO YOU LIKE CAMPING? Sure.
58. DO U SNORT WHEN U LAUGH? No.
59. DO YOU BELIEVE IN MAGIC? No, but I would like to.
60. ARE DOGS A MAN’S BEST FRIEND? Not always.
61. DO YOU BELIEVE IN DIVORCE? Better to be divorced than end up in a fiery car crash rolling down the side of a hill becaue your husband or wife wanted to end the relationship.
62. CAN YOU DO THE MOONWALK? Yes.
63.DO YOU MAKE A LOT OF MISTAKES? No. I mean yes. Damn it!
64. IS IT COLD OUTSIDE TODAY? Sadly no.
65. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE? Strawberries and cream.
66.DO YOU WEAR NAIL POLISH? Not normally.
67. SWEATSHIRT OR JACKET? Jacket (I miss you jacket!)
68. WHAT’S THE MOST ANNOYING COMMERCIAL? Those viagra like ones with the guy that smiles to much. It's creepy as shit.
69. DO YOU SHOP AT AMERICAN EAGLE? Nope.
70. DO YOU SNORE? If a tree falls in the forrest...
71. FAVORITE SONG AT THE MOMENT? Something techno / trance / euro like.

One foot in front of the other

Good Morning.

So I get to my cubicle this morning and I ask one of my coworkers.. is it REALLY bright in here or? He kind of tilted his head and looked at me like I was asking him for some spare change so I could afford my next purchase of crack... awesome.

First.. Happy Birthday to Joan! Hopefully she was able to celebrate with more than spackle and paint.

This was kind of a quiet weekend for the most part. Think Haruka and I managed to watch alot of TV and even did some laundry. But honestly after a full work week of running and jumping through hoops, I appreciate just sitting still and waiting for the blur of myself to catch up with me so I can be centered again. Tallulah should know what I mean by that.

Yesterday we went to the downtown area of one of the nieghborhoods north of me. I can say it was cool for multiple reasons but mainly because standing there looking around if you just let go, it seemed like you were in another city somewhere else in the World. I guess it's a romantic notion to just pick up and go or the adventurous feeling of having to adapt to an unknown place and situations. Meh.. it's hard to explain, but I like it.

Then we saw War of the Worlds. Let me say.. it sucked so much ass I was angry for hours after watching it. Just because Tom Cruise and Steven Spielberg are involved with a film, by no means guarantees it to be good. Now I watched the original when I was a kid and watched the spinoff television series of it as well. The special effects? Sure awesome. The story? I could have wiped my ass with the script and it would have been better than what they had. Slackers. Oh and it was also awesome how the projector stopped at a really tense part of the film and then 10 minutes later some theatre employee coming in and telling us it would be fixed in 10 or 15 minutes.. awesome.

Then I get home and watched The Day After Tomorrow, just because I never watched it when it came out. Apparently yesterday was apocalypse movie day for me. It does make me think.. if any huge end of the world like thing happened as bad as it would be, I'd kind of have fun trying to survive and move on. Don't ask, I can't explain. It probably goes with the notion of adapting and adventuring.

Anyway I'm going to go back to work.. lots of stuff to do.

Awesome.

- D -

Every day and every night

Exotic Voices - I'll Fly With You (euro version)

I still believe in your eyes
I just don't care what
You have done in your life
Baby I'll always be here by your side
Don't leave me waiting too long
Please come by
I, I, I, I still believe in your eyes;
There is no choice,
I belong to your life
Because I will live
To love you someday;
You'll be my baby
And we'll fly away
And I'll fly with you,
I'll fly with you,
I'll fly with you
You are, are, are, are, are, are
You are, are, are, are, are, are
You are, are, are, are, are, are

Every day and every night,
I always dream that
You are by my side
Oh, baby, every day
And every night,
Well I said everything's
Gonna be alright
And I'll fly with you,
I'll fly with you,
I'll fly with you

You are, are, are, are, are, are
You are, are, are, are, are, are

Dream of me
I still believe in your eyes
I just don't care what
You've done in your life
Baby I'll always
Be here by your side;
Don't leave me
Waiting too long,
Please come by
I, I, I, I still believe in your eyes;
There is no choice,
I belong to your life
Because I will live
To love you some day;
You'll be my baby
And we'll fly away
And I'll fly with you,
I'll fly with you,
I'll fly with you

Every day and every night,
I always dream that
You are by my side
Oh, baby, every day
And every night,
Well I said everything's
Gonna be alright
And I'll fly with you,
I'll fly with you,
I'll fly with you

You are, are, are, are, are, are
You are, are, are, are, are, are

Crimson and Clover

No time to post. Work keeping me busy. Still alive. Still moving forward.
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Jimmy Eat World - Praise Chorus

Are you gonna live your life wonderin' standing in the back lookin' around?
Are you gonna waste your time thinkin' how you've grown up or how you missed out?
Things are never gonna be the way you want.
Where's it gonna get you acting serious?
Things are never gonna be quite what you want.
Or even at 25, you gotta start sometime.
I'm on my feet, I'm on the floor, I'm good to go.
Now all I need is just to hear a song I know.
I wanna always feel like part of this was mine.
I wanna fall in love tonight.
Are you gonna live your life standing in the back looking around?
Are you gonna waste your time?
Gotta make a move or you'll miss out.
Someone's gonna ask you what it's all about.
Stick around nostalgia won't let you down.
Someone's gonna ask you what it's all about.
Whatcha gonna have to say for yourself?
I'm on my feet, I'm on the floor, I'm good to go.
Now all I need is just to hear a song I know.
I wanna always feel like part of this was mine.
I wanna fall in love tonight.
Crimson and clover, over and over.
Crimson and clover, over and over.
Our house in the middle of the street, why did we ever meet?
Started my rock 'n roll fantasy.
Don't don't, don't let's start, why did we ever part?
Kick start my rock 'n rollen heart.
I'm on my feet, I'm on the floor, I'm good to go.
So come on Davey, sing me somethin' that I know.
I wanna always feel like part of this was mine.
I wanna fall in love tonight.
Here tonight.
I wanna always feel like part of this was mine
I wanna fall in love tonight.

Crack your bones

To sum up my Chiropractor experience yesterday I offer this excerpt from the transcript of Eddie Izzard's Dressed to Kill show.

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So I had to go see a chiropractor, in New York. And um, they’re different to osteopaths, chiropractors, because of the spelling. And, uh… Of course, they’re both very powerful figures on the Scrabble board, though… “Chiropractor…chiropractor…chiropractor…93 letters, chiropractor.”

And – and they, uh, they crack your bones – that’s what they do – they crack your bones! And they take x-rays – what – at this point – this – because – this – whatever is wrong with you – “You’ve got a bad back, I’m gonna crack your bones. You’ve got diphtheria – I’m gonna crack your bones. Your head’s come off! I’m gonna crack your bones. It looks like your mother! I’m going to crack your – “ you know…

And then when they crack your bones it goes uuuughhhh and then ahhhhhhh but not sort of ahhhhhhhhh but sort – ahhhhhhhhh! All the way up your spine, “Crack your bones, crack your bones, crack your bones.” And they sort of arrange you into a – a nice, comfortable – ahhhhcharrghh!…ahhhhpoughhh! And sometimes it doesn’t crack! Sometimes it just goes, “____”. Then they pull a mallet from their belt and they – “Try to make the noise! Make the noise! I live for the noise…” And they do your head as well, around here, and they get it into a nice posit – and you’re thinking, “Wh – wh – where – wh – where – the – wh – the – uh, no I don’t think it’s supposed to go around that – !…”

In the end you just trust them, you trust them. They could have your fingers – their fingers in your nostrils, one foot on the back of your underpants, and they’re pushing your spine away with a broom. “Well, what’s this one about?” “I have no idea.”
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Overall it was kind of neat. I was hooked up to a machine that pretty much was shooting electricity into my back. Unfortunately it did not give me the ability to shoot lightning from my fingertips.. I'll have to ask him to turn it higher next time. I was also on this rolling machine that I feel is a modern day torture device. Sure it's supposed to "massage" your spine but if you're going to the Chiropractor obviously you're back / spine probably hurt.. mmm logic.

I'm getting old. *sigh*

- D -

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Nirvana - The Man Who Sold The World
We passed upon the stairs,
We spoke of was and when
Although I wasn?t there
He said I was his friend
Which came as a surprise
I spoke into his eyes -- I thought you died alone
A long long time ago

Oh no, not me,
We never lost control,
You're face to face,
With the man who sold the world

I laughed and shook his hand,
I made my way back home,
I searched for form and land,
Years and years I roamed,
I gazed a gazely stare,
We walked a million hills -- I must have died alone,
A long long time ago.

Who knows, not me,
I never lost control,
You?re face, to face,
With the man who sold the world.

No need for a title

Have a mid year review today at work. Hoping it will go well and I'll get a raise and or promotion. Either would be good, both would be better. If it doesn't work the way I want, I'll have to wait until March. Boo.

Over the weekend I managed to spend a couple thousand dollars again.. as I do. This time though it wasn't for drugs, sex, or new cars. Not that I usually buy that stuff.. but for reals, I bought a couch! A real grown up piece of furniture. I'm a bit beside myself I'm not sure how to handle that yet. I don't think I've ever been on a payment plan.. for furniture. I managed to get one 3-person couch, one chair, one cocktail table and two end tables. Neat, huh?

Woot!

Now to pay off all this stuff. Anyone hiring for part time drug dealer and or assassin? Maybe an internship? How bout a pimp from home? I hear you can work just about any job from home nowadays as long as you have an internet connection. Hell if anything I should launch my website that would bring me much $. www.rentapuppy.com , where I could offer hourly puppy rentals for guys who want to walk through the park or along the beach to pick up women. I'd be RICH I tell you!

Oh and after work today I get to go to the chiropractor who's going to break my bones, I mean.. fix me. Awesome.

Holla Back.

- D -

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Depeche Mode - Blasphemous Rumors (Excerpt)

I don't want to start any blasphemous rumors
But I think that God's got a sick sense of humor
And when I die, I expect to find him laughing

Winding Down.

I'm tired. Waking up early tomorrow to go take a look at some furniture. I need a freaking couch. The blue velvet beanbag has definitely lost its charm. Going to Tallulah's show tonight but that's not till around 11pm sooooo not to sure what to do before then.

Gah.. 45 minutes left to work. I should do something productive since I'm not in more training classes or in meetings that put me to sleep right now.

Later,

- D -

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Michelle Branch - All You Wanted (Excerpt)

If you want to
I can save you
I can take you away
From here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted
Was somebody who cares

I'm sinking slowly
So hurry hold me
Your hand is all I have
To keep me hanging on
Please can you tell me
So I can finally see
Where you go
When you're gone

Mamma Mia Let Me Go

So I'm sitting at work with my earphones on, with the music effectively turned on this time I might add, and Bohemian Rhapsody by Queen comes on. I can't quite explain it but hearing this song and listening to it just makes me laugh. It's just.. hilarious hehehhe.

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Queen - Bohemian Rhapsody

Is this the real life-
Is this just fantasy-
Caught in a landslide-
No escape from reality-
Open your eyes
Look up to the skies and see-
I'm just a poor boy I need no sympathy-
Because I'm easy come,easy go,
A little high,little low,
Anyway the wind blows,doesn't really matter to me,
To me

Mama,just killed a man,
Put a gun against his head,
Pulled my trigger,now he's dead,
Mama,life had just begun,
But now I've gone and thrown it all away-
Mama ooo,
Didn't mean to make you cry-
If I'm not back again this time tomorrow-
Carry on,carry on,as if nothing really matters-

Too late,my time has come,
Sends shivers down my spine-
Body's aching all the time,
Goodbye everybody-I've got to go-
Gotta leave you all behind and face the truth-
Mama ooo- (any way the wind blows)
I don't want to die,
I sometimes wish I'd never been born at all-

I see a little silhouetto of a man,
Scaramouche,scaramouche will you do the fandango-
Thunderbolt and lightning-very very frightening me-
Galileo,galileo,
Galileo galileo
Galileo figaro-magnifico-
But IÂ’m just a poor boy and nobody loves me-
HeÂ’s just a poor boy from a poor family-
Spare him his life from this monstrosity-
Easy come easy go-,will you let me go-
Bismillah! no-,we will not let you go-let him go-
Bismillah! we will not let you go-let him go
Bismillah! we will not let you go-let me go
Will not let you go-let me go
Will not let you go let me go
No,no,no,no,no,no,no-
Mama mia,mama mia,mama mia let me go-
Beelzebub has a devil put aside for me,for me,for me-

So you think you can stone me and spit in my eye-
So you think you can love me and leave me to die-
Oh baby-can't do this to me baby-
Just gotta get out-just gotta get right outta here-

Nothing really matters,
Anyone can see,
Nothing really matters-,nothing really matters to me,

Any way the wind blows....
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On a serious note. My thoughts are with the people and their families in London who were affected by the recent Terrorist attack. I can confidently say that terrorists suck ass and if ever put into a situation where someone gave me the choice to pull the trigger on a terrorist that has comitted such acts or is planning to, I would have no hesitation whatsoever(course having concrete proof would be required so the order couldn't come from someone like Bush who's intelligence is as reliable as a Solar Powered car during the six-month winter night in Antarctica). Sure being raised Catholic and all that I was told Thou Shalt Not Kill, at the same time I firmly believe Thou Shalt Not Let Punk Ass Bitch Terrorists walk around freely to harm innocent people and do nothing about it. (That would have taken a bigger tablecommandments commandements to fit I feel). But seriously, when it comes down to it some things just have to be done.

It's a sad truth but stupid people *have* to exist in this world if anything as a reminder to others on what not to become and what choices in life not to make.

- D -

Big Ball of Fire !

Wow. Long post.. INCOMING!

So let's see. I haven't been at work since last Friday since we had July 4th and all that and yesterday I had to take off to take care of some stuff with the new apartment.

First I have to start with things so far this morning.. As I was driving into work either it was due to not enough sleep or just being so used to cloudy days, but something caught the corner of my eye and it was a bright light. For a moment, I started to freak out and was like.. what the hell is that big ball of light to my left?!?!... Yeah. Ok. So it was the sun, and it was in fact, not, coming right at me. Doh.

Then I'm sitting here at my desk with my headphones in my ear. I'd say almost an hour later I notice.. hey... there's no music playing. Groan.

Ok. Back to reality. I'm trying to get caught up on email both work and personal. Internet and cable were hooked up yesterday at home. Yay ! ^_^

Recently a friend of mine overseas just had some surgery. Nong Soi, glad you're ok and uhh have all the parts that should be inside you, well.. inside! When you coming back to the States already?

Tallulah is in a new show that opens this Friday dun dun dunnnnnnn. Hit me up for details if you need em.

Also, another friend of mine is going through some Cancer stuff right now. Let me know if I can do anything to help Nauds.

Ok back on to the drama at the new apartment. So alot of stuff was broken when Haruka and I moved in. Screens needed to be replaced uhhh dishwasher didn't work etc. Anyway, this uber maintenance guy came yesterday and fixed alot of stuff. That's a good thing. I had to go to the management office to get the remote to my parking lot that opens the gate... Yes.. I had to get out of my parking lot to which I did not have a remote to open the gate to. Awesome. So I do have to say among the home improvements that were made, I give props to the person who invented the almighty circuit breaker. There were a couple of light switches that were upside down. Sure maybe I'm a little anal or something but that just urks me. Soooooo I decided to flip them. Now sure I know I *should* have turned off all the electricity FIRST, but I wanted to keep the A/C on. Yeah. My bad on that. As I was flipping the kitchen light switch.. SPARK! Loud POP! Me, jumping back and making sure all my body parts were still intact. Lights in the kitchen.. go off. Hehehhehe. Then the cable guy that was there installing my stuff was like.. hey can I get a signature while you're still alive? .. DOH! Needless to say, the circuits were shut off and I finished my work successfully without BBQing myself. I RAWK!

Ok I should get back to work before someone figures out I haven't done a single productive work-related thing in the hour I've been here so far.

Ciao

- D -

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FF VIII - Eyes on Me

Whenever sang my songs
On the stage, on my own
Whenever said my words
Wishing they would be heard
I saw you smiling at me
Was it real or just my fantasy?
You'd always be there in the corner
Of this tiny little bar

My last night here for you
Same old songs, just once more
My last night here with you?
Maybe yes, maybe no
I kind of liked it your way
How you shyly placed your eyes on me
Did you ever know
That I had mine on you?

Darling, so there you are
With that look on your face
As if you're never hurt
As if you're never down
Shall I be the one for you
Who pinches you softly but sure
If frown is shown then
I will know that you are no dreamer

So let me come to you
Close as I want to be
Close enough for me
To feel your heart beating fast
And stay there as I whisper
How I love your peaceful eyes on me
Did you ever know
That I had mine on you?

Darling, so share with me
Your love if you have enough
Your tears if you're holding back
Or pain if that's what it is
How can I let you know
I'm more than the dress and the voice
Just reach me out then
You will know that you're not dreaming

Darling, so there you are
With that look on your face
As if you're never hurt
As if you're never down
Shall I be the one for you
Who pinches you softly but sure
If frown is shown then I will know
that you are no dreamer

Lost in the Fog

Ok today we are going to talk about sleep deprivation

All information taken from http://www.postgradmed.com

What is sleep deprivation?
Many Americans don't get enough sleep to remain healthy and feel alert during the day. Recent studies have shown that Americans sleep an average of 7 hours each night rather than the 8 hours recommended by sleep experts.

People who work long hours, those who have a hectic family schedule or a new baby, teens who stay up late and have to get up early for school, and even people whose pets sleep with them may get less sleep than their body needs to be at its best. Over time, this lack of sleep, also called sleep deprivation, can have serious effects on health and relationships. It may even be deadly

What are the effects of sleep deprivation?
It isn't clear why we need sleep, but we do know that sleep is as important as food and water. Some experts think sleep helps the brain recharge its energy and store memories for the long term. Sleep also seems to help the body fight off infection.

People who don't get enough sleep may lack energy, be depressed or irritable, have trouble remembering everyday things, and get sick more often than people who get enough sleep. They seem to age faster and they may have problems concentrating at work or school. Some scientists believe a lack of sleep may have a role in diabetes, high blood pressure, heart problems, and even obesity.

Poor sleep also leads to accidents. More than 200,000 auto accidents happen each year because drivers fall asleep at the wheel. The 1989 Exxon Valdez oil spill was at least partially caused by the actions of a tired tanker operator.

On the other hand, too much sleep can be as harmful as too little. Recent studies have shown that adults who get 7 to 8 hours of sleep a night live longer and are less likely to get heart disease than those who sleep less or more.

Sleep habits for a good night's rest
Stay away from caffeine, nicotine, and alcohol, particularly later in the day.

Have a light snack (but avoid eating a large meal) shortly before bedtime.

Go to bed and get up at the same times each day, even on weekends.

Get regular exercise early in the day.

Keep your bedroom cool, dark, and quiet. A fan or soft music can help disguise
distracting bedtime noise.

Use your bed for only sleep and sex.

Before bedtime, do muscle-relaxing exercises or take a warm bath.

Don't take sleeping pills unless your doctor prescribes them.

Avoid daytime naps unless they last less than 1 hour and are taken before 3 PM.

Try counting sheep or counting backward, which can lull some people to sleep.

If you lie in bed awake for more than 30 minutes, get up, go to a different room
and read or watch television, and return to bed when you feel sleepy.

Misery loves company.. and electricity

So the annual let's move apartments because it's fun is over. A nice start at about 9am. Finish time? 12:30am. Went to sleep time 2:45am. Wake up time 4:45am. Yes.. I'm freaking cracked out right now. So lets break it down.

The movers themselves were good guys and got stuff done however it went from.. move time of mid afternoon, late evening, morning, late afternoon, back to around noon. I was just like.. awesome guys make up your minds. I hope the lady that screwed those guys up schedule wise gets charged with a "You're Stupid" fee.

So whatev, all the stuff was moved to the new place and during the course of all this I find out.. no electricity there sucker!
...
So I call Com Ed (We don't use no PG&E here!) and they tell me.. it'll be on between 1 and 3 days. That's such a CRAP answer. That's like threatening someone and saying.. dude, I will kick your ass! ... sometime in the near future.

Besides that.. the management company of the apartment building hasn't fixed certain things.. like the BIG ASS HOLES in the window screens. And what do I find the moment I walk in? Oh look.. the windows are all open... this leads to.. oh look.. there's freaking bugs on the walls / flying around. I was more than a bit annoyed by this point. They insist they have 10 days to fix everything that's wrong with the apartment. I insist if within 10 days not everything is fixed I'm going to firebomb their office, rape their horses and ride off on the women! (The fiery singing bush told me to do so)

So we're crashing at Panda Thug's house who lives not close to the city. Again. awesome.

Why is it never easy? I mean seriously. I must have had to been a GIANT ASSHOLE that just constantly shat on people in a former lifetime or something. Well ew. Now I have a gross visual. Oh AND.. I got a ticket yesterday because my dumbass hasn't gotten a new sticker for my license plate. Awesome.

I'm surprised a freaking asteroid didn't hit the planet yesterday. Course it would only hit the spot I'm in probably.

And F this heatwave we're having here. I'd rather be on a beach enjoying a cool sea breeze and listening to the waves crashing with the lighthouse running in the background. (Yes, I'd take that scene over a sunny hot beach with half nekkid women running around) (No, I am in fact not gay even if I do live near 'Boys Town')

Of course being off work a day, I come back today and just get bombarded leaving me with the feeling of just getting bitchslapped by a midget in high heels. Awesome. Good Job. Well Played. Then a coworker asks me when I'm going back to school. Just damn.

I'm going to see if I survive the rest of the day.

Holla.

- D -
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Puddle of Mudd - Blurry

Everything's so blurry
and everyone's so fake
and everybody's empty
and everything is so messed up
pre-occupied without you
I cannot live at all
My whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl

You could be my someone
you could be my scene
you know that i'll protect you
from all of the obscene
I wonder what your doing
imagine where you are
there's oceans in between us
but that's not very far

Can you take it all away
can you take it all away
well ya shoved it in my face
this pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away
can you take it all away
well ya shoved it my face

Everyone is changing
there's noone left that's real
to make up your own ending
and let me know just how you feel
cause I am lost without you
I cannot live at all
my whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl

You could be my someone
you could be my scene
you know that i will save you
from all of the unclean
I wonder what your doing
I wonder where you are
There's oceans in between us
but that's not very far

Yawn

Yesterday was Panda Thug's Bday. Around 12:30am or so two of his friends from LA, two cousins, another friend and I hit Chinatown. Actually they hit there while I was at home watching a movie but I met up with them. I can say had it not been his birthday I'd of stayed my ass at home and slept.

Finally made a compilation of the music I picked up when I was in LA last. New CD now available hehe. I dub thee 'Trance Trance Revolution!'

If these people dont mail me back about my move-in date for the apartment today I'm going to have to chew bubble gum and kick ass at their office tonight. Most the corporate office at work today is at the summer outing. Of course some of us have to stay behind to ya know.. provide support and all that. Damn. Feel like a cheap push up bra. Not even the sweet silky lacy kind with the strap.. er... nevermind.

I'll write more if I wake up I'm damned tired hehe.

- D -

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From the 'Trance Trance Revolution!'

The Second You Sleep (Version by Tess)

You close your eyes
And leave me naked by your side
You close the door so I can't see, the love you keep inside
The love you keep for me
It fills me up
It feels like living in a dream
It fills me up so I can't see
The love you keep inside
The love you keep for me
I stay to watch you fade away
I dream of you tonight
Tomorrow you'll be gone
It gives me time to stay, to watch you fade away
I dream of you tonight
Tomorrow you'll be gone
I wish by God you'd stay

I stay awake
I stay awake and watch you breathe
I stay awake and watch you fly, away into the night
Escaping through a dream

I stay to watch you fade away
I dream of you tonight
Tomorrow you'll be gone
It gives me time to stay
To watch you fade away
I dream of you tonight
Tomorrow you'll be gone
I wish by God you'd stay

Yes Yes I know

Hoy,

I know I haven't updated much as of late but things have been busy. Between work and finding a place to live.. just damn.

Ok so a couple of things.

First, Congrats to Haruka for landing a sweet job that pays decent and more importantly gives me a FREE parking spot a block away from my job woot! Free parking for the win!

Next, the new apartment has been located. It's a nice 2 bedroom apartment with hardwood floors throughout etc and a nice big patio on the ground level for BBQs! Now if those bastards would just mail me back I could find out when the move in date is so I can schedule movers...haters.

The boyz and uhh girl, came in from the West Coast, and well from all over, for the work IT Conference we had. That was dope to hang with some of mah boyz though I have to say those LA guys can corrupt you within minutes. One day you'll be a fine church going boy like I was (pfft), the next thing you know you'll be ready to swipe your credit card between some random girl's breasts (no i didn't do that), but you get the idea. Oh and also.. they thought they had game when it came to Street Fighter. All I can say is... Chicago Represent! .. owned.

Over the weekend I decided to throw an impromptu BBQ at Panda Thug's house. It was pretty dope. Lots of food, lots of alcohol. I got to see some of the boyz I haven't seen for a long time now to. Everyone there could agree that the highlite was when Shakespeare managed to fall forward and flat on his chest (almost his face) while sitting on the railing of the deck we were on. That had to have been the funniest thing I've ever seen and I can only wish we had it on video because you couldn't have planned that better. Then you had Panda thug trying to give Donovan advice on how to schmooze women (Donovan needs no advice whatsoever Mr I have fitty girls on speed dial just damn). Panda's contribution? "You need to throw down some Hershey's Kisses and be like BAM I kiss the ground you walk on!!!!"... Yeah the rest of us laughed as well ^_^

This weekend Tallulah and Nightingale are having a joint Birthday party. I should be able to make it to that depending on that whole moving thing.

Ok.. I'll post more later I don't even have the time to be witty right now!

Holla Back,

- D -

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NIN - We're In This Together Now

you and me
we're in this together now
none of them can stop us now
we will make it through somehow

you and me
if the world should break in two
until the very end of me
until the very end of you

all that we were is gone we have to hold
all that we were is gone we have to hold
when all our hope is gone we have to hold
all that we were is gone but we can hold on

And it only Monday?

First and foremost,

Happy Birthday Tallulah!
Welcome to the ranks of 25 and up where you will enjoy lower car rental prices and... and... huh.. I'm not really sure what else an advantage of being 25 is oh well Happy Birthday regardless.

So lets see... over the weekend my boss had a wedding in Madison, IN. Now let me tell you something. If you are of the... not white ethnicity, I don't recommend this part of the world. One of my friends who was there, he and his wife whom are both Chinese walked into a restaurant and everyone stopped to look at them... yes. It was a step up from having to throw down with some lamers in white hoods. I also got a speeding ticket on the way down there. 97mph in a 65. Luckily he didn't clock me when i was at 110+mph. DOH. Least he didn't mark me for reckless driving that would have made the ticket even more expensive.

Other big news.. I originally thought that I had until August to find a new place to live. I was hoping by then to have some money saved up for a down payment, maybe get a condo or a town house or something.. Yeah. I received a phone call from my landlord on Friday and she was like.. Do you want to extend your lease? I said not so much, and she informed me my lease was up on the END OF THE MONTH... CRAP!!! Bother. I'm just going to move to the mountains and become a hobbit (yes, I know it's hermit).

Gotta get back to work, another boss told me this was my "time to shine," which for the non corporate slaves I'll translate. It means I have to work even more hours and try to forget all about that thing called 'social life', or 'sleep'. Awesome.

Holla Back.

- D -

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Knockin' On Heaven's Door - Avril Lavigne version (Bob Dylan-Original)

Momma take this badge off of me
I can't use it anymore
It's getting dark, too dark to see
Feel I'm knockin' on heaven's door

Knock knock knockin' on heaven's door
Knock knock knockin' on heaven's door
Knock knock knockin' on heaven's door
Knock knock knockin' on heaven's door

Momma put my guns in the ground
I can't shoot them anymore
That long black cloud is coming down
I Feel like I'm knockin' on heaven's door

Knock knock knockin' on heaven's door
Knock knock knockin' on heaven's door
Knock knock knockin' on heaven's door
Knock knock knockin' on heaven's door

Keep Rollin

Leonard Cohen - Everybody Knows

Everybody knows that the dice are loaded
Everybody rolls with their fingers crossed
Everybody knows that the war is over
Everybody knows the good guys lost
Everybody knows the fight was fixed
The poor stay poor, the rich get rich
That's how it goes
Everybody knows
Everybody knows that the boat is leaking
Everybody knows that the captain lied
Everybody got this broken feeling
Like their father or their dog just died

Everybody talking to their pockets
Everybody wants a box of chocolates
And a long stem rose
Everybody knows

Everybody knows that you love me baby
Everybody knows that you really do
Everybody knows that you've been faithful
Ah give or take a night or two
Everybody knows you've been discreet
But there were so many people you just had to meet
Without your clothes
And everybody knows

Everybody knows, everybody knows
That's how it goes
Everybody knows

Everybody knows, everybody knows
That's how it goes
Everybody knows

And everybody knows that it's now or never
Everybody knows that it's me or you
And everybody knows that you live forever
Ah when you've done a line or two
Everybody knows the deal is rotten
Old Black Joe's still pickin' cotton
For your ribbons and bows
And everybody knows

And everybody knows that the Plague is coming
Everybody knows that it's moving fast
Everybody knows that the naked man and woman
Are just a shining artifact of the past
Everybody knows the scene is dead
But there's gonna be a meter on your bed
That will disclose
What everybody knows

And everybody knows that you're in trouble
Everybody knows what you've been through
From the bloody cross on top of Calvary
To the beach of Malibu
Everybody knows it's coming apart
Take one last look at this Sacred Heart
Before it blows
And everybody knows

Everybody knows, everybody knows
That's how it goes
Everybody knows

Nada mucho

Huh.. long weekend, that was nice. Short work week, that's nice. Have to go to my boss's wedding this coming weekend in Indiana. I should probably make a hotel reservation or something ^_^

I can think of absolutely nothing interesting to post right now. I need to clean and do laundry tonight. Yes. Bought a game over the weekend and beat it in like 5 hours. That was both satisfying and sad at the same time.

Sometime in the next couple of weeks I should be in a meeting to discuss if I'm going to get more money at work or not... we'll see how that goes.

I'll post when I can think of something witty and interesting.

- D -

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Dream On - Aerosmith

Every time that I look in the mirror
All these lines on my face getting clearer
The past is gone
It went by like dusk to dawn
Isn't that the way
Everybody's got their dues in life to pay

I know nobody knows
Where it comes and where it goes
I know it's everybody's sin
You got to lose to know how to win

Half my life's in books' written pages
Live and learn from fools and from sages
You know it's true
All the things come back to you

Sing with me sing for the years
Sing for the laughter and sing for the tears
Sing with me if it's just for today
Maybe tomorrow the good Lord will take you away

Dream on dream on dream on
Dream yourself a dream come true
Dream on dream on dream on
Dream until your dream comes true
Dream on dream on dream on dream on
Dream on dream on dream on yeah

I am invincible! Oh wait, I'm not

The word of the day is brought to you by Tallulah.

un·wield·y
adj. un·wield·i·er, un·wield·i·est
Difficult to carry or manage because of size, shape, weight, or complexity: an unwieldy parcel.

Here. Let me give you an example.

"Dhavid.. don't carry that papasan chair down the stairs of utter doom and suffering, it's unwieldy".

Hold on.. let me pop some more advil.

Mmmmm advil..

So 1/3 of this project at work that's been beating me like cheap illegal labor was finished at 3:30am last night. Now.. for the rest of it. It makes me sad when people on the same team as me do less work and get paid the same if not more. Let alone fuckers who sit there and play games on Yahoo all day... lucky this isn't a post office!

Plans for the weekend? Meh. Supposed to meet up with some people at Dave and Buster's tomorrow and play some Battletech. Blowing stuff up is always fun. Maybe sleep, that would be awesome. And maybe some WoW.. it's been years since I played last hehe.

Sunday I gotta pick up lil bro from the airport. At some point Haruka and I need to go to Mitsuwa to buy Mr. Konami USA some Japanese alcohol in thanks for getting us into E3 and to try and bribe my way into a job there... yes.

Ok I should do some work and take more drugs.

Later,

- D -

No song right now can't find one I want to listen to.

I came. I saw. I went to sleep.

First off. No links in this post. Sorry. I'm tired.

I think contrary to the phrase of hit the ground running, when Haruka and I got back from California on Monday, I've "hit the ground while dragging my knees until they're bloody".

The trip itself was good. E3 was great. Lots of pretty flashing lights, video games, and half nekkid women dressed up like video game characters or like strippers who couldn't get a job at the local Hooters. Universal studios was good but trying to fit everything into one day just isn't possible so sadly we missed a couple of things. I have to say 'The Mummy' ride was pretty freaking awesome. First you sit down and you're just like la la la twiddle twiddle then all of the sudden ZOOM ZOOM! It's like someone hit the Nitro button and you just launch. After some twists and turns you stop.. wait for it.. then zoom zoom again but backwards! The end of the ride is straight outta Batman. The floor rotates and turns your cart in a 180 and you go back to the start to unload. Nice. Chinatown and Little Tokyo was great. Little Tokyo had a store that was full of anime type o stuff. Oddly I didn't buy anything. Chinatown was hilarious, there was a cart with stuff on it and the lady working it was not Chinese but Thai. So me trying to take advantage of this asked how much some stuff was in Thai.. her response was like normally its this much.. but since you're Thai HALF OFF! Woot! Taking advantage of your culture and heritage that you had absolutely no part of choosing is awesome. We also stopped in Santa Monica before going to the airport.. it was nice.. the ocean.. waves.. and I dunno why but alot of baby squirrels running around.. it was like Watership Down.. but with squirrels instead??

Getting back was a joy. We missed our scheduled flight at 6pm which would have gotten us back to Chicago around midnight. Instead we were lucky to hop on the red eye flight back. Land in Chicago around 5 something, get back home around 6 something, pass out for an hour or two (longer than I should have), then went to work. Since then everything's been a blur.

Work is killng me. I've said it before and I'll say it again. Work is killing me. Last night I helped Tallulah move some stuff to her new apartment. It looks nice. It's sad, I think her place is almost bigger than mine if not and shes paying waaaaay less than I am. Boy I can't wait till my lease is up in August... After helping her move stuff, Panda Thug and Donovan called to say they were heading over. So we all met up and went to Chinatown for dinner around 10 or 11 something. Awesome. PT needed a ride to the airport this morning. Wouldn't you know he was on the 6am flight. Good job. /slap. After dropping him off I came straight to work. So I was sitting at my desk at 5:45am and started plugging away. Having deadlines is good and bad. Good when you meet them, bad when you feel like you're working more than you're sleeping.

What the hell I'm running on empty, after all that stuff last night / this morning I ended up with an hour of sleep. I need to just start an IV of redbull... just stick it in my veins! Meh. I'll write more when I get a minute and am a lil more coherent.

- D -

PS. When a girl speaks another language it's pretty great. I'm the kind of guy that can sit there while being cursed at in a foreign language that would smile and nod as long as whatever was being said was said in a nice tone with a smile... aka I'm a sucker.
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Veni Vidi Vici - Alizee

Un zeste de félicité
Un tempérament qui fait rire
Parce que tout peut bien arriver,
Le temps nous dit c'est plus facile
Si on met:

Un zeste de citron dans l'eau
Changer de goût sans changer l'hydre
La vie est belle pimentée, corsée
La vie qui pique
Qui pousse comme un champs de blé

Veni, Vedi, Vici
C'est de la chance aussi
Tout petit à petit
L'oiseau qui fait son nid, douillet
Veni, Vedi, Vici
Ma bonne étoile luit, je n'ai
Pas de mea culpa
J'suis bien là et j'aime ça

Un zeste de féminité
Sur un corps-puce de gamine
Les langues sont facilitées, juré
Le latin je l'aime en chemise,

Un zeste de balbutiements
Quand je me dis: tout va trop vite
C'est là que veillent les mamans, j'entends
Au loin les cloches de la ville,
Vive le vent….

Cali forn i a

Huh. So looks like Haruka and I are off to Cali. The City of Angels. The home of those raisins that couldn't get on American Idol if the tried.

Anyway, we're going to E3 courtesy of the President of Konami USA.. sweet. Apparently Haruka's mum is friends with the guy and he hooked us up.. and said yeah have Dhavid forward me a copy of his resume (albeit he probably said that in not so perfect English). I'm also going to see a friend of mine who works for Bandai. You'd think between these two I could get a job in the video game industry. So what if I can't program or anything.. let me fix computers or lead projects or or go to meetings all day just so when I got off work I could be like.. yeah.. I work for Konami.. or yeah I work for Bandai, suck it down.

Not really sure how much internet access I'll have while I'm out of town, though I am taking my Nextel and my work laptop with me just in case. And the not so 5 star place we're staying at should have an internet connection for me as well.

So my shoulders have been a bit sore lately so Haruka kept insisting I use this stuff her Dad uses. (that mean I'm old?) The stuff is called Salonpas . It's interesting.. they're these sticky pads that you peel and stick to your skin. Then, it gets really hot. I'm still debating if it makes me less sore, or it just makes me go... what the hell Taaaastes Like Buuuuuurning!

Last weekend I went to see Tallulah in a skit she was in. Sadly for me, it was a part of "Estrogen Fest". I'll admit, there were are few minutes of panic wondering if I was going to have to fend off man hating women with large sharp objects. Fortunately it turned out to be not that kind of show. I feel empowered now... or something.

Time to go home, clean, do more work, pack and hopefully take a nap.

Ciao,

- D -

Stalk Stalk Stalk

I love how people play this song at weddings and such.
It's not romantic. It's not sappy. It's about a freaking
Stalker damn you.

Every Breath You Take - The Police

Every breath you take
And every move you make
Every bond you break, every step you take
I’ll be watching you

Every single day
And every word you say
Every game you play, every night you stay
I’ll be watching you

Oh, can’t you see
You belong to me?
How my poor heart aches
With every step you take
Every move you make
Every vow you break
Every smile you fake, every claim you stake
I’ll be watching you

Since you’ve gone I’ve been lost without a trace
I dream at night, I can only see your face
I look around, but it’s you I can’t replace
I feel so cold, and I long for your embrace
I keep crying baby, baby please,
Oh, can’t you see
You belong to me?
How my poor heart aches
With every step you take
Every move you make
Every vow you break
Every smile you fake, every claim you stake
I’ll be watching you
Every move you make, every step you take
I’ll be watching you
I’ll be watching you

Island In The Sun

From Donovan's blog. Interesting questions.

Name: Dhavid
Piercings: Three. Mid left ear.
Tattoos: None yet, want one on the back of my lower neck / upper back area.
Height: 5'7"
Shoe size: 12 or 13
Hair color: Black
Sibling(s): One sister, 4 adopted brothers.

Do
You have a crush on someone: Yes
You wish you could live somewhere else: Yes. Australia
You think about suicide: Yes, but on an phillosophical / intellectual level. I wouldn't do it.
You want more piercings: If I didnt have to be corporate, I'd get my eyebrow pierced.
You like cleaning: No. But I hate scummy things more.
You like roller coasters: I like the speed. I don't like the height.
Write in cursive or print: I print everything. My writing sucks. I type fast.

FOR OR AGAINST
Long distance relationships: Yes. Depends.
Killing people: Only in self defense or the defense of innocent lives.
Suicide: Against
Teenage smoking: Against but not hardcore against. Teenagers do that kind of stuff.
Driving drunk: Against. No. Just. No.
Gay/Lesbians: For. Anyone who judges you on your sexual preference should pour some baby powder on their hands, then slap themselves.
Soap Opreas: Against... though some of the things I watch could be considerd soap operas. None of that Days of Our Lives crap though.

HAVE YOU
Ever cried over a girl: Yes
Ever cried over a boy: No
Ever been in a fight: Yes
Ever been arrested: No er Yes.. er.. do juvenile records count? And when you say arrested does riding in the back of a squad car count as arrested if you aren't in handcuffs? ... I plead the fif.. F-I-F.. 5th.

WHAT
Shampoo do you use: American Crew
Shoes do you wear: Sketchers, Nikes, Sandals.
Are you scared of death: At times yes, but more scared of the thought of not being around to be there for people.

NUMBER
Of times you have been in love: Puppy love? More than a couple. What I thought was real? More often than not. Unrequited? Once or twice
Of time you have had your heart broken: It's always been broken.
Of hearts I have broken: One?
Of girls you've kissed: 15 or less I think
Of girls you've slept with: 7. Though looking back some of the 7 I'm just like.. the hell was I thinking.
Of guys you've kissed: Zero
Of guys you've slept with: Zero
Of people you would classify as true, could trust your life with type of friend: 10? or maybe I'm to trusting.
Of scars on your soul: More than a couple.
Of scars on your body: See previous answer. Most distingushing scar, left arm near the wrist.
Of things in your past that you regret: School. Relationships. Jobs. Decisions in general that I've made.

FAVORITE
4 letter word: home
Actor/Actress: Tallulah
Cartoon: I watch anime like it's my job. Raxhephon, Lodoss Wars, Evangelion, Gundam Seed, Full Metal Alchemist, Ghost in the Shell, are some of my favs.
Cereal: Cinnamon Life
Chewing gum: Orbit. The light blue one.
Color(s): Sony blue. Silver. Black.
Nail polish: Black or Silver. Not that I wear nail polish on a daily basis...
Day of week: Sunday.
Flower: Sakura (Cherry Blossom), Orchids, Recently Tulips have made the list.
Jello flavor: Is 'Red' a flavor?
Jewelry: Black and Silver Bracelet, Black and Silver Kenneth Cole watch, three silver earrings. Not sure where the rest of my stuff went.
Fall/Spring: Fall
Trampolines or swimming pools: Swimming pool

WHO LAST
Slept in your bed: Me and Haruka
Saw you cry: I don't remember the last time I cried. Probably Joan
Made you cry: I can't answer that
Yelled at you: Huh... yes.

HAVE YOU EVER
Said "I love you" and meant it: Yes
Gone out in public in your pajamas: Under my jeans or as my tshirt sure
Kept a secret from everyone: Yes
At anytime owned new kids on the block stuff: No
Planned your week based on the TV Guide: No. Thats what Tivo's for.
Been on stage: You could say that
Been to New York: Sigh. Not yet.
California: Yes
Hawaii: No
China: No
Canada: Yes
Europe: No
Asia: Yes
Australia: Sadly No
South America: No
Puerto Rico: No
Wished your were the opposite sex: No
What time is it now: 5:24p.m.(Central)
Apples or bananas: b-a-n a-n-a-s.
Walmart or Target: Target
What are you gonna do after you finish this: Going to a Cubs Game
Are you bored: No, just sleepy.
Last noise you heard: Other people talking and the mp3s playing on my laptop.

Um. What?

Your brain: 160% interpersonal, 100% visual, 60% verbal, and 80% mathematical!

Congratulations on being 400% smart! Actually, on my test, everyone is. The above score breaks down what kind of thinking you most enjoy doing. A score above 100% means you use that kind of thinking more than average, and a score below 100% means you use it less. It says nothing about how good you are at any one, just how interested you are in each, relatively. A substantial difference in scores between two people means, conclusively, that they are different kinds of thinkers.

Matching Summary: Each of us has different tastes. Still, I offer the following advice, which I think is obvious:


Don't date someone if your interpersonal percentages differ by more than 80%.
Don't be friends with someone if your verbal percentages differ by more than 100%.
Don't have sex with someone if their math percentage is over 200%.

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 97% on interpersonal
You scored higher than 73% on visual
You scored higher than 65% on verbal
You scored higher than 63% on mathematical

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Someone else go take this test. It confuses me.

The 4-Variable IQ Test
http://www.okcupid.com/tests/take?testid=15273633770079357960

Danger! Danger Will Robinson!

From my desk at work I can see into my manager's office. He has this life size color cardboard cut out of Robot from the original TV series Lost in Space. It's really amusing to me, probably because I grew up watching all the campy cheesy sci fi shows as a kid.

Family Guy is back on the air haha. I thought it was great the first two minutes how Peter just went through a list of all the shows that Fox cancelled. It's basically a passive Fuck You! One of the greatest ways to insult someone to me, is to insult them with a smile without them even knowing it. Kind of like when you get the jackass person on the phone that doesn't know what they're doing and you say "I'm sorry, you must be new." Hehe.

This guy at work the other day was like, I'm going to give you some advice. Just the thought of him giving me any legitimate advice based on anything other than personal experience or the experience of someone in a rap video amused me... but anyway, he says to me.. If it's not obtainable, make sure it's maintainable. I just kinda smirked and was like... well ok then.

I'm trying to get over this being sick thing right now since it's finally starting to warm up outside.

Damn. I'm tired.

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Offspring - What Happened to You

I can draw a little picture
Or even use my hands
I try to explain but you just don't understand
Man you're really losin' it
And you've really done a lot of junk now
But you keep on abusin' it
What in the world happened to you
It's bad enough you do it to yourself
But taking someone with you
Well you know that's something else
I say I'm not that kind of person
I'm not that kind of man
I try to explain but you just don't understand
I might be sympathetic or cut a little slack
If I thought that you were willing to give a little back
But you do it in the morning
You do it in the night
You lie to refrain from just facing your life
So I'll see you tomorrow
You'll be gackin' up again
I'll see you in a coffin by the time your wad is spent
I think of all the times that I tried to lend a hand
I try to explain but you just don't understand

Like stepping on a twig

No time to post right now. Trying to catch up with work. I've been out here and there this week. Long story. Song of the day explains most of it.

- D -

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Linkin Park - One Step Closer

I cannot take this anymore
I'm saying everything I've said before
All these words they make no sense
I find bliss in ignorance
Less I hear the less you'll say
But you'll find that out anyway

Just like before...

[chours:]
Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break

I find the answers aren't so clear
Wish I could find a way to disappear
All these thoughts they make no sense
I find bliss in ignorance
Nothing seems to go away
Over and over again

Just like before

Leading Lady

Congrats to Tallulah!

Company member?
The Lead with your own understudy?
Parts that people can't see anyone else in?

You have arrived

- D -

Edward Nigma

If my loyalties were iron beams,
would they bend under tremendous wieght?

If my love were made of light,
would it be a warm glow, or a fiery blaze?

If my dreams turned into nightmares,
would that be an improvement?

If my sadness controlled the weather,
would I need to go build an arc?

If I could focus all of my rage into one word,
what would that one word be?

If I filled a room with my insecurities,
would I need a warehouse?

If I gave a name to all the things I hated,
would it be the name of a person?

If my life is just a series of questions,
what are the answers that are waiting for me?

It's Never Easy

Hell of a weekend.

Doh. Just checked my Lottery numbers. Someone forgot to tell these people that I need to win. Sure I don't meet the criteria of

1. Already Rich
2. Illegal Alien
3. On my deathbed

But I'd still like to win :( Quite honestly though, I know most of my friends know if I ever came into a large sum of money like that, pfft, everyone would be hooked up. Well, cept for those slacker friends that only call when they want something. I guess those people aren't really friends.

Watched a creepy Korean horror flick last night called A Tale of Two Sisters. It's not so much horror as it is a mystery but its creepy nonetheless. Haruka and I at first were like.. wtf is this? But after watching it again with the commentary turned on and looking it up on a couple of sites, turns out the movie was actually pretty deep and worth rewatching. Watched Elektra to. It was.. aight. Not bad, but not ohmigod dis is teh shiznit either. (I try to cater to all levels of grammar and IQ)

So people have asked here and there.. how come you haven't posted about Haruka much as of late? Mainly, I had decided that things between Haruka and I should stay off of this public forum as it would be like the concept of 'kiss and tell'. So... yeah.

The Museum of Science and Industry has a great exhibit going on right now about.. Video Games! Game On goes through the history and culture of video games... whatever, the point is you get to go there and play some video games you grew up on (Bubble Bobble!, Gradius!, Street Fighter!), on all these old systems. One thing that was very disappointing though is that there was no presence of first person shooter games. I understand that older people are.. stupid, and feel that they are to violent and such but let's be honest... If you're going to have a freaking exhibit about VIDEO GAMES, you should at least have a copy of Doom on hand.. Slackers.

The Museum also had an exhibit which I refused to go see called Bodyworlds. I'm all fine for learning about the human body and all that.. but I don't like the fact that this exhibit uses REAL human beings, or at least their bodies that were donated to science. Donated to science.. to me if I donate my body to science, I would hope they would use it to cure some disease or something of that level, not in fact to be displayed in random poses such as, running with a basketball, jumping a hurdle, or shooting a bow and arrow.

Mmmm personal beliefs... good to have em. I highly recommend if you don't have any to pick some up. Personal beliefs are like one of those Neo Pets. You get to raise one from infancy, make sure you feed it with your ideas and efforts, and in the end you get to see if you did a good job raising it or not.

I'm still waiting to hear if I'm going to be able to go to E3 or not. My hookup for tickets is moving slow. Slow like the rate his company pumps out new games... doh.

Hrm.. I should get back to work. It's hella annoying. If i don't do work on the weekends, I'm overworked on the weekdays. I don't think it's supposed to work like that. Australia is looking better everyday.

- D -

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Smashing Pumpkins - Disarm

Disarm you with a smile
And cut you like you want me to
Cut that little child
Inside of me and such a part of you
Ooh, the years burn

I used to be a little boy
So old in my shoes
And what i choose is my choice
What's a boy supposed to do?
The killer in me is the killer in you
My love
I send this smile over to you

Disarm you with a smile
And leave you like they left me here
To wither in denial
The bitterness of one who's left alone
Ooh, the years burn
Ooh, the years burn, burn, burn

I used to be a little boy
So old in my shoes
And what I choose is my voice
What's a boy supposed to do?
The killer in me is the killer in you
My love
I send this smile over to you

Muses and Angels

Most people that know me know I have a thing for songs sung by women. I don't know how many remakes of songs I've liked just because it's sung by a female vocalist. I think there's probably some deeper psychological reasons for this but I probably attribute it most for growing up in a house with just my mom and my sister, and growin up in an Asian family where the emotional displays of affection rival those of a vulcan on prozac. Not really sure if I'm happy I'm using a Star Trek reference there but hey whatever works.

Donovan leaves for school in AZ in August. I'm totally happy for him but of course sad to see him go. Meh, just means I have another place I can jet off to when I need an emergency get away. Just this one would be involving warm weather and hot coeds. Interesting.

Work still is rough. I used the analogy the other day with one of my bosses, "You guys told me to build a house, gave me some wood and some nails but no hammer." He laughed and nodded...

Crap gotta run to a meeting, will post more later.

These are the words that ring in my head with the clear sound of her voice when I'm feeling a little... off. What am I, a teenage girl? DOH!

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Michelle Branch - All You Wanted

I wanted to be like you
I wanted everything
So I tried to be like you
And I got swept away

I didn’t know that it was so cold
And you needed someone
To show you the way
So I took your hand and we figured out
That when the tide comes
I’d take you away

If you want to
I can save you
I can take you away from here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted
Was somebody who cares

I’m sinking slowly
So hurry hold me
Your hand is all I have to keep me hanging on
Please can you tell me
So I can finally see
Where you go when you’re gone

If you want to
I can save you
I can take you away from here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted
Was somebody who cares

All you wanted was somebody who cares
If you need me you know I’ll be there
Oh, yeah

If you want to
I can save you
I can take you away from here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted
Was somebody who cares

Please can you tell me
So I can finally see
Where you go when you’re gone

Are you kidding me?

Ever wake up and have one of those god awful mornings where you just want to say fuck it and go back to sleep regardless of if people are talking to you or blowing up your phone etc? Yeah..

So last night was cool. Took Tallulah to an audition for a random movie that's being shot in Chi. Auditions were at the University of Chicago and ya know.. I never realized how pimped out that school is. It was like walking into some old school mansion. It kind of makes me sad the whole not having done that going away to college thing when I was a snot nosed punk ( I don't really understand why someone being snot nosed has any bearing on well.. anything). Ah well. Whatever. At least I have a job and I'm getting paid more than most, well some college grads. If I ever get some time to breathe from work I need to get back to going to school.

I need to work on getting a new passport as soon as possible. Sometime before September this year I *WILL* be going to Japan. Why you ask? Because of this! -> 2005 Aichi Expo. When I was growing up among my random dreams of being a jet pilot, or a Jedi, I really wanted to go to a World's Fair. Being that Chicago had one a long long time ago it made me want to go even more. So finding out that they don't really have them anymore when I was a kid made me pretty sad, but then I hear about this and I'm just like.. whoa. So I don't care who goes with me, hell, I'll go myself if I have to but this is going to happen damn it!

Ok. I need to get back to work now. I'm behind on a project or three =(

Also, for those that know me well enough you can tell what kind of day it is by this.
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Stabbing Westward - Save Yourself

I know your life is empty
And you hate to face this world alone
So you're searching for an angel
Someone who can make you whole
I can not save you
I can't even save myself
So just save yourself

I know that you've been damaged
Your soul has suffered such abuse
But I am not your savior
I am just as fucked as you
I am just as fucked as you
I can not save you
I can't even save myself
So just save yourself

Please don't take pity on me
Please don't take pity on me
Please don't take pity on me
Please don't take pity on me

My life has been a nightmare
My soul is fractured to the bone
And if I must be lonely, I think I'd rather be alone
I think I'd rather be alone

You can not save me
You can't even save yourself
I can not save you
I can't even save myself
Save yourself
So just save yourself

Recent Flicks

Oh I forgot, I've been watching a bunch of movies lately.

Sin City was pretty damn cool. Long, but overall pretty good.

Last night I saw THE funniest kung fu flick ever. This director Stephen Chow is a genius hehe.. check out Kung Fu Hustle if you get a chance its hilarious yet the fight scenes were pretty badass. He's the same guy who did Shaolin Soccer

As far as Japanese movies goes I recently watched Red Shadow and Azumi. Both of which I liked alot. Red Shadow was funny while Azumi was cool simply cuz I mean cmon.. cute asian girl with a samurai sword.. woot! I also saw Steam Boy, which ya know.. if people don't know you're talking about an anime..that's bad to yell out ," Yeah! tonight I'm gonna go see Steam Boy!"

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Finger Elven - One Thing

Restless tonight
Cause I wasted the light
Between both these times
I drew a really thin line
It’s nothing I planned
And not that I can
But you should be mine
Across that line

If I traded it all
If I gave it all away for one thing
Just for one thing
If I sorted it out
If I knew all about this one thing
Wouldn’t that be something

I promise I might
Not walk on by
Maybe next time
But not this time

Even though I know
I don’t want to know
Yeah I guess I know
I just hate how it sounds

From the top to the bottom

Hoy,

So it's been a looooong time since I've posted. My bad for that but work work work and more work. I thought it was supposed to be Work Hard and Play Hard. Not Work Hard and play when you aren't feeling guilty for doing so.. doh!

Let's see what's been going on since last..

Props to Donovan and Kayla. *sniff* He makes me so proud =)

I'm talking to my sister again after a couple years hiatus.. that's going pretty well.

I have absolutely nothing witty or interesting to talk about this late in the day after wrecking my brain on boring IT Corporate stuff so I'll just jump on the bandwagon and fill this out. I blame Tallulah and Donovan.. and Rachy.. yes.

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A - Age you got your first kiss: Uhh..this question makes me feel old. 14 or 15
B - Band listening to right now: Right now its quiet.. it's kind of nice.
C - Crush: I feel I don't need to answer this question.
D - Dad's name: Assh.. er.. Nunthavit
E - Easiest person to talk to: Strangers that don't know you or have any preconcieved opinions of you.
F - Favorite bands at the moment: Varies on my mood. Linkin Park/Stabbing Westward. Dido. Random techno / ravey music
G - Gummy worms or gummy bears?: I like those gummy strawberries more myself.
H - Hometown: I get to claim Hillside AND Chicago
I - Instruments: I'd like to learn piano and clarinent. Currently the only instrument I can play well is an X-Box controller.
J- Junior High: Saint Domitilla
K - Kids: None... that I know of! dun dun dun....
L - Longest car ride ever: Driving to Scranton, PA.. ohmigod I can't believe I didn't die in a fiery car crash any of the times I made that drive.
M - Mom's name: Viparwon
N - Nicknames: Chino (my sis calls me that). Don't really have any other nicknames that I acknowledge. People tend to call me Matt because THEY'RE STUPID...
P - Phobia[s]: Failing and disappointing certain people.
Q - Quote: "What the hell?"
R - Reason to smile: The thought of running away to Australia with someone
S - Song you sang last: Finger Eleven - One Thing
T - Time you woke up [today]: 8 something a.m. Good job snooze button.
U - Unknown fact about me: I feel people who read this would already know me well enough.
V - Vegetable you hate: George Bush.
W - Worst habit(s): I spend money like its going out of style because I just don't care sometimes and feel life should be enjoyed and what else is money for if not to be spent.
X - X-rays you've had: Chest, shoulder, arm, uhhh head
Y - Yummy food: Sushi from Hey Sushi! , Beef Chow Fun from Chinatown, Pizza from Gino's and who can forget... Hot Pigga!
Z - Zodiac sign: Aquarius.. freakin water bearers.

Cuz It's All In My Head...

Work is owning me. Hard. But that's cool, least it's making me feel productive about myself and life in general. Still recovering from that whole being sick thing. I need some sleep, I can't think of what I wanted to say. Anyway.. here is my bastard action of the day.. enjoy these lyrics and good luck not letting it stick in your head 24/7 for the next several days.

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Nelly - Over and Over

chorus
Cuz its all in my head
I think about it
over and over again
and i can't keep picturin' you with him
and it hurts so bad
yeah

Cuz its all in my head
I think about it over and over again
I replay it over and over again
and I can't take it and I can't shake it no...

verse 1 (Nelly)
I cant wait to see you
wanna see if u still got that look in ur eye
that one u had for me before we said our goodbyes
and its shame
that we gotta spend our time being mad about the same things
over and over again, about the same things, over and over again
oh, but i think shes leaving, oh man, shes leaving
I dont know what else to do, (Tim Mcgraw)i cant go on not loving you

chorus
cuz its all in my head
i think about it
over and over again
and i can't keep picturin' you with him
and it hurts so bad
yeah

Cuz its all in my head
I think about it over and over again
I replay it over and over again
and I can't take it and I can't shake it no...

verse 2 (Nelly)
I remember that day u left
I remember the last breath u took right in front of me
when u said that u would leave
I was too damn stuborn to try to stop u or say anything
but I see it clearly now
and this choice that I made keeps playin in my head
over and over again, playin in my head, over and over again
oh I think shes leavin, oh man, shes leaving...
i dont know what else to do,
(Tim Mcgraw)
I cant go on not loving you

chorus
Cuz its all in my head
I think about it
over and over again
and I can't keep picturin' you with him
and it hurts so bad
yeah

cuz its all in my head
I think about it over and over again
I replay it over and over again
and I can't take it and I can't shake it no...

(Nelly)
now that i realize that im goin down
from all this pain youve put me through
(Tim McGraw)
everytime i close my eyes
I lock it down... ohhh I cant go on not loving you

chorus x2
Cuz its all in my head
I think about it
over and over again
and I can't keep picturin' you with him
and it hurts so bad
yeah

Cuz its all in my head
I think about it over and over again
I replay it over and over again
and I can't take it and I can't shake it no...

over and over again
over and over again

cuz its all in my head...............

Where have I been?

Peace up, A Town.. yo airport sucks! Last Monday night I left for Atlanta. And let me tell you.. it was a freaking miserable experience. I went down there for a training class for work, unfortunately I woke up sick Sunday Morning. So while I was down there things just got worse.

So let's recap my highlites of the trip.

1. I get to the airport after fevering ( yes the act of having a fever ) and go to get my rental car that the travel agency for work had reserved for me. Now at this point I'm three shades of messed up so I'm wandering around in a cold swear lugging my bags around through rows or car rental places. I end up going to Enterprise who can't seem to find my reservation.. so whatever I setup something with them and get a car. As I was walking away I realized that my reservation was with National Car Rental.. so I went back there and they're like yes, we have your reservation.. then.. they asked from my driver's license.. I give it to them.. BAM.. "I'm sorry sir do you have a valid driver's license?" I'm like what?? .. Apparently mine expired 2-15-2004 and I just never noticed... freaking awesome. Luckily when I had stopped at Enterprise they didn't catch that either.. so I cancelled my reservation with National and went to Enterprise.

2. The Car Rental. So I get to Enterprise's lot.. they say ok you get this silver neon. I'm like sure whatever. This blonde chick in a pink coat walks me out to it then she's like.. huh.. I don't have the keys I guess this got rented out. She asks if I want to take a pickup truck or a minivan instead for no upgrade charge. I look at her and I'm like.. how bout no. So she finds me another car this crappy red ford focus and does the walk around of the car with me. She says wow looks like the car wash didnt do a good job. Not until miles down the road did i realize, they hadn't cleaned the inside either let alone filled the gas tank.. unreal.

3. The Hotel. Stayed at the Marriot downtown Atlanta. Walking in, it was a pimp lobby I can't complain. Sadly.. this was far from where I had to go for the training classes. Apparently the name 'Peachtree' is popular in the Atlanta area. And instead of staying at the Courtyard by Marriot on Peachtree/Dunwoody, I stayed at the Marriot on Peachtree... sigh. So each morning I had to drive 30 mins each way to get from the hotel to the building the class was in.. whatever.

4. So that first night I didn't get in until around 11pm or so. After getting settled I realized I was freaking hungry. The only place open in the hotel was this bar/grill place. So I went down there and ordered a philly cheese steak to go. Lord knows why it took them almost 40 minutes just to give me a sammich!

5. So.. Day 1 of the class. I go out for lunch. Need to stop at a Walgreens to pick up some stuff. Was all drugged up on cold medicine.. was on the phone with Haruka.. and yeah.. got out of the car locked it closed the door. Took two steps.. SHIT... keys in ignition.. doors all locked.. engine running. This is the "Ohmigod I'm a freaking tool moment". So I call Enterprise, who calls Triple A and they tell me 90 minutes... I had 30 minutes left on my lunch break.. sigh.. so I call the training company and was like.. yes.. i locked my keys in the car.. the instructor said "Bless your heart" and I about cried hehe. So I waited outside in the cold for over an hour and a half sitting against the wall of a Walgreens with my box of Kleenez and my bag of Dorritos I bought for lunch. There wasn't much choice on lunch at Walgreens.. if you ever looked at the sandwiches they have.. you'd agree. So dude finally gets there.. takes 2 minutes, unlocks the door and I get back to class.. late.

6. The night of Day 1, I spent in bed shivering and all that.. fevering again. So much for seeing the sights and taking advantage of the nice hotel eh?

7. Blah blah blah its hard as hell to sit at the computer right now. So last night I got back from Atlanta. At the airport.. my cellphone dies. Figures. Panda Thug was picking me up from the airport but we had issues trying to find eachother. I'd tried calling Haruka from payphones and relaying messages and going back and forth.. awesome. Anyway.. when PT picked me up.. I was like.. dude.. we need to stop at the ER.

8. The ER. Whoever decided people should pay *more* for going to the ER is an ASSHOLE.. yes.. asshole. I don't know how long I had to wait to see a doctor but damn.. it was a long time. When I was getting X-Rays of my chest.. this old dude was doing it. And man.. sometimes you just want to ask people why they haven't retired yet. He's using this touch screen on the X-Ray machine and for the life of him couldn't figure it out. I must have sat there in a dazed fever induced silence watched him go through the same screens over and over.. sigh. So around 1AM, four hours after I get there.. the doctor tells me I have pneumonia.. gives me antibiotics and tylenol and says no work for you! ...

Wow.. I feel like crap I'll post more later.

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PS Look forward to talking to yall when I can