Life Work Balance.. ha!

Work's been busy and I've had to hit the ground running after getting back from San Francisco last week. Don't want to go to much into detail about the trip. It had it's moments that's about all I'm going to say there.

Anyway. I'll update when I get a chance. I can say I've been borderline angry / depressed these past couple of days and I'm still trying to figure out the cause... probably work. I dunno.

Peace.

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New Order - Subculture

I like walking in the park
When it gets late at night
I move `round in the dark
And leave when it gets light
I sit around by day
Tied up in chains so tight
These crazy words of mine
So wrong they could be
What do I get out of this?
I always try, I always miss
One of these days you'll go back to your home
You won't even notice that you are alone
One of these days when you sit by yourself
You'll realise you can't shaft without someone else
In the end you will submit
It's got to hurt a little bit

I like talking in my sleep
When people work so hard
They need what they can't keep
A choice that leaves them scarred
A room without a view
Unveils the truth so soon
And when the sun goes down
You've lost what you had
What do I get out of this?
I always try, I always miss
One of these days you'll go back to your home
You won't even notice that you are alone
One of these days when you sit by yourself
You'll realise you can't shaft without someone else
In the end you will submit
It's got to hurt a little bit


PS. I miss R & T *sigh*

I Will Always

Man.. this has got to be one of the coolest covers I've ever heard. This group Snake River Conspiracy does a version of The Cure song, Lovesong. It's really good if you like SRC's style of music. The lead singer sounds like an older cooler version of Stella Soleil formerly of the band Sister Soleil (which was soooooo much better than her solo career in my opinion).

Anyway, check out SRC if you like industrial/hard like music with a chick singing because they rock.

- D -
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Lovesong - Snake River Conspiracy version

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am whole again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am whole again
Aah aah aah aah
aah aah aah
aah aah aah aah
aah aah aah
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am young again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am fun again
However far away, I will always love you
However long I stay, I will always love you
Whatever words I say, I will always love you
I will always love you
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am free again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am clean again
However far away, I will always love you
However long I stay, I will always love you
Whatever words I say, I will always love you
I will always love you
I will always love you
I will always love you
I will love you
I will make you
I will take you
I will fuck you
Aah aah aah aah
aah aah aah
aah aah aah aah
aah aah aah
Always love you, always you
Always love you, always you

Somewhere over...

To quote Ferris Bueler's Day Off,
"What are we going to do today?"
"The question you should be asking is, what AREN'T we going to do today?"
That about sums up the blur of the weekend hehe.

I was talking to ALG, and she told be the background story of the Hawaiian singer Israel Kamakawiwo'ole
Check out this mp3 here. It's an 8MB file so it's a bit large. I first heard this song watching an episode of ER. It was the episode where Dr. Green dies so whenever I hear it, I associate it with a really sad event. Reading Israel's background to it's even more sad, at the same time there can be some happiness found there. It's a bit complicated to explain I guess. Either way, I dig it, and it's sad that he died but his ashes were spread into the ocean of his homeland which sounds like a good way to finally be at peace.

A special mention to a friend of mine who is currently going through cancer treatments starting today. There's respect and admiration for anyone that has to go through and endure the things you have to and remember if you need someone to talk to, that's why the phone was invented. Sorry I can't do much else right now, but all we can do in life is try our best and do what we can right? Keep your chin up, you're stubborn enough to make it through and your palm reading sounded much better than mine afterall.

I'm going to go home after work.. maybe take a nap.. or just play more World of Warcraft hehehe... awesome.

This Wed I'm going to join Haruka in SF. I'll have to promise that I'll keep the hitting on of her younger sister and her friends to a minimum hehe.

There's probably more I have on my mind right now.. but lack of sleep and the impending workload being forced on me beckons.

Lates,

- D -

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Israel K - Somewhere Over The Rainbow

Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high
And the dreams that you dreamed of
Once in a lullaby ii ii iii
Somewhere over the rainbow
Blue birds fly
And the dreams that you dreamed of
Dreams really do come true ooh ooooh
Someday I'll wish upon a star
Wake up where the clouds are far behind me ee ee eeh
Where trouble melts like lemon drops
High above the chimney tops thats where you'll find me oh
Somewhere over the rainbow bluebirds fly
And the dream that you dare to,why, oh why can't I? i iiii

Well I see trees of green and
Red roses too,
I'll watch them bloom for me and you
And I think to myself
What a wonderful world

Well I see skies of blue and I see clouds of white
And the brightness of day
I like the dark and I think to myself
What a wonderful world

The colors of the rainbow so pretty in the sky
Are also on the faces of people passing by
I see friends shaking hands
Saying, "How do you do?"
They're really saying, I...I love you
I hear babies cry and I watch them grow,
They'll learn much more
Than we'll know
And I think to myself
What a wonderful world (w)oohoorld

Someday I'll wish upon a star,
Wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where trouble melts like lemon drops
High above the chimney top that's where you'll find me
Oh, Somewhere over the rainbow way up high
And the dream that you dare to, why, oh why can't I? I hiii ?

Ms. Cleo could be right...

This amuses me to no end this morning...

Aquarius

Daily extended (by Astrology.com)
You've got an intensely devoted, loyal heart -- and a questing, independent spirit that just won't be tied down. This is a tough combo for some people to get, but rest assured, there are those out there who cherish this quixotic and delightful mixture. Someone who wants to blend their life with yours will understand why it is you who possess both these qualities in abundance -- and won't ask you to get rid of one or the other to satisfy them. Hang in there.

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My co-workers no longer think it weird or odd to see me give my laptop the finger at random times during the day.

Track on repeat - Eyes on Me.

Damn it. I should do some work. Tired of this crap though. Freaking being on call with people calling me at 2am for stupid computer issues. You swear I'm a freaking doctor.. sigh.

I need to win the lotto. Oh please oh please let me win the lotto and damn would people get hooked up.. cuz it's no fun to be rich by yourself.

meh.

- d -

Ah literature

Marmion: Canto vi Stanza 17
XVII.

'In brief my lord, we both descried— For then I stood by Henry's side— The Palmer mount and outwards ride Upon the earl's own favorite steed. All sheathed he was in armor bright, And much resembled that same knight Subdued by you in Cotswold fight; Lord Angus wished him speed.'— The instant that Fitz-Eustace spoke, A sudden light on Marmion broke:— 'Ah! dastard fool, to reason lost!' He muttered; ''T was nor fay nor ghost I met upon the moonlight wold, But living man of earthly mould.— O dotage blind and gross! Had I but fought as wont, one thrust Had laid De Wilton in the dust, My path no more to cross.— How stand we now?— he told his tale To Douglas, and with some avail; 'T was therefore gloomed his rugged brow.— Will Surrey dare to entertain 'Gainst Marmion charge disproved and vain? Small risk of that, I trow. Yet Clare's sharp questions must I shun, Must separate Constance from the nun— Oh! what a tangled web we weave When first we practise to deceive! A Palmer too!— no wonder why I felt rebuked beneath his eye; I might have known there was but one Whose look could quell Lord Marmion.'

But I want to escape to

Yeah I'm pretty surprised myself that I like this song.
Meh, what can you do.

~ dhavid
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Enrique Inglesias - Escape

Here's how it goes
You and me, up and down, but maybe this time
We'll get it right
Worth the fight
Cause love is something you can't shake
When it breaks all it takes is some trying

CHORUS
IF you feel like leavin'
Im not gonna make you stay
But soon you'll be findin
You can run, you can hide but ou can't escape my love
You can run, you can hide but ou can't escape my love

So, if you go
You should know
It's hard just to forget the past, so fast
It was good
It was bad
but it was real
And thats all you have in the end, all that matters

IF you feel like leavin'
Im not gonna make you stay
But soon you'll be findin
You can run, you can hide but ou can't escape my love
You can run, you can hide but ou can't escape my love

You can run, you can hide but ou can't escape my love
You can run, you can hide but ou can't escape my love
Here's how it goes, all it takes is some trying
If you feel like leaving
I'm not gonna make you stay
But soon you'll be finding
You can run, you can hide but you can't escape my lvoe
If you feel like leavin
I'm not gonna make you stay
But soon you'll be fidin'
You can run you can hide but you can't escape my love
You can run (x10)

You can run, you can hide but ou can't escape my love
You can run, you can hide but ou can't escape my

Damn that's HOT!

No I'm not just talking about the women in Tempe AZ, I'm talkin about the burn your ass if you sit on the sidewalk temperatures. Misters spraying cold water are probably the best things anyone's ever invented in that area.

The drive to AZ was a bit long and for the most part uneventful. New Mexico was definitely pretty and I'll need to go back there sometime with the Nikon. And next time I'm in AZ I need to stop in Monument Valley and the Grand Canyon.. oh yeah Roswell, New Mexico!

Two words for Donovan. Las. Vegas. Just damn.

Some people join match.com for possible hookups, this guy goes back to college haha. On the reals though, good luck with all that, I've always been proud of you.. now send me my damn sunglasses before my eyes melt.

Work is handing my ass to me. Awesome. I'll write more when I don't have a shotgun over my shoulder waiting to be fired.

- d -

Hope and another lifetime

Today's song on repeat is 'Together Again' by Sash!. It's so loud I think my ears are going to bleed but that's okay because I love this song. It's a song that's like a soundtrack to a movie with a hero or heroine making a promise to the one they love. Making a promise that one day no matter what they will return and the two will be united again.

Am I overthinking the song? Probably. At the same time I also like it because songs that convey emotions that can just suck you in are great. This song gives you hope and makes you want to cheer. While say 'Immortal' or 'Hello' from Evanescence makes you want to slit your wrists. It's the point that the music has the ability to move you and to make you feel something even if you don't want to. Is it a good or bad thing? Yes.

Back to work and listening to this song.

~dhavid

Help, I need a gypsy

A conversation Haruka and I had the other night she mentioned it looked like I had a short life line on my palm. Awesome. So that's been banging around in my head. How much do I believe in pre-destined things and fate? It's such a hard question. Because here's the thing.. we're supposed to have free will, and I can say all I want that I make my own destiny and follow my own choices.. at the same time, that doesn't meant that every decision I make wasn't already pre-destined... DOH!..

So check this site out I just read my palm using it, well to the best of my ability in the current low lighting conditions in the office right now.
http://www.ofesite.com/spirit/palm/palm.htm

They have a section where you can fill out the questions and get a generic reading. Generic or not.. I'm not really sure how to react to mine...
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Dear Dhavid,

Here is your personal palm reading! This will be a general reading of your palm, and what it says about you and your personality. Enjoy.

First let's take a look at your Life Line. Your Life Line is short and strong, which shows vitality and drive, as well as a strong ability to overcome health problems. The wavey quality of your Life Line does seem to indicate that you may experience variable health, and that you may not always be very energetic. When the Life Line crosses the palm, as it does in you case, it indicates a life affected by travel. Your life may also be heavily influenced by imagination. A chained Life Line indicates various health problems, both physical and emotional. Many people with allergies have such a line as well.

Now let's see what your Head Line had to say. The light and wavy quality of your Head Line seems to mimic the way you think. While you don't necessarily lack intellectuality, you don't always think about things in much depth, and sometimes you may have problems concentrating on more than one thing at a time. A chained Head Line shows agitation and tension at different points in your life. The joining of your Head Line and Life Line at the beginning indicates that your strong sense of mind generally rules over your body. You also look at childhood with a cautious and fearful outlook.

The last line we'll look at is your Heart Line. A selfish and materialistic look at love is characteristic to those like you whose Heart Line start below the middle finger. A long Heart Line like yours, running almost all the way across the palm, represents an idealist in love. In love you tend to look for those whose status rises above your own, and you have a great respect for them. Those little lines you see running downward from your Heart Line indicate disappointments in love.

You have a spade-shaped hand. This is the hand of an inventor. You are probably very good with all things mechanical. Often those who've forged new paths in science and engineering have a spade-shaped hand. Women who have this type of hand enjoy do-it-yourself projects (decorating and sewing). It also gives these women a manual dexterity greater than most men have.

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Just damn. That's almost as spot on as the fortune teller I saw in New Orleans a couple of years ago. If there's any truths in fortune telling, I feel the creepy lady in the back room of the voodoo shop I was in would be the real deal (if that exists).

On a sidenote I saw Skeleton Key over the weekend. The repeating mantra of If you don't believe it can't hurt you.. I don't agree with that. It's the arguement of say, the devil. The classic line of "I don't believe in the devil", responded with ,"That doesn't mean he doesn't believe in you". Sure you should keep an open mind about things, but sometimes it's a little much and you're just like.. screw this. If this or that is real, and if things are destined to happen.. then what the hell.

Personally I'm hoping that if something is "written in the stars" for me, that it doesn't suck complete ass because who wants to grow up to be a cosmic joke?

~dhavid

PS And no, I was not smoking 'the pot' while writing this.

Venture forth little tadpole

Ok, so Donovan isn't the same 15 year old little brother that had "Serious Fun With a Laser Gun", anymore but still. I just wanted to clearly say that I'm proud of both him and his younger brother way formlery known as Kid Thunder. I've always tried to play the role of older brother to these two and two others. Not so much because I thought they needed it but probably more because I felt that I would have liked an older brother at some points in my life as well. I'm rambling, it's hard to put down those thoughts on paper but the point is I'm proud of all of them and if ever they needed me, I'd be there for them. Though Dono, try not to get into trouble because if I have to fly to AZ to much I might melt or be forced to live off of the water found inside a cactus!

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Dido - Here With Me

I didn't hear you leave
I wonder how am I still here
And I don't want to move a thing
It might change my memory

[Chorus:]
Oh I am what I am
I'll do what I want
But I can't hide
I won't go
I won't sleep
I can't breathe
Until you're resting here with me
I won't leave
I can't hide
I cannot be
Until you're resting here with me

I don't want to call my friends
They might wake me from this dream
And I can't leave this bed
Risk forgetting all that's been

[Chorus ]

PS. Call me a chick for having this picked out but, this is the song that one day I'm going to dance to at my wedding.

Oh hey look at that

So I was checking my Yahoo email this morning before starting on all this crapass work I have to do and this story pops up.

http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20050812/ap_on_re_us/secret_waterfall

This is a quote from the story.

"It wasn't on a map, no one on the trail crew knew about it. People who been here 27 years had never seen it," said Milestone, who is leading an effort to clear a trail to the newly named Whiskeytown Falls. It's expected to be finished by next summer."

Wtf.. assholes. How do you "discover" a waterfall? It's not like it just came outta nowhere and it's not in some remote rain forest deep in the jungle by the giant Anacondas. Anyway, that story made me laugh and it helps illustrate that regardless of what field you work in or wherever you are, there will always be slacker ass slackers that are as useful as a umbrella with holes in it. (It's raining out right now in Chicago)

I'm going to start slapping management with a trout if they don't give me a "market value adjustment" in the very near future that's independent of any future promotions and performance reviews. Grr. Grr I say.

~dhavid

Some Things Just.. Are.

So I was chatting with a friend of mine and she sends me this link. And my reply to this was that "my primary thought when looking at this page is ohh look at the pretty color." And I can accept that some people are definitely more intelligent than I am.. but that's ok because ya know, it gives me something to work harder for. Damn if I want to ever get stuck at a cocktail party and not be able to discuss the inner workings of the cellular structure of a genome and all of its genetic content whether it be contained in a haploid set of chromosomes in eukaryotes, in a single chromosome in bacteria, or in the DNA or RNA of viruses...

Over the weekend some I visited some friends who recently moved into the city about 5 minutes from me. These guys are younger and they're going to college downtown. Walking into their place was hilarious. It was like.. Bachelor pad meets Internet Cafe meets Real World College Dorm room. Needless to say.. we played video games till 4 or so in the morning when I figured it'd be best to go home before the sun was up completely.

I was doing a Yahoo search on names since I was bored.. I found a couple of entries for myself which was bad since it was links to things like really bad teenage poetry. Needless to say.. those pages were found and removed hehe or at least made unsearchable.

This coming weekend is Donovan's going away party. Damn. People are gonna be drunk as hell... ah well what can you do. Hmm I got 5 minutes to get ready for this meeting... doh

~dhavid

Someone give this guy a hug

And mebbe some loose change so he can get a sammich.

Akon - Mr Lonely

Chrous
I'm so lonely (so lonely),
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (i have nobody)
For my owwnn(to call my owwnn)

I'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (i have nobody)
for my owwnn (to call my own owwnn)

I woke up in the middle of the night and I noticed my girl wasn't by my side, coulda' sworn I was dreamin', for her I was feenin, so I hadda take a little ride, back tracking ova' these few years, tryna' figure out wat I do to make it go bad, cause, ever since my girl left me, my whole life came crashin

Chrous

Cant believe I hadda girl like you and I just let you walk right outta my life, after all I put you thru you still stuck
around and stayed by my side, what really hurt me is I broke your heart, baby you were a good girl and I had no right, I
really wanna make things right, cause without you in my life girl,

Chrous

Been all over the world ain't neva met a girl that can take the things that you been through
Never thought the day would come where you would get up and run and I would be out chasing you cause ain't nowhere in the globe I'd rather be, ain't no one in the globe I'd rather see, then the girl of my dreams that made me be so happy but now so lonely.

Chrous

Never thought that I'd be alone, I didnt know you'd be gone this long, I just want you to call my phone, so stop playing girl and come on home (come on home), baby girl I didn't mean to shout, I want me and you to work it out, I never wished I'd ever hurt my baby, and its drivin' me crazy cause...

Chrous

Stealhy

Oh right, also I saw Stealth over the weekend. I have to say I really liked it. If you like jets and such, it's a very pretty movie. The CG / Model work was pretty seamless. The only issue I had which I guess I'm ok with is the fact that it's VERY similar to some anime I've watched. Mainly Macross Plus and Yukikaze. I'm just waiting for a Hollywood to come out with a live-action Robotech, hell they're already working on a live-action Transformers movie.

Also my LCD flat panel came in today.. WOOT! Now I just have to carry it home and attempt to hook it up while moving my old monitor amidst being attacked by cats with very sharp claws... maybe I should cut their nails first.

Also while downstairs earlier some random lady started talking to me. She kind of lost me when she started talking about signs and being a fellow Aquarius and all that, but whatever she did offer some good advice for the AZ trip for Donovan and I. I'm thinking we're going to plot through Colorado instead of Kansas. This should be an adventure haha hope his car doesn't break down.

- D -

Blood Makes Noise

I live in cathouse!

Well ok not what you would think is a cathouse, but I have two kitties on the prowl now hehe. Let's see if Joan can sell her place before the cats decide my TV or my computer look tasty.

Along with the cats came a bag of stuff from my old car. Most of it was junk and got tossed but I did manage to save two cassette tapes. For those of you that are to young to know what a cassette tape is.. see this site. Awesome. Where's my ipod hmm.

So recently in Chicago, they passed the law that while driving you must use a headset for your cellphone. If not, you get pulled over and ticketed. Each offense raises the amount you are charged. That's fine and well, I went to Best Buy and picked one up for $20 and it's normal looking. Last night however.. Haruka and I were driving back from Chili'sbecause I had a taste for ribs.. and we see this guy driving next to us. I'll give this guy props for adhering to the law but DAMN. With his headset, dude looked like he was landing planes or working in a Burger King drive thru. Tokyo? Come in Tokyo.. can you hear me now? It was ginormous!

All for now. Work and all.

~dhavid

Knowledge is Power

My job title is Knowledge Management Specialist. Above my desk, I have a cartoon printed up with an older guy wearing a suit kneeling down next to a kid that he is trying to give guidance to. When I randomly look at that throughout the day at work, it makes me laugh and hate my job a little less.

I have the song "Eyes On Me" (Soul of Bass Version) on repeat on my headphones right now. I posted the lyrics a bit ago. Something about this song makes me a little less dead inside. I think its because it makes me think of the Final Fantasy videogames which has been a part of my life since I was able to pick up a controller. And though people in my life that I hang out with or whatever have changed, in the end, those games were always there and the good guys in those games were always still good even if you were having a bad day. On some strange level.. that's comforting.

Hehehe bought a new LCD Monitor for home. It's purrrty. It's a bit expensive.. but hey.. it makes me happy, not to mention shooting people in first person shooters will be even easier! muhaha!

So next month I'm going to road trip with Donovan since he's going away for school. The drive should be about 28+ hours. Damn. That's going to be a long drive. I've told people I want to bring some sort of weapon along. Driving through some of the southern states in a red Honda Civic makes me a bit nervous. I swear if I hear, "We don't like your kind round here!" There will be conseequences and repercussions! Hehe. Thug.

I'm jealous I'm not going to the Full Moon Party. Have fun at that Nong Soi you deserve a vacation.. even if I don't get to go with :( <- That's me, being sad.

Let's see what else. I've resurrected my PDA at work because there's so much stuff being piled on me that I can't keep track of it otherwise. They're going to give me a Blackberry soon which I'm not sure is a good thing or not. Sure I already have the Nextel that they call me on at random during non-business hours bit now they'll be able to email me to? hmm.

On a lighter note, I'll be getting the kitties from Joan soon. Since she and Kenyon will be moving R & T need a place to crash. That's pretty cool, it's been awhile since R and I have been able to lounge around on the couch and play videogames or watch sci fi.. though he prefers to help me play first person shooters on the computer so he can 'point out' all the bad guys by selectively swatting at the monitor when I'm playing hehe.

Ah crap I started this post 4 hours ago and I haven't been able to finish it so I'll do it later.

~dhavid

Surf's Up

No time to post today work sucks. Long post of lyrics instead.
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Jack Johnson - Flake

I know she said it's alright
But you can make it up next time
I know she knows it's not right
There ain't no use in lying
Maybe she thinks I know something
Maybe maybe she thinks its fine
Maybe she knows something I don't
I'm so, I'm so tired, I'm so tired of trying

It seems to me that maybe
It pretty much always means no
So don't tell me you might just let it go
And often times we're lazy
It seems to stand in my way
Cause no one no not no one
Likes to be let down

I know she loves the sunrise
No longer sees it with her sleeping eyes
And I know that when she said she's gonna try
Well it might not work because of other ties and
I know she usually has some other ties
And I wouldn't want to break 'em, nah, I wouldn't want to break 'em
Maybe she'll help me to untie this but
Until then well, I'm gonna have to lie to you.

It seems to me that maybe
It pretty much always means no
So don't tell me you might just let it go
And often times we're lazy
It seems to stand in my way
Cause no one no not no one
Likes to be let down
It seems to me that maybe
It pretty much always means no
So don't tell me you might just let it go

The harder that you try baby, the further you'll fall
Even with all the money in the whole wide world
Please please please don't pass me
Please please please don't pass me
Please please please don't pass me by

Everything you know about me now baby you gonna have to change
You gonna have to call it by a brand new name
Please please please don't drag me
Please please please don't drag me
Please please please don't drag me down

Just like a tree down by the water baby I shall not move
Even after all the silly things you do
Please please please don't drag me
Please please please don't drag me
Please please please don't drag me down

Of all the things I miss

I miss my soul the most.

This whole corporate grind thing it's well.. what happens to peper after you grind it? And after it's already.. ground, what happens when you try to grind it more? Exactly my point.

So I'm trying to stay afloat of these things I need to fix, maintain, create and manage, then Princes of the Universe by Queen comes on and this of course has my mind wander off in another direction for a couple minutes and I was thinking.. what do I miss from days gone by. Here's a list of some things.

1. Random road trips (that don't suck)
2. Having a 'core' group of people I hung out with on a daily basis
3. TV shows like Highlander
4. Playing Q-Zar and being good at it (before it was about covering sensors)
5. Going to the arcade with Donovan and owning people at any fighting game out there. (Cept Tekken cuz that one sucks)
6. Saturday Morning Cartoons. (Though I watch anime whenever.. but still!)
7. Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles.... cereal
8. Having a reason to talk to people on the phone for hours and being okay with that. (Nowadays a typical conversation is like "What up?" "Nothing much" . . . "Aight later" "Later then"
9. Not having to be responsible and pay bills
10. Riding my bike (Tricked out BMX or 10speed)
11. Stealing my mom or my cousins car and driving w/out a license.
12. Hanging out with /being a gangbanger (More I miss some of the people but let's face it, gangs are stupid)
13. Playing Total Annihilation for days taking a break here and there so my friends and I didn't die from hunger or lack of sleep.
14. The Prelude
15. Getting my ass kicked in the mosh pits at NIN concerts
16. Ditching High School - Can't really get away with ditching much else after that
17. A pager. (I've had once since like.. for ever ago before cell phones were big, it was nice to make the choice of.. do I feel like calling this person back? Now they leave you messages on your cell blah blah blah.. shaddup)
18. Having a mohawk (not to the punky spike in the middle of your head style but still)
19. Wearing a black leather biker jacket haha
20. Not thinking of things that I miss

Awesome.

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D12 w/Eminem - How Come

So I changed huh? You got a phone, pick it up, call me

Chorus:
How come we dont even talk no more
And you dont even call no more
We dont barely keep in touch at all
And I dont even feel the same love when we hug no more
And I heard it through the grape vine we even beefin now
After all the years we been down
Aint no way no how, this bullshit can be true
We family and aint a damn thing changed, unless it's you

So young, so full of life in vibrant side by side wherever you
weres ridin i went
So close, almost on some bonnie and clyde shit
When ronnie died you wass right by my side with a sholder to cry on
Tissue to wipe my eyes, and a bucket to catch every tear i cried inside it
You even had the same type of childhood i did
Sometimes i just want to know why is it that you sucame to yours
And mine i survived it, you ran the streets, i 9 to 5'd it
We grew up, grew apart, as time went by us, then i blew up
To both yours and mine surprises
Now i feel the vibe i just cant describe it
As much as your pride tries to hide it
Your cold, you touch its like ice
In your eyes is the look of resenment
I can sense it, and i dont like it

[Chorus]

It was my dream at first to be on spittin a verse
On my own album with a deal but shit got burst
So i came out i woulda killed a nigga first
Before i let him disrespect me and check me over some worste
Some bitch that i wasnt with i would hit her then quit
But you would pull a talk with her and tell her she was the shit
I told you dont get involved in it, you was smokin the chron with her
Comin out of the bar with her stumblin half drunk
Like yall was husband and wife or somethin
But me catchin you f**kin other niggas musta hurt you pride or somethin
Cuz you wont f**k at the mouth with people like you wanted with me
When all i tried to do was show your bitch was shifty
And ever since the fans and all the shit that i produced
You actin like i aint you man and lyin like she can't be loose
But i am really you friend, i'm jus trying to tell you the truth
But dont hate the game or the player
Cuz the one that is changing is you

[Chorus]

You're only at the top cuz my homie had to stop
Now we actin like i gotta live only for the block
Homies in the hood only she be on the tube
Only gossip on the porch get to speakin on who
Fools i used to rap with all expect magic
Like my finger get to snappin and *poof* it jus happen
But PROOF is jus actin out the party was stoned
Shady made it so my babys aint starvin at home
See the devil in you grin since the ghetto we been friends
Whenever real intelligence thats forever till the end
I be the hatred in your eyes and the satan in your lives
And wastin my times with these snakes in disguise
(how come) when you talk its with bitter is fight
And (how come) it's my fault for what you did with your life
And everytime i go to hear you and play you look away
We barely embrace, you can't even look me in my face.

Head Like a Hole

Work work work. And I didn't win the damn lottery from last Friday. I don't follow the rules of winning;

1. Can't speak English
2. Already wealthy
3. Older than dirt

So lets see. Last Thur / Fri I wasn't able to post at all because work is whoring me like a blonde hooker in Asia... (thinks about people who read this...) Strike that last comment.

This past weekend I was in St. Louis with Haruka, my mum, my sis and her boyfriend. Let me just say if you go there.. you must be like the chick from UHF who picked 'the box' over the red snapper.

I'll say ok it was cool to see technology from the 60s.. but I'm more a new technology kind of guy. I'd rather have a lightsaber or a laser gun compared to a rocketship held up by strings.

While there we stopped at a casino. All I can say is.. damn I can burn through money quick on video poker. I wasn't feelin playing with all the pros at the tables. Damn people that gamble all the time and get pissy if you don't do something 'right'. Whatever with that, you're there to have fun, its not your damn job, least not mine.

Also on the ride home, we had a tire blow out.. luckily it was the back tire or else I wouldn't be sitting her failing to post anything interesting right now.

Ok. I gotta get back to work, I'll post when I have time to breathe and such.

~dhavid

Riddle me this

I'm so not motivated to work. So instead I'll read the blogs of people I like. Stumbling across Donovan's blog he posted some Q&A.. guess I'll answer this instead of working.. good job.
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1. ONE WISH? World Peace.
2. ARE YOU A LOVER OR A FIGHTER? Yes. It's good to be both.
3. WHAT’S YOUR WORST FEAR? Wasting my life by not doing something of worth and not being remembered when I'm gone.
4. AS A KID, WERE YOU A LEGO MANIAC? I was all about the spaceship sci-fi legos.
5. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF “REALITY” TV? It's ok. I'll take sci-fi over it any day.
6. DO YOU CHEW ON YOUR STRAWS? Sometimes yeah.
7. WERE YOU A CUTE BABY? Hell if I remember.
8. IS THE SINGLE LIFE FOR YOU? Only when I want to play videogames till the sun comes up hehehe
9. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR KEYBOARD? White.. black on the laptop.
10. DO YOU SING IN THE SHOWER? No.
11. HAVE YOU EVER BUNGEE JUMPED? No.
12. ANY SECRET TALENTS? If yes, they're still secret to me.
13. WHAT’S YOUR IDEAL VACATION SPOT? Japan. Thailand. Australia. London.
14. IS JAY LENO FUNNY? Looks aren't everything.
15. CAN YOU SWIM? Like Nemo.
16. HAVE YOU SEEN THE MOVIE “DONNIE DARKO”? Director's Cut baby.
17. DO YOU GIVE A DAMN ABOUT THE OZONE? Why would I care about the layer of atmosphere that allows for human life on the surface of the planet...(that means yes for you slower folks).
18. HOW MANY LICKS DOES IT TAKE TO GET TO THE CENTER OF A TOOSTIE POP? Don't know, I like instant gratification myself.
19. CAN YOU SING THE ALPHABET BACKWARDS? Sing? Hell I can barely SAY the alphabet backwards.

(Crap at this point I start to figure out how long this list of questions is and feel I REALLY should get back to work.. but the show must go on!)

20. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON AN AIRPLANE? Yup.
21. ARE YOU AN ONLY CHILD? Nope
22. DO YOU PREFER ELECTRIC OR MANUAL PENCIL SHARPENERS? Electric
23. WHAT’S YOUR STAND ON HUNTING? I think its bullshit to hunt for sport. If you're going to eat it, ok. But don't shoot living things for no reason.
24. IS MARRIAGE IN YOUR FUTURE? Someday.
25. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? Hahahahha. No. There's a reason I can type very fast.
26. WHAT ARE YOU ALLERGIC TO? Uh.. Horses (boo), Cats (till I get used to them).
27. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAID I LOVE YOU”? This morning
28. IS ELVIS STILL ALIVE? If he is, he's a dumbass.
29. DO YOU CRY AT WEDDINGS? No.
30. HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR EGGS? Cooked.
31. ARE BLONDES DUMB? Stupid knows no hair color.
32. WHERE DOES THE OTHER SOCK END UP? On the other foot if you can find it.
33. WHAT TIME IS IT? 9:52 a.m.
34. DO YOU HAVE A NICKNAME? None that I approve of.
35. IS MCDONALD’S DISGUSTING? From a nutritional standpoint fuck yeah, now pass me some nuggets and an order of fries.
36. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU WERE IN A CAR? Couple of hours ago.
37. DO YOU PREFER BATHS OR SHOWERS? Wait, Solo? Showers I spose.
38. IS SANTA CLAUS REAL? As real as weapons of mass destruction and the easter bunny.
39. KIRK OR PICARD? Dude.. who else can scream KAAAAAAAHHNNN!!!! Kirk is a legend. Picard is just a high level pimp.
40. ARE YOU AFRAID OF THE DARK? Normally no.
41. WHAT ARE YOU ADDICTED TO? Breathing. Seems like whenever I try to stop, I can't.
42. CRUNCHY OR CREAMY PEANUT BUTTER? Creamy? Don't really care.
43. CAN YOU CRACK YOUR NECK? Yes. (Look Mom! No Hands!)
44. HAVE YOU EVER RIDDEN IN AN AMBULANCE? Been in them more than once not sure if I actually took a ride on one though.
45. HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU BRUSHED YOUR TEETH TODAY? Once so far.
46. IS DRUG FREE THE WAY TO BE? Meh.. prochoice on that. Am I curious of some? Sure. Would I care if I never had any the rest of my life? Not really.
47. ARE YOU A HEAVY SLEEPER? Yeah, if you try waking me up and aren't careful you might get knocked the FUCK out.
48. WHAT COLOR ARE YOUR EYES? Brown.
50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR LIFE? It has it's moments. It might not be alot, but it's my lot.
51. LIQUOR OR BEER? Liquor. Gimme a shaker and some juice, I'll mix you something.
52. ARE YOU PSYCHIC? I KNEW you were going to ask that...

(Bloody hell how long is this thing?!)

53. HAVE YOU READ “CATCHER THE RYE”? No.
55. HAVE U EVER STOLEN MONEY? Yes.
56. CAN YOU SNOWBOARD? Not so much.
57. DO YOU LIKE CAMPING? Sure.
58. DO U SNORT WHEN U LAUGH? No.
59. DO YOU BELIEVE IN MAGIC? No, but I would like to.
60. ARE DOGS A MAN’S BEST FRIEND? Not always.
61. DO YOU BELIEVE IN DIVORCE? Better to be divorced than end up in a fiery car crash rolling down the side of a hill becaue your husband or wife wanted to end the relationship.
62. CAN YOU DO THE MOONWALK? Yes.
63.DO YOU MAKE A LOT OF MISTAKES? No. I mean yes. Damn it!
64. IS IT COLD OUTSIDE TODAY? Sadly no.
65. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE? Strawberries and cream.
66.DO YOU WEAR NAIL POLISH? Not normally.
67. SWEATSHIRT OR JACKET? Jacket (I miss you jacket!)
68. WHAT’S THE MOST ANNOYING COMMERCIAL? Those viagra like ones with the guy that smiles to much. It's creepy as shit.
69. DO YOU SHOP AT AMERICAN EAGLE? Nope.
70. DO YOU SNORE? If a tree falls in the forrest...
71. FAVORITE SONG AT THE MOMENT? Something techno / trance / euro like.