shin-shoryuken

Not much to say. Hooked up my Xbox to Xbox Live again over the weekend. Panda Thug and I then proceeded to own / get owned in some Street Fighter. It was much fun. Yes. Also bought Mortal Kombat Shaolin Monks which has an unlockable Mortal Kombat II on the same disc. Its odd playing some of these games that were a huge part of my teenage years. Crap. You know you're getting old when you say something like.. back in my teenage years. I'm going to go smack my head against the wall a bit now.

Almost 28 and still haven't saved the world. I'm such a fucking slacker. Who am I kidding though.. I can't even pay off my damn credit card debt right now. DOH.....

I understand why some people get addicted to playing online games. I probably was moreso than I am now "back in my teenage years". But it's healthy to be able to self analyze and check yourself when it gets out of control.

The guest cats staying at my place will be going back to Haruka's friend Digiblonde, and they made me miss my cats more. Pets are important if you don't have kids because it's a nice feeling to know that someone is depending on you to feed them and give them attention... oh wait.. i have friends like that to. Ok nevermind all that.

4..3..2..1... earth beloow us.. drifting falling floating weightless calling calling... sorry that was playing on winamp.

Oh I just remembered I never reported on how Cali went. My boys Koopa Troopa and Yoga Fire took me out to play some Street Fighter hehe. Koopa also took me to this industrial club.. goth chicks everywhere. It was.. interesting. It reminded me of the tidbit Tallulah once said about Goth people "I'm so Goth I'm DEAD!". Amusing.

Lame. I should get back to work.

Holla.

- D -


Gwen Stefani - Cool

It's hard to remember how it felt before
Now I found the love of my life
Passes things, get more comfortable
Everything is going right

And after all the obstacles
It's good to see you now with someone else
And it's such a miracle that you and me are still good friends
After all that we've been through
I know we're cool
I know we're cool

We used to think it was impossible
Now you call me by my new last name
Memories seem like so long ago
Time always kills the pain

Remember Harbor Boulevard
The dreaming days where the mess was made
Look how all the kids have grown, oh
We have changed but we're still the same
After all that we've been through
I know we're cool
I know we're cool

Yeah, I know we're cool

And I'll be happy for you
If you can be happy for me
Circles and triangles
And now we're hanging out with your new girlfriend
So far from where we've been
I know we're cool
I know we're cool

C-cool, I know we're cool
I know we're cool

When November Ends...

Busy. Nothing clever or witty to write at the moment. I'm still here. If you need to get in touch with me I'm sure you'll be able to if you make the effort to do so. I got a computer up and running but need to get a new video card for it this weekend because as a gamer.. it's not up to par.

Though September has passed already, this song is fitting when dealing with the loss of a loved one. Give someone a hug. Awesome.

Green Day - Wake Me Up When September Ends

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when september ends

Like my fathers come to pass
Seven years has gone so fast
Wake me up when september ends

Here comes the rain again
Falling from the stars
Drenched in my pain again
Becoming who we are

As my memory rests
But never forgets what I lost
Wake me up when september ends

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when september ends

Ring out the bells again
Like we did when spring began
Wake me up when september ends

Here comes the rain again
Falling from the stars
Drenched in my pain again
Becoming who we are

As my memory rests
But never forgets what I lost
Wake me up when september ends
Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when september ends

Like my fathers come to pass
Twenty years has gone so fast
Wake me up when september ends

Right back where we started from...

So today I'm flying out to Cali to be exact I'll be going to Orange County and Santa Monica for work and will not be back until Sunday. The fact that the opening piano chords are in my head from THE OC are slowly driving me insane.

Not much to write about hmm.. got a raise, that's dope considering how much I've been working and the fact that they never adjusted my salary after I took my current position. Should also get a raise in March to. WOOT! Wanna be baller in the house!

How are all of you? I haven't heard from many people as of late.

My compy at home died... sigh. Something sad about being in IT and not being able to fix your main computer. Hell, I even have cuts on my hand from replacing every piece of hardware in the damn thing still nothing... it just lost the will to live :(

Anyway.. hope everyone is well. I'll give a holla when I can.

- D -

Holy shit, this song really does have lyrics

California - Phantom Planet

We've been on the run
Driving in the sun
Looking out for Number 1
California here we come
Right back where we started from
Hustlers grab your guns
Your shadow weighs a ton
Driving down the 101
California here we come
Right back where we started from
California!
Here we come!
On the stereo
Listen as we go
Nothing's gonna stop me now
California here we come
Right back where we started from
Pedal to the floor
Thinkin' of the roar
Gotta get us to the show
California here we come
Right back where we started from
California!
Here we come!

Guacamole

Ok so this is kind of gross at the same time semi-amusing. I'll apologize in advance.
The following is an Email I sent to Haruka today while I was sitting here at work hehe.
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Ohmigod.. did you ever blow your nose so hard that so much or such a huge.. chunk come out that you were almost proud like giving birth?

I was so shocked and surprised I almost cried...

But.. now I can breathe through the left side of my nose I just need to have twins so I can breathe out the right side.

Ok.. just thought I'd share. Wow.

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My nose kinda hurts now.. awesome but hey I can breathe wheeeeeee... only 2 hours left.. I need to invent some sort of illegal designer narcotic just so I can call it something clever like how the movie Minority Report had the drug 'Clarity'. Current modern day drugs are all like.. I need some rock.. some weed,, some heroin. Not very smart on the people who created or thought of thoe names because it's not like you can use that in everyday sentences unlike.. damn I could sure use some clarity right now. Ok this post is going downhill. Good job.

- D -

I Guess I'll Die Another Day

So... I'm not dead still a bit sick though. Lame. Someone told me the other day I work to much / to hard which is why I'm sick. I kind of laughed and nearly cried at the thought of that because what it boils down to is.. the days of not having to be responsible are so long gone, I can't even remember them. Lame.

So Javi's wedding reception was pretty good. Got there late cuz I had to work till 5 this and that but whatever. Sat down at the table they were like.. here's your dinner. After having driven over an hour to get there I was like... SWEET!. Poor Donovan.. soon as I get there and talk to everyone and the table, we look up at him sitting at the head table and all start laughing which of course causes him to be like.. wtf? I was half expecting him to stand up in his tux and full out yell "Goddamit I hear you talking about me"... ah good times. Haruka and I didn't stay to long though. We ate, we danced, we speed back to the city. Sickness was still burning pretty hot that night.

The next night we had dinner with Dono again out in the burbs.. boo. But sall good, not like we get to see Dono everday anymore.

Haruka got me some stuff for Sweetest Day aka The Hallmark Valentine's Day for men. I got a ring that she put alot of thought into, most impressive, and a bracelet that's heavy and shiney.. kinda makes me wrap it around my knuckles and hit people with it. I'm sure however that is not her original idea when she got it for me. She's getting earrings I feel but I still have to go find some that are nice. Yes.

I need to get over being sick because there's an issue I have to deal with where someone needs to stop slacking and needs a kick in the ass or a smack to the head. Awesome.

I'll write more eventually when the sickness and or work get up off me.

Oh also had a quick check-in with Tallula and Ninja Diva today. I'm glad they're both doing well. Gotta check in with people now and then just to know they're okay, ya know?

- D -

The Things We Do In Person

So I'm slowly returning to the land of the living. I've been sick as hell for the past week now. Missed three or so days of work even. Yeah.. boss wasn't to pleased about that but ya know what.. I came in and everyone saw how sick I was and he told me to go home soooo whatever.

Haven't posted for awhile so not sure where to start. The Nine Inch Nails concert last week was pretty good. It did make me feel a bit out of place though. Almost like.. did I outgrow all of this? The people walking around with their face painted, or all punked / gothed out. I was much angrier when I was younger and I accept that. But I think the older I get.. the more I just don't let things phase me and the more nonchalant I become about everything. There were definitely a couple of things that amused me;

The lone white guy dancing.. wildy.. looking like a fool. (A couple of other people and I were just looking at him like.. wtf?)

The older larger black lady that was jamming out to NIN. (I have no response to that other than.. whoa)

The couple who though they were at an Anime convention. (If only I could speak fluent japanese I would have so fucked with them)

All the 'Crow' wannabes. (Dude.. do you know what year it is?)

The guy who thinks because he's in a mosh pit he has to take off his shirt and subject everyone else around him to his sweat. (Fucking ew)

There was however this little ass girl in the front of the pit who was holding her own let alone pushing other people around. (Impressive)

Uhh that's probably not all of it, but its all that I can remember. One other comment about the concert.. when the fuck did concert shirts becom $40 to $50??? F that.. you know what I could do with $50? Hell.. I could use it for credit card payments.. or for things like.. gas.. and food. Maybe I really am getting old.. sigh.

Aside from the concert this and that has been going on. Friend of mine moved in with Haruka and I. He needed a place to crash for a bit so why not I'm not going to leave a bro out on the street. I'm not sure what to call him on here.. hmm.

Ah crap.. I'll expand on all this later I started this 3 hours ago and I need to leave so I can make it time to go home.. change into a suit... then drive out to the burbs for Javi's wedding reception. Just damn.

- D -

Oohhh I'm gonna see Donovan tonight.. ahahah he'll prolly get drunkass to.. good times haha.

Pretty Hate Machine in a Downward Spiral

I feel like I'm getting a bit to old to go to these but..

NIN Concert tonight.. bitches!

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Nine Inch Nails - We're In This Together Now

(Partial)

the farther I fall I'm beside you
as lost as I get I will find you
the deeper the wound I'm inside you
forever and ever I am a part of

you and me
we're in this together now
none of them can stop us now
we will make it through somehow

you and me
if the world should break in two
until the very end of me
until the very end of you

And mannnny moooore

Yesterday was Haruka's birthday so I was a bit busy running around and "plotting" and all that. So I didn't have a chance to post

Tanjoubi omedetou !

Until now.

Amusing story from last night... I burned the CRAP outta my finger lighting the candles on Haruka's birthday cake. She says afterwards.. why didn't you just get me the numbers that are candles instead? My response? Because these were pink and that's your favorite color. Pfft. I win =)
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Also today is Donovan's Birthday.

Slacker isn't on any of the chat programs. He's probably busy studying... studying women's asses in a bar that is. Good Job.

He's in AX so he can get his gift when he comes back to visit in a couple of weeks IF he brings my sunglasses.. get that Dono.. Sunglasses for the win. Awesome.

No lyrics or anything else big today no time cuz work still sucks. Yes. Still.

- D -

Women of ASU

So Donovan has this posted on his blog.

www.palmwalk.com

It's apparently the ASU version of the 'Hot or Not' website.
Looking through it, it's a scale of 1 to 10 on if you think
a girl is hot. Apparenly over 700 people have voted on some
of these pics and sadly the top score is only 6. something.

What the hell kind of standards do these 700+ people have
in deciding if they think a girl is hot or not? Jeebus.

- D -

Exploding Butter !

Just a friendly word of caution: Those little plastic things of butter they give you at restaurants for your bread.. the ones that look like coffee creamers but actually have butter in them? Yeah... contents may explode under pressure.

Example.

Dhavid and Haruka at lunch. Dhavid picking one up and squeezing.. all the sudden.. PLLOOPP.. oh.. look I have butter on my hands now and it shot across the table.

Awesome.

- D -

I've decided

That I'm going to start working out and training upstairs at work again. I feel this is mainly because they have a punching bag and I need to get some aggression and anger out.

Anger is an interesting thing I feel. It takes alot of energy to maintain a certain level of Anger / Angst and afterwards depending how angry you were, it can leave you drained mentally and physically. However, at the same time it can be what drives you and you can draw strength from it when you feel you need a little extra push.

Grr. Grr I say.

I'm trying to help one of the 'bros' and he'll be staying at my place for a bit till he and Panda Thug get a place of their own. What can we do in life besides try right?

When you stop trying, that's when you may as well lay down and die or get back up and try a different plan of attack. Otherwise. Good job, game over.

I'm annoyed that none of my local friends like Depeche Mode enough to go to a concert.. hmm.. crap come to think of it there might have been one or two people I could have hit up to go.. now I need to get tickets and they're sold out... GRR
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Depeche Mode - Precious

Precious and fragile things
Need special handling
My God what have we done to you
We always tried to share
The tenderest of care
Now look what we have put you through

Things get damaged
Things get broken
I thought we'd manage
But words left unspoken
Left us so brittle
There was so little left to give

Angels with silver wings
Shouldn't know suffering
I wish I could take the pain for you
If God has a master plan
That only He understands
I hope it's your eyes He's seeing through

Things get damaged
Things get broken
I thought we'd manage
But words left unspoken
Left us so brittle
There was so little left to give

I pray you learn to trust
Have faith in both of us
And keep room in your hearts for two

Things get damaged
Things get broken
I thought we'd manage
But words left unspoken
Left us so brittle
There was so little left to give

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- D -

Seriously. Just Damn.

7:41am.. Email to the blackberry from my manager. Message reads. Anyone awake yet? 8:01am , call to my personal cell from manager.. blah blah blah do this do that.. my reply.. ok I'll handle it first thing when I get in.. I'm on the road right now and on my way.

Normal start time 8:30am.

I am clearly stating for the record that I hate working on projects that deal with people who are lazy or don't do their job correctly causing everyone else involved with the project to have to put in even more time and effort thereby raising their stress levels even higher... I feel like a cross between Tweak and the goth kid from South Park right now.
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Plumb- Damaged

Dreaming comes so easily
'Cause it's all that
I've ever know
True love is a fairy tale
I'm damaged, so
How would I know
I'm scared and I'm alone
I'm ashamed
And I need for you to know

I didn't say all the things
That I wanted to say
And you can't take back
What you've taken away
'Cause I feel you,
I feel you near me

Healing comes so painfully
And it chills to the bone
Will anyone get close to me?
I'm damaged, as
I'm sure you know

There's mending for my soul
An ending to this fear
Forgiveness for a man
Who was stronger
I was just a little girl, but
I can't go back
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I like that song at the same time.. it kind of makes me think of other bad things.. hrm.. damn good job playlist on random. GAH.

Life Work Balance.. ha!

Work's been busy and I've had to hit the ground running after getting back from San Francisco last week. Don't want to go to much into detail about the trip. It had it's moments that's about all I'm going to say there.

Anyway. I'll update when I get a chance. I can say I've been borderline angry / depressed these past couple of days and I'm still trying to figure out the cause... probably work. I dunno.

Peace.

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New Order - Subculture

I like walking in the park
When it gets late at night
I move `round in the dark
And leave when it gets light
I sit around by day
Tied up in chains so tight
These crazy words of mine
So wrong they could be
What do I get out of this?
I always try, I always miss
One of these days you'll go back to your home
You won't even notice that you are alone
One of these days when you sit by yourself
You'll realise you can't shaft without someone else
In the end you will submit
It's got to hurt a little bit

I like talking in my sleep
When people work so hard
They need what they can't keep
A choice that leaves them scarred
A room without a view
Unveils the truth so soon
And when the sun goes down
You've lost what you had
What do I get out of this?
I always try, I always miss
One of these days you'll go back to your home
You won't even notice that you are alone
One of these days when you sit by yourself
You'll realise you can't shaft without someone else
In the end you will submit
It's got to hurt a little bit


PS. I miss R & T *sigh*

I Will Always

Man.. this has got to be one of the coolest covers I've ever heard. This group Snake River Conspiracy does a version of The Cure song, Lovesong. It's really good if you like SRC's style of music. The lead singer sounds like an older cooler version of Stella Soleil formerly of the band Sister Soleil (which was soooooo much better than her solo career in my opinion).

Anyway, check out SRC if you like industrial/hard like music with a chick singing because they rock.

- D -
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Lovesong - Snake River Conspiracy version

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am whole again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am whole again
Aah aah aah aah
aah aah aah
aah aah aah aah
aah aah aah
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am young again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am fun again
However far away, I will always love you
However long I stay, I will always love you
Whatever words I say, I will always love you
I will always love you
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am free again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am clean again
However far away, I will always love you
However long I stay, I will always love you
Whatever words I say, I will always love you
I will always love you
I will always love you
I will always love you
I will love you
I will make you
I will take you
I will fuck you
Aah aah aah aah
aah aah aah
aah aah aah aah
aah aah aah
Always love you, always you
Always love you, always you

Somewhere over...

To quote Ferris Bueler's Day Off,
"What are we going to do today?"
"The question you should be asking is, what AREN'T we going to do today?"
That about sums up the blur of the weekend hehe.

I was talking to ALG, and she told be the background story of the Hawaiian singer Israel Kamakawiwo'ole
Check out this mp3 here. It's an 8MB file so it's a bit large. I first heard this song watching an episode of ER. It was the episode where Dr. Green dies so whenever I hear it, I associate it with a really sad event. Reading Israel's background to it's even more sad, at the same time there can be some happiness found there. It's a bit complicated to explain I guess. Either way, I dig it, and it's sad that he died but his ashes were spread into the ocean of his homeland which sounds like a good way to finally be at peace.

A special mention to a friend of mine who is currently going through cancer treatments starting today. There's respect and admiration for anyone that has to go through and endure the things you have to and remember if you need someone to talk to, that's why the phone was invented. Sorry I can't do much else right now, but all we can do in life is try our best and do what we can right? Keep your chin up, you're stubborn enough to make it through and your palm reading sounded much better than mine afterall.

I'm going to go home after work.. maybe take a nap.. or just play more World of Warcraft hehehe... awesome.

This Wed I'm going to join Haruka in SF. I'll have to promise that I'll keep the hitting on of her younger sister and her friends to a minimum hehe.

There's probably more I have on my mind right now.. but lack of sleep and the impending workload being forced on me beckons.

Lates,

- D -

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Israel K - Somewhere Over The Rainbow

Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high
And the dreams that you dreamed of
Once in a lullaby ii ii iii
Somewhere over the rainbow
Blue birds fly
And the dreams that you dreamed of
Dreams really do come true ooh ooooh
Someday I'll wish upon a star
Wake up where the clouds are far behind me ee ee eeh
Where trouble melts like lemon drops
High above the chimney tops thats where you'll find me oh
Somewhere over the rainbow bluebirds fly
And the dream that you dare to,why, oh why can't I? i iiii

Well I see trees of green and
Red roses too,
I'll watch them bloom for me and you
And I think to myself
What a wonderful world

Well I see skies of blue and I see clouds of white
And the brightness of day
I like the dark and I think to myself
What a wonderful world

The colors of the rainbow so pretty in the sky
Are also on the faces of people passing by
I see friends shaking hands
Saying, "How do you do?"
They're really saying, I...I love you
I hear babies cry and I watch them grow,
They'll learn much more
Than we'll know
And I think to myself
What a wonderful world (w)oohoorld

Someday I'll wish upon a star,
Wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where trouble melts like lemon drops
High above the chimney top that's where you'll find me
Oh, Somewhere over the rainbow way up high
And the dream that you dare to, why, oh why can't I? I hiii ?

Ms. Cleo could be right...

This amuses me to no end this morning...

Aquarius

Daily extended (by Astrology.com)
You've got an intensely devoted, loyal heart -- and a questing, independent spirit that just won't be tied down. This is a tough combo for some people to get, but rest assured, there are those out there who cherish this quixotic and delightful mixture. Someone who wants to blend their life with yours will understand why it is you who possess both these qualities in abundance -- and won't ask you to get rid of one or the other to satisfy them. Hang in there.

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My co-workers no longer think it weird or odd to see me give my laptop the finger at random times during the day.

Track on repeat - Eyes on Me.

Damn it. I should do some work. Tired of this crap though. Freaking being on call with people calling me at 2am for stupid computer issues. You swear I'm a freaking doctor.. sigh.

I need to win the lotto. Oh please oh please let me win the lotto and damn would people get hooked up.. cuz it's no fun to be rich by yourself.

meh.

- d -

Ah literature

Marmion: Canto vi Stanza 17
XVII.

'In brief my lord, we both descried— For then I stood by Henry's side— The Palmer mount and outwards ride Upon the earl's own favorite steed. All sheathed he was in armor bright, And much resembled that same knight Subdued by you in Cotswold fight; Lord Angus wished him speed.'— The instant that Fitz-Eustace spoke, A sudden light on Marmion broke:— 'Ah! dastard fool, to reason lost!' He muttered; ''T was nor fay nor ghost I met upon the moonlight wold, But living man of earthly mould.— O dotage blind and gross! Had I but fought as wont, one thrust Had laid De Wilton in the dust, My path no more to cross.— How stand we now?— he told his tale To Douglas, and with some avail; 'T was therefore gloomed his rugged brow.— Will Surrey dare to entertain 'Gainst Marmion charge disproved and vain? Small risk of that, I trow. Yet Clare's sharp questions must I shun, Must separate Constance from the nun— Oh! what a tangled web we weave When first we practise to deceive! A Palmer too!— no wonder why I felt rebuked beneath his eye; I might have known there was but one Whose look could quell Lord Marmion.'

But I want to escape to

Yeah I'm pretty surprised myself that I like this song.
Meh, what can you do.

~ dhavid
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Enrique Inglesias - Escape

Here's how it goes
You and me, up and down, but maybe this time
We'll get it right
Worth the fight
Cause love is something you can't shake
When it breaks all it takes is some trying

CHORUS
IF you feel like leavin'
Im not gonna make you stay
But soon you'll be findin
You can run, you can hide but ou can't escape my love
You can run, you can hide but ou can't escape my love

So, if you go
You should know
It's hard just to forget the past, so fast
It was good
It was bad
but it was real
And thats all you have in the end, all that matters

IF you feel like leavin'
Im not gonna make you stay
But soon you'll be findin
You can run, you can hide but ou can't escape my love
You can run, you can hide but ou can't escape my love

You can run, you can hide but ou can't escape my love
You can run, you can hide but ou can't escape my love
Here's how it goes, all it takes is some trying
If you feel like leaving
I'm not gonna make you stay
But soon you'll be finding
You can run, you can hide but you can't escape my lvoe
If you feel like leavin
I'm not gonna make you stay
But soon you'll be fidin'
You can run you can hide but you can't escape my love
You can run (x10)

You can run, you can hide but ou can't escape my love
You can run, you can hide but ou can't escape my

Damn that's HOT!

No I'm not just talking about the women in Tempe AZ, I'm talkin about the burn your ass if you sit on the sidewalk temperatures. Misters spraying cold water are probably the best things anyone's ever invented in that area.

The drive to AZ was a bit long and for the most part uneventful. New Mexico was definitely pretty and I'll need to go back there sometime with the Nikon. And next time I'm in AZ I need to stop in Monument Valley and the Grand Canyon.. oh yeah Roswell, New Mexico!

Two words for Donovan. Las. Vegas. Just damn.

Some people join match.com for possible hookups, this guy goes back to college haha. On the reals though, good luck with all that, I've always been proud of you.. now send me my damn sunglasses before my eyes melt.

Work is handing my ass to me. Awesome. I'll write more when I don't have a shotgun over my shoulder waiting to be fired.

- d -

Hope and another lifetime

Today's song on repeat is 'Together Again' by Sash!. It's so loud I think my ears are going to bleed but that's okay because I love this song. It's a song that's like a soundtrack to a movie with a hero or heroine making a promise to the one they love. Making a promise that one day no matter what they will return and the two will be united again.

Am I overthinking the song? Probably. At the same time I also like it because songs that convey emotions that can just suck you in are great. This song gives you hope and makes you want to cheer. While say 'Immortal' or 'Hello' from Evanescence makes you want to slit your wrists. It's the point that the music has the ability to move you and to make you feel something even if you don't want to. Is it a good or bad thing? Yes.

Back to work and listening to this song.

~dhavid